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perhaps, a good ending caused a better start (part two)

2012-01-27T00:54:00.006+08:00

*eyes closed*

*inhale*

*exhale*

*eyes opened*

where were we? oh. day two of TOF. ok. let's continue. :)

Dec 25th, 2011

since the former day ended unpleasantly for us the three sisters, we did our best to make the next day better. :) expecially i myself because i.. i was like the planner. hu. still, we knew what Allah's fixed for us would be the best. :) have faith.

about 7.30 a.m., we're ready to go down. i'd arranged something with a teacher that used to be teaching us generally, me to be specific. mlmh Zantinita. :) it's been quite a time i didn't chat with her, exchange news with her... :) i keep updating about her thru her blog. :) i do stalk people i love. ok? ha. ha. ok.

*SOQ*

therefore, after done the payment thingy with AI, and shake-hand-and-hug with her, her mom, sister and others, we went down. just few seconds later, our mlmh arrived. :) with her Kenari. she brought us to which Presint, i don't remember, but, there's a pool there. :) she treated us. XD so, i chose hot cook (read: masakan panas) XD Yiba took soto, Lala took moi (nasi air? bubur?), i took lontong. we had a good conversation. thinking backwardly about the conversation, i felt i'm a grown-up girl. :D we talked about working world... working sectors; govt & private... our mlmh had experienced both sectors.. and i'm in training with govt sect and my elder sis and younger
sis are in private sect training. ^__^ it also realized me how fast time passed... urm. maybe not about the speed of time passing over me, but time has passed thru a long path... just enough for us to have an adult conversation. :) one more but, no marriage topic. :)

then, mlmh sent us to PICC with another promise to have lunch together if there's nothing up.

we went straight to the workshop with Dr. Har. :) i wasn't enthusiasistic, b'coz i think that i'd attended her talk once in the year before... he. that proud me. i did my best to enjoy the talk! :) alhamdulillah, i did it!

there're numbers of question in me answered too! :) Women in the eyes of God; where do they stand?

dr. Har said, stay tall and proud,

Whoever works righteousness, man or woman, and has Faith, verily, to him will We give a new Life, a life that is good and pure and We will bestow on such their reward according to the best of their actions.
(The Bee, 16:97)

we've SPIRITUAL EQUALITY

And their Lord hath accepted of them, and answered them: "Never will I suffer to be lost the work of any of you, be he male or female: Ye are members, one of another: Those who have left their homes, or been driven out therefrom, or suffered harm in My Cause, or fought or been slain,- verily, I will blot out from them their iniquities, and admit them into Gardens with rivers flowing beneath;- A reward from the presence of Allah, and from His presence is the best of rewards."
(The Family of 'Imran, 3:195)

within the sphere of life; seeking knowledge and partners,

And among His Signs is this, that He created for you mates from among yourselves, that ye may dwell in tranquillity with them, and He has put love and mercy between your (hearts): verily in that are Signs for those who reflect.
(The Romans, 30:21)

we're DIFFERENT yet EQUAL but SPECIAL

By (the mystery of) the creation of male and female;- Verily, (the ends) ye strive for are diverse.
(The Night, 92:3-4)

we; WOMEN.. ok.. just in case u don't feel u're a woman, yet ladies. *LOL* anything.. girl.. female... we're important! we're in the MDG (Millenium Development Goals)!! we're in the 5th place. what say you? ;) ok. that MDG especially for mothers, it's related to maternity. XD u do wanna be a mother, am i right? he. ok. u're not if u're a male. =.=

sacred position of mothers. :)

women in the eyes of men... how men look at women? it depends on how the women themselves view themselves. :) here's the analogy of durian and cucumber.. ok.. i dun really remember 'bout this analogy. XD ostrich attitude. i forgot bout this three. u may google it.

our baseline is 165 if it's interpreted based on ESQ model. the ego should be lowering, and the izzah should be enhancing. :)

women are like the sun... why? because sun is one of energy sources. :)

sakinah = mawaddah + rahmah

after dr. har's slot, we went up to the plenary hall. Dr. Maszlee Malik was on the stage. i like his English speech. :D it doesn't sound too Malaysian. kui. okayy~ it's about Unity in Diversity. i didn't really jot down something during his speech since when i got to be in the hall, it's already half of his lecture. :)

afterwards, we'd Boona Mohammed's performance. hmm.. then Sh. Navaid Aziz's lecture again. his topic was Our Youth the Foundations of an Examplary Community. there're number of things in a list... and in his page,

Here are 10 ten topics you should discuss with your potential spouse before you get married. Keep in mind that you are looking for compatibility and not a direct replica of yourself (Seriously, what fun would that be? :P). 1- Religion, 2- Finances, 3- Family, 4- Education, 5- Kids, 6- Employment, 7- The future, 8- The past, 9- Habits and hobbies, 10- Health. Also please read the link below.

http://muslimvillage.com/2011/10/27/15806/10-ways-to-avoid-marrying-the-wrong-person/

*ok. frankly speaking i'd lost my interest to share... but i will finish this draft till the end!! o yeah! o yeah!

ok. finance. earn money... don't keep only for yourself!!! spend them in the way of Allah! ;)

ok. Sh. Hussein Yee again after that. hmm... i didn't really focus. ok. i just can't recall. :( but then, there's 'bout answering salam... :) and

la dhirar wa la dhirar..

next, Dr. Bilal Philips; Education for Life, not for Living. do u understand? u're studying ICT is not because u want to really earn money from it. do u get it? :D

seeking knowledge is religious obligation. make-up our mind now!

Proclaim! (or read!) in the name of thy Lord and Cherisher, Who created- Created man, out of a (mere) clot of congealed blood: Proclaim! And thy Lord is Most Bountiful,- He Who taught (the use of) the pen, -Taught man that which he knew not.
(The Clot, 96:1-5)

they're useless knowledge too. hm... :) and his words;

gynecology; men don't go!
engineering; women don't go!

last part; goal of education is for???

APPLICATION

:)

convey knowledge.

next; Sh. Alaa El-Sayed with his topic; Exemplary Women of the Past.

love them for the sake of Allah! :) ; u'll be with who you love.

power of love, i would say. :D

this lecture, haha. men and women were smashed!! why? ok. look at Khadijah. when Rasulullah p.b.u.h (s.a.w) received the first wahy from Allah via Jibril... he went home.. there, Khadijah comforted him. relate to our life,

women (Wives), does your husband run to you or run away from you?

then,

fathers were asked... do your children run to you or run away from you?

:)

next; Sh. Yahya Ibrahim. :) the title was Allah's Beloved.

three main points;

inspire others
make a change
connect with Allah

then, dr. Tawfiwue Chowdhury with the topic, Allah in the Hearts, World in the Hands + The Balanced Nation (wasato?)

:)

Ye are the best of peoples, evolved for mankind, enjoining what is right, forbidding what is wrong, and believing in Allah. If only the People of the Book had faith, it were best for them: among them are some who have faith, but most of them are perverted transgressors.
(The Family of 'Imran, 3:110)

p/s: i'll try my best to share 'bout my next experience; 1k1

p/s2: i was disappointed when my favourite author's comment opposed mine. huahhhh~ :( *gedix

p/s3: i'll try my best to update current life too.

p/s4: i'm quite ashamed for the contest at the facebook i'd joined.. err.. b'coz it enquires me to mencapub... @.@

p/s5: changing name and profile picta at facebook made me feel 'young' again. it brought me to that zone (baca: daerah itu) again... =)

p/s6: just finished Nuansa Kota Merah. this piece of Khairyn Othman is very different from Zahrah de Tigris and Dame Zoete Sarah. too long with the historical... XD but, i too felt like touring Granada in two different times! (baca: zaman).

p/s 7: this entry has been drafted for almost two weeks in the notepad!

p/s 8: mlmh stands for mu'allimah which means teacher. :)

WW4

2012-01-12T14:56:00.001+08:00

perhaps, a good ending caused a better start (part one)

2012-01-06T17:49:00.004+08:00

it's a good holiday. ok. i rather type it's the best break i ever had, even i'd been whining it's bored in the first 4 weeks of it.

the first four weeks i was searching for something until i wrote previous entry. ~~damn~~ meself. ok. the purpose of this entry is to share something good for me
which are Twins of Faith (TOF) and Himpunan 1000 Jiwa and 1 Hati (1k1). :)

Dec 23rd, 2011
i departed to KL with my family (ayah, ummi, 'Ali, Muhammad and yummy). we arrived PJS 7 around at 9 p.m.

Dec 24th, 2011
Lala, Yiba and i were dropped at KTM station at Setiajaya. we're late. bianata for AI and family for being waited for us. hu. we're fetch by AI (her mother drove us). we arrived PICC at 10 a.m. or few minutes after 10. met mlmh Sakinah and mlmh Noraini (she'd moved to Kedah!) at registration counter. oh. the moment i was at the parking lot, that was where my handphone began to be not with me. hu. alhamdulillah, i wasn't clumsy (or what) over it. thus, that time i was sure that it's in the car.:) my sisters and i went up to Plenary hall after registered our names for workshop in the evening. i registered for two; with Raya Shorkartfard and ust.Zaharuddin. but i only attended the one with sister Raya. :D hu.

the first talk we listened to was from Sh. Aala. it's about building blocks. wait. hm. it had something to do with family. then, Sheikh related it with right for children where it leaded us to the topic of choosing spouse. :) personally, i was quite excited when he mentioned this because he told us the criteria of good spouse for women. i think i never heard about that yet, instead of i always heard about the criteria in women for men to find. am i right? ah-ha. if i'm not, then i'm not up-to-date i supposed.

the criteria for men = [2 from Qur'an (Qawiy (strong in FAITH (IMAN)) + Al-Amin (trustworthy)] + [2 from sunnah (religious background + moral)

then, we're told about

criterias for friends too; remind you of Allah, guide you to the path of Allah, speech increase your iman.

:) i also wrote,

who you told who you are.

ok, i forgot the meaning. blame me. then we're advised again to help, not hurt and we too were reminded to remember who you are.
the next speaker was Ust. Zaharuddin, about modern economics and principles. sincerely, i wasn't that enthusiasm about this topic. err.. i listened to it though. and yet, i didn't really jot down something in my desk diary. the written words for this lecture were maqasid shari'ah and

supplication and wealth.

:)

after lunch, there was performance by Shinji Moriwaki and Mu'adz. i wasn't in the hall. -.-

afterwards, we had Sh. Navaid Aziz. Lala and Yiba like him very much. obviously he's cute in a way. ^.^ masha Allah. his topic entitled I'm Muslim and I'm Proud. i'd noted on

LOVE, MERCY AND COMPASSION, FORGIVENESS, JUSTICE, IHSAN

and three words;

Knowledge, Action, Relationship.

i can't elaborate these points since i've forgotten them. T^T

there's no paradise for those who don't have iman, not a mu'min until the person loves and no love if you don't spread salaam.

the story of Abdullah ibn Huzafah;

free a nation thru a single kiss.

after Sh. Navaid Aziz's session, we walked out to the room downstairs for the session with Raya. here, i found the same-not-good-attitude of Malaysian. we're given choices; either lecture + Q&A session or documentary (My life with Islam) show + lecture. guess which one was chosen? of coz the one without Q&A session. ha. ha. ok. maybe it's not related to the not-good-attitude because the documentary's said like quite exclusive. hu. it's the story of our sister Raya; how she left Islam and return to it. :) her session entitled Challenges for Working Mom. ha-ha. well, insha Allah, my elder sister is an architect to be in one year, my only younger sister is a nurse to be in two years, and i myself will be 'something' in three years after graduate. and we want to be a mother. ha-ha. thus, the topic is relevant for us, that's the point. yeah~ i like what Raya shared with us. hu. and i found an answer thru the talk. u remember, that in the past break, i was searching for job and i just couldn't find one. one of questions to be pondered from Raya was

can you maintain your muslim dignity at work?

:) and based on her experience of losing her children because of her workaholic-ism, she advised us to

never ever bring works at home.

it's a big NO. unless u want to lose ur family. she showed us pictures and slides... hm. Allah makes it easy for us.

Men are the protectors and maintainers of women, because Allah has given the one more (strength) than the other, and because they support them from their means. Therefore the righteous women are devoutly obedient, and guard in (the husband's) absence what Allah would have them guard. As to those women on whose part ye fear disloyalty and ill-conduct, admonish them (first), (Next), refuse to share their beds, (And last) beat them (lightly); but if they return to obedience, seek not against them Means (of annoyance): For Allah is Most High, great (above you all).

(Women, 4:34)

then, after maghrib break, Dr. Abu Ameenah Bilal Philips took over the stage in the Plenary hall. his talk was on Islamic Culture or Cultural Islam? what's the different?

Islamic culture is the culture that is encouraged by Islam to be practised by us based on the Quran and the sunnah.

cultural Islam refers to the action of practising other culture which is not in the Quran and sunnah, but then, it became synonymous with Islam.

there're four main points; pre islamic culture, adopted culture & religious fanaticists. ok, i lost one point; the third. new things i learnt; about bride-burning. then, here we're told about Islam can't be inherited. Islam means the submission to the will of Allah. just like the song Iman Mutiara by Raihan lah. :)

the last talk for the first day was by Sh. Hussein Yee. Sheikh prefers to use the term "not yet muslim" for those who're not yet a muslim because of the hadith every child born as a muslim. oh. his topic was One Faith, One Family. we're bonded by aqidah. and he kept emphasising on Islam is for all humankind. it's not only for Arab people nor only Malay nor only for slave nor anything that can discriminate us. in the khutbah wida', the prophet Muhammad s.a.w used the term ayyuhannas. Nas - people generally. then, syaitan believe in Allah and never syirik. human? hu.

I
Shall
Love
All
Mankind

Allah created us different, but we're not promoting those differences! we're one family! :)

lastly, we had Boona Mohammed performance. :)

will be continued...

bosan?

2011-12-18T23:39:00.004+08:00

By the Glorious Morning Light, And by the Night when it is still,- Thy Guardian-Lord hath not forsaken thee, nor is He displeased. And verily the Hereafter will be better for thee than the present. And soon will thy Guardian-Lord give thee (that wherewith) thou shalt be well-pleased. Did He not find thee an orphan and give thee shelter (and care)? And He found thee wandering, and He gave thee guidance. And He found thee in need, and made thee independent. Therefore, treat not the orphan with harshness, Nor repulse the petitioner (unheard); But the bounty of the Lord - rehearse and proclaim! (93:1-11)

By the Night as it conceals (the light); By the Day as it appears in glory; By (the mystery of) the creation of male and female;-Verily, (the ends) ye strive for are diverse. So he who gives (in charity) and fears ((Allah)), And (in all sincerity) testifies to the best,- We will indeed make smooth for him the path to Bliss. But he who is a greedy miser and thinks himself self-sufficient, And gives the lie to the best,- We will indeed make smooth for him the path to Misery; Nor will his wealth profit him when he falls headlong (into the Pit). Verily We take upon Ourselves to guide, And verily unto Us (belong) the End and the Beginning. Therefore do I warn you of a Fire blazing fiercely; None shall reach it but those most unfortunate ones Who give the lie to Truth and turn their backs. But those most devoted to Allah shall be removed far from it,- Those who spend their wealth for increase in self-purification, And have in their minds no favour from anyone for which a reward is expected in return, But only the desire to seek for the Countenance of their Lord Most High; And soon will they attain (complete) satisfaction. (92:1-21)

bosan. aku teringat, ada dalam salah satu entri ketika zaman habis sekolah menengah 3 tahun yang lalu, aku pernah mengingatkan temanku mengenai kesibukan... kesibukan saudara-saudara di Palestin. hu. hu.

dan cuti kali ini, sungguh, tiada perkataan yang boleh menggantikan perkataan bosan itu. dan aku malu sendiri kerana setiap kali terdetik bosan dan ingin melafazkan dua suku kata itu, aku teringat pesanku kepada teman tersayang itu tiga tahun yang lalu. Allah kan marah kita cakap tak serupa bikin? :(

dan begitu juga samanya setiap kali mendengar lagu-lagu... kenapa? lagu yang baik-baik macam Number One For Me by Maher Zain... kau baca lirik lagu tu... if i could.. if i could... mom i'm all grown up now... ilal aakhir. aku terasa mahu menyanyi bersama VLC media player ini, tetapi tersekat. sebab sepanjang cuti ini, have i really made ummi smile? have i really put a smile on her? :(

apabila bosan... nak aje aku quote apa yang dah Rnysa quote dalam Love Ride of Hikari... cerita Hazel dan Umar... tapi tak boleh quote sebab buku tu tak ada. tapi ada satu quote aku jumpa di plain.not.

“kesibukan fisik dapat membantu banyak memutus kesibukan hati memikirkan banyak hal , pikiran yang hanya mengundang kesedihan”- Sunset Bersama Rosie, Tere Liye.

ok. mungkin isi dalam quotation di atas kurang tepat dengan topik kebosanan. tapi boleh dikaitkan, apabila anda tidak ada apa-apa untuk difikirkan dan dilakukan, maka fikiran anda akan menerawang jauh, jauh dan jauh! itu sekurang-kurangnya fikir jugak.. huhu.

macam aku, cuti kali ini, serius aku kata, terasa null. hu. sedih.

hajat awal cuti, kerja. ha. ha. tapi tak ada orang nak ambil aku kerja! serius. dan ada pulak yang boleh ambil kerja tapi tak kena dengan syarat aku sendiri la. hu. antara syarat sendiri tentu-tentulah berprinsip. contohnya tempat kerja itu waktu kerja cantek, tak sampai malam, tapi baju kerja pula bermasalah. lengan pendek. masuk dalam seluar. hu. yeaha. di institut macam tak pakai ye? entah. apabila balik rumahku syurgaku automatik lah susah nak buat benda 'lain-lain'. haha. hm...

dan sesungguhnya, apabila menyatakan bosan, aku malu kepada laron, ikan dan semut. :'(

4 minggu yang berlalu dengan malu.

antara perkara yang aku berjaya kenalpasti mengenai ke-bosan-an yang melanda diri aku adalah kerana dua benda; internet dan novel.

cuti-cuti sebelum ini, internet dapat memberikan aku satu 'kepuasan' dan meng'isi' hidup aku di rumah. kenapa? aku boleh baca blog. aku boleh update blog. aku boleh chatting. aku boleh tengok cerita. aku boleh dengar lagu. aku boleh tengok gambar. aku baca surat khabar dan isu semasa. tapi sekarang.......

aku dapati semua tu tak dapat memenuhi 'kehendak' aku. tak dapat meng'isi' aku. seorang aku yang terasa 'kosong' tidak ter'isi' lagi dengan semua tu. chatting? dah tak ada siapa sangat dah yang betul-betul sempat nak chatting. sebab ramai dah sedar tanggungjawab masing-masing. aku sendiri pun serba salah nak menyapa. nak cakap apa kalau sapa? hu. :( blog? baca blog pun terasa macam semua blog topik macam tu je? :( teruknya aku tika ini. ada juga yang menarik, tapi, paaaaaaaanjaaaaaaaaaaaaanggnyaaaaaaaaaaa! dengar lagu? semua lagu yang aku dengar buat aku lagi rasa useless... dengar lagu ni.. tapi x buat pun?!

cuti-cuti sebelum ini lagi.. biasanya aku habiskan masa dengan membaca. ya. marathon jugak novel... kali ni, banyak juga novel/genre buku lain aku belum habiskan. OK. buku yang genre selain novel memang jarang aku habiskan cepat pun! kau tahu kan? tapi novel... aku dapati jalan cerita novel sekarang teramat tipikal. hu. walaupun dulu aku merasakan novel terbitan JS terbaik~ tapi tengok juga penulis. hua. sungguh aku rindu hasil kerja penulis2 terawal JS... bukan la tak nak baca hasil kerja orang baru, tapi sebab aku rasa 'kosong' aku tu tak bertambah dan berganda baca hasil lain. hu. dan tak membawa aku ke perspektif lain. deng. aku komen macam bagus kan? hu. aku pun sebenarnya pasang niat nak berkarya... tapi, memikirkan minat membaca aku pun merudum, manakah sumber untuk jadi ilham hasil karya? hu. pemerhatian boleh jadi sumber, tapi aku bukan seorang pemerhati yang baik~ (teringat tips daripada A. Samad Said 3 tahun lalu...)

aku berazam, balik daripada mengiringi remaja-remaja adik-adikku sayang tu, aku tak nak mengeluh bosan lagi! tetapi, masih ada lagi tembok mengeluh bosan itu! hu.

padahal... masa yang ada tu boleh je aku isi dengan benda yang boleh menjadikan aku seorang anak solehah sebenarnya. boleh je aku isi dengan perkara yang mendekatkan aku ke arah membentuk seorang adik dan kakak solehah. boleh je aku penuhkan dengan anasir yang membawa aku menuju ke laluan untuk mengadun seorang tetangga yang solehah. paling penting, masa yang terlalu banyak telah berlalu itu, sebenarnya tanpa aku sedar, aku telah melepaskan peluang untuk berlari infiniti km/jam dalam mengejar ke-solehah-an seorang hamba.

segannya apabila teman bertanya, apa khabar iman?

malu lagi dan malu lagi kepada laron, ikan dan semut.

saya pengiring.

2011-12-14T18:00:00.011+08:00

alhamdulillah sudah hari ketiga kembali ke rumah! haha. bukan kembali ke sekolah! ;p

aku juga sebenarnya telah mencari gambar banner ini sebelum berangkat untuk dijadikan DP...

pengalaman kali ini sangat menarik! kenapa? kerana saya pengiring. anda tahu, ketika saya diminta untuk menjadi pengiring, saya teringat akan syarat-syarat pengiring yang tertera pada skrin komputer yang saya baca pada blog program XPERT 2011.

Keperluan Kumpulan ( Ikut Negeri )
Video Camera
atau, Digital camera yang ada keboleh merakam Video
Laptop
Seorang Pengiring Yang Berpengalaman Dan Cekap

aku dah mengaku awal-awal, saya tidak berpengalaman menyertai program seperti ini kerana zaman saya dahulu sudah terlepas dan saya tidak berpengalaman dengan bandaraya Kuala Lumpur! saya juga tidaklah cekap kerana saya memang terkenal dengan kegelabahan saya. hampeh. tapi, syukur sangat kerana ada seorang teman saya yang dikenali sejak tadika mengatakan mahu turut menjadi pengiring! oh! satu nikmat itu! :) saya teringat kisah nabi Musa a.s. yang ditemani nabi Harun a.s. :)

saya sangat berdebar-debar seketikanya saya tiba di stesen bas sebelum bertolak ke KL. kenapa? kerana saya memang bersendirian tidak ditemani ummi. dan saya perlu berhadapan dengan ibu-ibu peserta yang bakal saya iringi! hahhh! ish~ cuak tahu! aku bertanggungjawab ke atas mereka! =.="

sampai Hentian Putra. hahaha! aku tak tahu di mana surau. =.=" tapi adik-adik tu pandai cari sendiri. :D dah besar~ haha! aku pulak yang tersalah arah. (diorg tak tahu fakta pagi itu) haha. malu. oh. aku bawak empat orang remaja perempuan dan dua orang remaja lelaki.

selepas Subuh, mari kita ke stesen STAR!! STAR? star? star? apakah? ok. menurut kakakku ada star dan KTM. amek lah star kerana lebih cepat untuk sampai ke Jelatek. berpandukan peta, cuba mencari stesen star. tapi akhirnya tak jumpa. dah nampak KTM punya stesen dulu, maka pergi je ke KTM. huhu. sangat meminta maaf kepada adik-adik comel-kacak-rock-baek tersebut.

dah tu sudah dapat tiket, aku sangat la sengal buat tak reti naik KTM pulak!!! memang malu. haha. hakikatnya dah sudah dah pun. hahaha. abaikan.

alhamdulillah. setelah yang tersalah stesen sudah kembali, selamat sampai ke SRI Al-Amin Keramat.

oh. aku memang bagi tahu ibu-ibu mereka, saya ini tidak biasa dengan KL. saya belajar di Bukit Mertajam. harap maklum. (^.^")V

maka itu lah permulaan kisah kelakar aku di KL.

masuk je kawasan sekolah, sudah tentunya mencari tempat pendaftaran. hu. hu. agak lambat mendaftar kerana rupanya bukan dua orang sahaja peserta kumpulan kami ini akan datang sendiri, rupanya tambah lagi tiga! omo~ pulak tu, biasanya aku ini jenis lupa diri, tak guna loghat kalau dah tinggalkan tanah negeri Cik Siti Wan Kembang itu. err... di tanah itu pun aku tak berapa guna loghat sangat. haha. memang lupa diri. disebabkan sudah guna loghat dengan adik-adik semua dan temanku pengiring lagi seorang, aku jadi kurang rajin nak switch lidah ke bahasa biasa. =.= ;p setelah aku bercakap beberapa patah, kedengaran komen,

"pekat nyaaa.."

=.=" aku sengih :D :D inilah pertama kali aku dengar komen sebegitu terhadap bahasa yang aku gunakan! hahaha! *bangga ;p

seterusnya, aku pun menunggu bersama adik-adik comel-kacak-rock-baek tadi bersama timbunan bagasi-bagasi kami. datanglah seseorang yang baik hati,

"dari mana?"

"kelate"

"mana pengiring?"

aku, "saya lah pengiring.." adik-adik tu bantai gelak. *rofl

memanglah gelak tak dapat dielakkan. ^-^

maka, bermulalah pengembaraan XPERT 2011. oh. aku pakai name tag. ada orang cakap,

"pengiring tak perlu pakai name tag..."

-.- aku pergi lagi ke pondok pendaftaran kali kedua menyerahkan name tag. lalala~

aktiviti hari pertama. mencari duet. hahaha. duit ejaan betul dia.

sesudah aku dan tiga orang anak buah mencari duit di warong soto berlada (sila search di Facebook dan like, aku lupa nak suruh semua orang yang gi XPERT 2011 like page dia... =.= tauke mintak... hahaha) kitorang kembali ke SRIAAKL. rupanya warong tersebut sangat la dekat! tiga langkah betul. :) aku duduk tu, ada la team lain masih mengumpul keuntungan. aku pun dengan berbaik hati membeli... :) nanti aku post kepada siapa yang aku mahu beri itu. :) yang tak boleh pergi nya... aku bahasakan diri aku 'akak' la kan dah sedar diri yang tua ini, adik yang berniaga comel itu,

"pengiring ke?"

aku, ":D ha a!"

berkenaan loghat, sesudah seharian bercampur gaul dengan orang dari pelbagai tempat, ada jugak orang tanya,

"kenapa tak ada bunyi Kelantan pun?" lebih kurang. haha. :D

ketidak-berpengalaman-dan-cekap-an saya semakin terasa ketika hari kedua di mana explorace bermula! o yeah! maka, terima kasih berjuta-billion-trillion kepada sakinahM temanku~~~ <3 sayang dia ketat-ketat! (sungguh aku geli dengan gaya bahasa ini. hahaha)

ketika explorace inilah... makk~ budak2 ini tak berlari pun. jalan je. aku ini pulak terlebih bimbang mereka ketinggalan dengan sukarela menunggu mereka berjalan ke hadapan. =.=" dalam hati nak je aku nyanyi lagu lenggang kangkung. hua3. dan tiba-tiba aku merasakan diri ini memang peserta sejati walaupun aku sebagai pengiring. hahaha. dan aku tak tolong mana pun diorang buat task. ;p sebab aku kan pengiring? :p task diorang memang la mencabar dan task yang aku selalu gelabah. haha. tak pe. ini program mereka, bagi mereka rasa! (jahat kan aku? :P)

sampai satu checkpoint, ada pula yang mempersoalkan aku sebagai pengiring. =.=

aku, "nak tengok i/c ke?"

dah memang i/c je pun yang ada dengan kitorang... tak boleh pergi komennya,

"91? keciknya."

aku, "=.=" apa boleh kata? tak perlu kata apa-apa. senyum. haha. ;p

tapi ada respon seorang peserta yang aku paling tak boleh terima bila ingat, budak tu bantai ketawa ketidakpercayaan bahawa aku ini pengiring! dang! wangi sungguh~ hu. hu. hu.

xplorace tersebut, team kitorang team terakhir sampai~ hua3. mendapat tepukan gemuruh. oleh kerana tiada sesiapa mahu menjadi orang pertama masuk dewan, aku pun berjalan dengan penuh gemuruh dan selamba. =.=" bak kata adik Atiff, explore. tak race pun.

malam itu, selepas briefing mengenai video making, kitorang khidmat diri. kemudian, pukul 11 baru berkumpul dan pindah gambar daripada beberapa buah kamera kepada satu komputer dan pilih gambar pulak untuk letak dalam video. penat tunggu diorang! =.=

dek kepenatan xplorace juga, ramai tak lalu makan termasuk aku. haha! dua suap je makan. esoknya tambah dua tiga suap pagi. tengahari sebelum balik, tak sampai separuh. tak pernah lah selera aku merudum begitu sekali! selera berpindah kepada Sakinah! ;p

akhirnya, si Sarah tidak tidur langsung sehingga hari terakhir. haha. penangan video. Nadiah dan Amalina juga tidak cukup tidur. hari terakhir, dalam dewan baru terbitkan (baca: publish) video. hu. hu. aku teman aje diorang, tapi tidur nyenyak dengan Munirah! ^.^ Madihah, Linie dan Nafisah dengan Sakinah di tempat yang lebih proper. itu geng-geng penunjuk jalan; Linie dan Sakinah. haha.

banyak lah benda yang aku dapat dan belajar sepanjang bekerjasama dengan Sakinah dan adik-adik comel-kacak-rock-baek ini serta fasilitator-fasilitator yang berpenat lelah serta peserta-peserta yang matang-matang. ;p ribuan terima kasih dan jutaan kemaafan terutama kepada Sakinah kerana yang saya selalu ada je soalan. video di bawah menceritakan perjalanan team yang hebbak ini~ phewiit! (aku juga tidak berapa suka akan gaya bahasa ini kerana macam tak senonah)

one word: OSEM!

insya Allah tahun depan nak cuba jadi pengiring lagi! [^-^]V

"Barangsiapa berhijrah di jalan Allah, niscaya mereka mendapati di muka bumi ini tempat hijrah yang luas dan rezki yang banyak. Barangsiapa keluar dari rumahnya dengan maksud berhijrah kepada Allah dan Rasul-Nya, kemudian kematian menimpanya (sebelum sampai ke tempat yang dituju), maka sungguh telah tetap pahalanya di sisi Allah. Dan Allah Maha Pengampun lagi Maha Penyayang" (QS. An Nisaa 4:100)

(yaitu)orang-orang yang mengingat Allah sambil berdiri atau duduk atau dalam keadaan berbaring dan mereka memikirkan tentang penciptaan langit dan bumi (seraya berkata): "Ya Tuhan kami, tiadalah Engkau menciptakan ini dengan sia-sia.Maha Suci Engkau, maka peliharalah kami dari siksa neraka."(QS. Ali 'Imran, 3:191)

WW3

2011-11-23T22:57:00.004+08:00

life is a test

2011-11-17T23:38:00.004+08:00

He Who created Death and Life, that He may try which of you is best in deed: and He is the Exalted in Might, Oft-Forgiving;- [Al-Mulk,67:2]

i was like crying reading the list in the group on my facebook. i felt very bad. very. real bad. after all the down-to-earth events i'd attended with a cold-bloody-black-hard-heart there, i got another test.

a sister said, you chose it, take it.

another sister's words, you must bear the consequences...

yada.. after all, it's me who chose for it. no matter where is it in the rank, it's in my chosen choices.

Fighting is prescribed for you, and ye dislike it. But it is possible that ye dislike a thing which is good for you, and that ye love a thing which is bad for you. But Allah knoweth, and ye know not. [Al-Baqarah,2:216]

thinking backward. i was once had a feeling into the thing i'm trying to accept at this second. but, there are other factors that just came with all the down-to-the-mantel events affecting me.

Mitsui... she reminded me 'bout intention when i told her that i was about changing my study place. now, i'm rechecking my intention when i was writing on the A4 paper in that classroom at the top of that block. yada. my intention was dirty. my intention wasn't pure... i'd say, serve me rightio! then, NOW, self, please tajdiid ur niyyah!

last afternoon, passing the hills returning home with ummi and ayah, that place came across my mind. oh. i forgot to turn back and say, "gule gule ****! i wish that i won't return!" how i wish i could yell those words to that place. am emo.

love blinded me.

usually, at the petrol station, i won't receive a call and sometimes even open an SMS. u know the risks of doing so right? flame... burnings... any such dangerous thing! huh. but, last afternoon, i answered a call! i didn't know my real intention. but i feel relieved of it. and yet i think i was acting? the call made me smile though. hu.

this break is another estuary for me. make it like the mangrove ecosystem. estuary. be prepared for the next year. the next semester. to bear all the possibilities for the things in my dislike list. i never asked for those possibilities that has assured to be happened, but i too never put serious efforts to diminish them! once again, serve me rightio! my vito!

and i'm fear of failure.
yet, i was the one who decided to fail.

don't expect anything from human for that they would disappoint you.

cintakan bunga, bungakan layu
cintakan manusia kan pergi
cintakan ALLAH, DIA kekal abadi (abadan!)

frolic.

2011-11-13T10:12:00.003+08:00

frolicsome sufiyyah?

i wish.

sister, thanks for the hug last night. really need it. really like drama~ it's just dramatic. :']
thanks for the scratch on my back too. :']

...i kept on searching
but i can't find...
...and once again
am thinking about
taking the easy way out...
if i let you go
i will never know
what my life will be...
...will i ever see u smiling back at me
how will i know..
-westlife-

WW2

2011-11-02T15:06:00.003+08:00

kalau ada jarum yang patah
jangan disimpan di dalam peti
kalau ada silap dan salah
jangan disimpan di dalam hati
-Merbok, 23.10.2011-

Why should a mother cry
Why should a wife see her husband die
tell me why do we have to fight
Why don't we try just you and I
why don't we try
-You and I by Irfan Makki-

review.

2011-11-01T22:43:00.006+08:00

dramas:
- dream high
- heartstrings
- ijimae
- city hunter

movie:
- the last samurai

books:
- Bulan di Atas Champs-Elysees by Eva Hana
- Swords of Ice by Letife Tefkin

song:
- You and I by Irfan Makki
- Erti Persahabatan Ini by De Hearty

others:
- with Palestinian Ladies

baiklah. entri ini menggunakan bahasa Melayu sebagai bahasa pengantar. cumanya, review itu saya tak tahu nak terjemahkan kepada? :)

drama yang tersenarai di atas semuanya drama Korea. uh? mak cik ni tengok Korea?
ketika aku berdramarathon, aku melihat mesin yang digunakan untuk menonton drama itu,
inikah maknanya untuk memilikimu? dugaan inilah yang aku takut untuk memilikimu wahai mesin!

sebelum aku membebel lagi, aku mahu review dahulu empat drama tersebut. Dream High aku tengok bukan dari episod pertama.
kisah Dream High ini mengenai cita-cita empat lah kot watak utama pemuda pemudi yang memang mahu beraksi dalam dunia hiburan; nyanyian, tarian~
mereka datang dengan berlatarbelakangkan sejarah hidup yang berbeza. ada yang terlebih keyakinan diri. ada yang terlalu rendah diri.
aku tak ingat sangat dah jugak cerita dia, tapi antara isi cerita yang aku dapat mengenai hubungan kekeluargaan dan menggapai impian. (eceh!)
dan keruntuhan institusi kekeluargaan sungguhlah menghasilkan produk yang tidak diingini (aku tak pasti betul ke aku kaitkan dengan institusi kekeluargaan ini? heh~)
begitulah tak lebih tak kurang. dan aku suka lagu tema Dream High ini... yeaha. bukan sekadar muzik, tetapi lirik.
Heartstrings. ambil dari teman. tak lebih tak kurang tema ceritanya ada persamaan dengan Dream High. aku tertarik dengan tajuk ceritanya. Heartstrings.
macam tersirat gitu. memanglah. ha. ha. isi yang aku belajar juga dari drama ini, menggapai cita juga. juga hubungan kekeluargaan. oh. juga percintaan berlawanan
jantina. heh!!!!!! tak dinafikan, aku ini manusia yang sukakan hiburan. muzik dalam drama Heartstrings ini agak lah menarik dan sedap didengar. tambah lagi, keunikannya gabungan muzik tradisional dan modern. yeaha. lagi satu isi, atuk watak utama si wanita itu sangat mempertahankan keaslian muzik tradisionalnya!
orang kata apa, konservatif? aku, yang juga ala konservatif ini, setuju juga dengan atuknya itu. hah-ha. hm. percintaan merentasi jantina, begitukah indahnya? itukah harganya? omo~ apa aku taip ini! tapi itulah antara tema utamanya.
Ijimae. diambil pada tarikh yang sama dengan Heartstrings. oh. cerita ini lah kan! dua episod awal, tak dapat dinafikan, banjir! sangat~ begitukah kejamnya dunia demi kuasa yang tidak hakiki? demi nikmat yang fana? ceritanya.. oh. sebelum itu, muzik-muzik latar cerita ini pun semuanya best. =.="
secara asasnya, cerita ini bertunjangkan dendam. pembunuhan. korupsi dalam kerajaan. kroni. perbezaan taraf hidup. tidak lupa juga cinta itu. hah! juga keluarga.
sukanya tengok aksi dalam cerita ini yang banyak menggunakan pedang. dan, sangatlah kejam aksi-aksi mereka berlawan berbunuhan kerana tujuan untuk membunuh, memanglah bunuh yang akan dilakukan. pedang itu memang mencari nadi dileher untuk diputuskan. kejamnya.
City Hunter sangat mempunyai persamaan dengan Ijimae itu. dendam. bunuh. korupsi. kroni. ekonomi; taraf hidup. cumanya latar masa berbeza. Ijimae itu zaman
dulu, dinasti dinasti tu, City Hunter zaman sekarang. medium komunikasi pun touch screen. he. jadi, cerita ini tak banyak guna pedang. banyak guna peluru, besi... apa yang sama, penggunaan pisau kecik.

cerita Ijimae dan City Hunter, wataknya ada yang anak luar perkahwinan. illegitimate child. latar masa yang berbeza, benda yang sama. silap yang sama. apa yang aku nampak, ayah kepada anak itu semuanya mempunyai perwatakan yang boleh kata hampir sempurna. baik. tapi, kerana sejarah itu, ia menjadi satu kelemahan yang sangat melemahkan! watak ibunya juga, sangat lah... baik. anak juga, hebat. bahkan dalam cerita City Hunter itu, anak itulah watak heronya. dalam Ijimae, hero kedua aku panggil. yeah. kedua cerita ini mengenai hero. apa ya dalam sastera sebut? lupa sudah istilah yang aku belajar sem lepas. :D
watak hero dalam kedua cerita ini sangatlah disanjung sehinggakan masyarakat lebih menyanjungi mereka lebih daripada pemerintah yang memerintah. kenapa?
pada aku, kerana mengembalikan yang hak kepada yang hak. melampau ke aku membuat kenyataan itu? hm. jika anda sudah menonton, boleh lah berikan pandangan. eh!
saya tidak menggalakkan anda menonton ya!

apa yang aku tidak suka dalam keempat-empat drama diatas, bagaimana tema cintanya ditonjolkan. tiada lagikah cinta yang lebih bermaruah? konservatif pun konservatif lah.
tapi harganya itu. heh!!

movie. sudah lama aku mahu menonton The Last Samurai. ini kerana aku macam tengok sikit lah ketika ESQ mahasiswa angkatan ke-4 tak silap, 2009 di Kepala Batas.
sungguhlah. cerita ini agak berjaya menonjolkan keistimewaan orang-orang Jepun. semangat mereka!! fullamak~
penempatan golongan yang mempertahankan tradisi samurai mereka itu, perkampungan mereka sungguh! perfecto~ aman aje ditonton. tapi agama mereka Buddha.
beratnya menonton movie ini kerana pegangan mereka itu. hu. kerana aku 'izzah dengan islam. oh, kenyataan berat ini! akan dituntut hari akhir nanti!
aku terfikir, bagaimana ya perkampungan yang mengamalkan islam? suasananya? tentu lebih lagi indah! oh. sungguh! berpeluangkah?
mereka, golongan-golongan samurai itu sanggup mati mempertahankan tradisi mereka... darah memancut-mancut..
tahap itukah iman diri jika sampainya masa itu?
itu sahajalah review aku untuk The Last Samurai.

buku. Swords of Ice. tidak khatam lagi. sungguh. blurbs belakang buku mengatakan mengenai ekonomi antara temanya. apa yang aku fahamlah... tapi apabila bacanya, sikit aje yang aku faham. mereka buka syarikat. dan aku tidak faham kaitan dengan Volvo? hu. buku ini aku beli sebab tajuk dia. he. hm. beli dengan ayah. tahun lepas. tika pertama kali ayah jumpa aku ketika datang negeri pulau ini. he. aku yang mintak. ha. ha. aku tak faham kaitan Halilhan itu dengan wanita-wanita dalam cerita itu.
bahagian yang menarik bagi aku ialah bahagian Gogi yang mencari pasangan. dia utus surat kepada wanita yang dia nak la kan. balasan wanita itu memanglah best!
salah satu suratnya aku suka. ha. ha. dan dan... ok. ada masa aku amik gambar upload kat sini. eh. bukan ada masa, masa teringat.. he.
Bulan di Atas Champs-Elysees. kurang lebih 24 jam aku baca. habis kulit ke kulit. semalam. di JJ. kedai buku ular pop. biasanya aku ini sangatlah kedekut untuk membeli novel bahasa Melayu jika tidak bersama puteri-puteri kayangan lima bersatu. tapi semalam, redah jugak meneliti rak buku novel Melayu di kedai itu. Eva Hana.
mula-mula, rak aku singgah memanglah rak Klasik Inggeris kerana di hadapan. tetapi, memikirkan Heart of Darkness yang aku beli 2005 dengan temanku Afiqah pun tak habis
lagi. Afiqah dah sampai Ireland pun. hu. buku Jane Austen aku beli awal sem ini pun belum terbawa ke mana-mana. (aku biasanya bawa buku tak habis baca masa jika jenjalan).
oh. Eva Hana. nama penulis buku yang berjaya menarik tangan aku untuk mengambilnya ke kaunter pembayaran. buku ini, frasa yang persuasif itu adalah 'kisah benar'.
tiba-tiba aku terfikir, sirah nabawiyah itukan sebuah kisah benar? omo. omo. omo! tika aku sibuk ingin tahu kisah benar orang, teman katil sebelah sedang bertungkus lumus membaca biografi empat imam! omo!! salah satu lagi sebab aku berat nak beli buku juga, buku-buku yang ilmiah juga masih banyak aku belum khatam dalam almari di bilik yang aku tinggalkan itu~ ironi ke? aku membaca novel percintaan wanita Islam dengan lelaki Perancis Kristian, teman disebelah membaca biografi empat imam~
sedih. sedih sungguh aku membaca kisah Eva Hana itu. kenapa? sayang. sebab dia muslim. dan memang dia mengaku dia memang sayangkan islam dalam buku itu. tetapi sayang,
kerana cinta jejaka Perancis itu berjaya menumpaskannya juga. adegan yang terlihat dalam drama antara pasangan bercinta juga dialaminya. dan takut juga aku..
begitukah penangan cinta? hu. dan sungguh menyayat hati apabila Eva Hana itu membandingkan budaya Perancis (ke Paris?) dengan apa yang cuba masyarakat tempatan cuba tiru. taqlid buta. melampau ke? terlintas frasa itu sebab Eva Hana bagi tahu meniru budaya tapi tak tahu apa yang ada dalam budaya itu. budaya itu ialah wain.
wain itu di Perancis ke Paris itu bukanlah ditogok sebotol diminum begitu, tetapi untuk sesuatu yang tertentu sahaja dan sebagai perasa dalam masakan. aku bukan suruh pergi rasa wain ya! tetapi, masyarakat tempatan menogok wain terus daripada botol sehingga mabuk. hu. dan di sana wain itu dihargai untuk dinikmati... tengok dalam cerita, kan apabila pasal wain, mereka suka sebut pasal tahun berapa, berapa lama dah umur wain itu. hu. tiba-tiba teringat, tahun lepas tak silap, aku sedang beratur di kaunter pembayaran sebuah pasaraya, dia dihadapanku seorang remaja lelaki, sedang membayar harga sebotol arak. beratnya terasa belakang dan bahuku!
teringat lagi aku pernah ternampak ada pemuda mencuri di kedai cenderahati ketika sekolah menengah. oh. penyaksian!
teringin rasanya berjumpa Eva Hana dan anaknya. anaknya handsome kot? haha. =.=" ok. satu lagi, Eva Hana ini wataknya berani mencuba sesuatu yang baru, mudah bosan. itu yang sampai ke Perancis. aku, begini pula terlalu berani. hu. endingnya, tahniah kepada Eva Hana kerana berjaya mempertahankan imanmu. sungguh, surah Al-Kaafirun itu.
oh. juga, Eva Hana memang mempunya sahabat sejati disisinya. yang berani menegurnya. sentiasa mengingatkannya. menghargainya. menyayanginya. checklist.

ada sesi bersama wanita dari Palestin. dua orang. Nurrah dan Tahrir. ikut info yang aku tangkap ada link dengan HAMAS gitu. tak sure lah. bahasa pengantar dalam dewan semalam, Melayu, Arab dan Inggeris. hu. catatan aku semalam tak ada bersama saat ini. jadi, kira hutang ya? tapi, satu yang mengetuk hati, pesanan Syeikh Ahmad Yassin.. mengenai hiburan dan muzik. hu. anda perasankan awal entri itu, sungguh berhibur aku ini? semalam, City Hunter episod akhir aku tonton, dan sememangnya selepas habis itu sahaja, aku terus delete folder City Hunter itu. tetapi tidak lagi untuk Heartstrings dan Ijimae! oh. diri ini~

membaca entri seorang teman yang belum realiti eye-to-eye mujahadahnya mendelete folder J nya, sungguh aku turut tersalur kekuatan untuk mengikut jejak itu. dan, sahabat tersebut, TAHNIAH. semoga terus tabah dan tsabat! insya Allah itu do'a saya untuk awak!
setakat ini dahulu. panjangnya entri! ha.

You and I baru download semalam pagi. with the help of a classmate. please, pray for him to see the light. hu.

hutang aku untuk entri seterusnya:
- surat Gogi
- catatan bersama dua wanita Palestin (oh. macam ada gap...) ok. catatan bersama saudara dari Palestin.
- gambar. :D

oh ya. remember to grab the chance in this early ten days of Zulhijjah!

infeksi.

2011-10-29T23:52:00.004+08:00

Erti Persahabatan Ini

Album : Insan Istimewa
Munsyid : De Hearty
http://liriknasyid.com

Hembusan bayu lembut bertiup
Deru ombak yang memukul pantai
Sayu hati bila terkenangkan
Memori indah kita bersama

Dengarkanlah lagu kutujukan
Tanda ingatan tulus buatmu
Moga abadi di sanubari
Bersemi buat selamanya

Segala yang manis pasti ada pahitnya
Begitulah jua hidup bersama
Segala yang indah jadikan hiasan
Segala yang buruk jadikan sempadan

Masih segar di ingatan ku sentiasa
Kenangan menggamit rasa
Tempuhi onak dan duri
Itulah yang diharungi
Janji yang telah kita bina
Tetap kekal dan abadi

Seandainya dugaan datang menerpa
Hingga dirimu terluka
Usah ditangis hibanya
Kerna aku bersamamu
Mengubat hati yang duka
Demi janji kita

Marilah suburkan kembali
Hubungan dengan kejujuran
Leraikan segala impian
Buktikan dengan keikhlasan
Moga persahabatan ini
Mengajar erti kehidupan
Dalam rahmat Tuhan yang Esa
Bahagia selamanya...

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Brothers - Selamanya

Memori semalam hadir bersama
Sebuah kisah luka
mengingatkan aku akan
Keagungan Tuhan
Sengketa yang melanda
Membuatkan aku sesal sendiri
Perlukah ianya berakhir sebegini
Kini ku sedar setelah lama
Ku mencari
Sebuah persahabatan
Perjalanan kita ini masih jauh
Penuh dengan onak duri
Penuh cabaran
Dan jua rintangan
Perjalanan yang jauh ini
Perlukan teman-teman yang
Memahami yang sejati
Mampu membimbing diri ini
Silaturahim yang telah
Terjalin kini
Bersamalah kita hargai
Walaupun kita terkadang
Bersengketa
Itukan lumrah
Mendewasakan kita
Pengalaman yang dilalui semlam
Mengajar kita hakikat kehidupan
Suka duka kita tempuhi bersama
Menjadi kenangan indah kekal
Untuk selamanya

_________________________________

Sahabat Sejati

Album : See You D IPT
Munsyid : Unic
http://liriknasyid.com

Ku biar kalam berbicara
Menghurai maksudnya di jiwa
Agar mudah ku mengerti
Segala yang terjadi
Sudah suratan Ilahi

Ku biarkan pena menulis
Meluahkan hasrat di hati
Moga terubat segala
Keresahan di jiwa
Tak pernah ku ingini

Aku telah pun sedaya
Tak melukai hatimu
Mungkin sudah suratan hidupku
Kasih yang lama terjalin
Berderai bagaikan kaca
Oh teman, maafkanlah diriku

C/O :
Oh Tuhan
Tunjukkan ku jalan
Untuk menempuhi dugaan ini
Teman, maafkan jika ku melukaimu
Moga ikatan ukhwah yang dibina
Ke akhirnya

Aku tidak kan berdaya
Menahan hibanya rasa
Kau pergi meninggalkan diriku
Redhalah apa terjadi
Usahlah kau kesali
Mungkin ada rahmat yang tersembunyi

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tett... sayu je ya lirik-lirik di atas. ^.^

reality bites orang putehs kata.

it really bites when words i spilled are splashed back on my face. :]

i miss plurk where i can pluck words there... wi-fi here blocked that website. >.<

i don't update my fB status with things like - i'm hungry! uhf. today is a bad day~ ;D

sabar = meletakkan sesuatu pada yang haq. tak lebih kurang begitu asey tules dalam blognye. terima kasih kepadanya. moga diganjar dengan setinggi-tinggi ganjaran. ;]

solat. tiang agama. sedar. tahu. amal. moga adik-adik tu diberi taufiq untuk teguh bersemangat beramal dengan pengetahuan mereka timba~ solat. isra' mikraj. Rasulullah s.a.w. moga aku juga belajar sesuatu. kehidupan.

tiba-tiba rindu ummi ayah. he. mampukah bertahan untuk 10 hari terawal Zulhijjah ini? ;)

grab the chance!

make. tomorrow. good. please. :) remember to smile. :)

103.

2011-10-27T23:00:00.005+08:00

petikan surah al-kahfi:

45. Dan kemukakanlah kepada mereka misal perbandingan: Kehidupan dunia ini samalah seperti air yang Kami turunkan dari langit, lalu bercampur baurlah tanaman di bumi antara satu dengan lain (dan kembang suburlah ia) disebabkan air itu kemudian menjadilah ia kering hancur ditiup angin dan (ingatlah) adalah Allah Maha Kuasa atas tiap-tiap sesuatu.

Set forth to them the similitude of the life of this world: It is like the rain which we send down from the skies: the earth's vegetation absorbs it, but soon it becomes dry stubble, which the winds do scatter: it is (only) Allah who prevails over all things.

68. "Dan bagaimana kamu dapat sabar atas sesuatu, yang kamu belum mempunyai pengetahuan yang cukup tentang hal itu?"

"And how canst thou have patience about things about which thy understanding is not complete?"

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heartsong

sabar. sabar untuk taat. sabar untuk menahan diri.

hari ni, senyum. :)

hari ini, masih LOL. SOQ masih belum melekat dihati.

soalan sampai hari ni orang tanya, "kenapa tak balik?"

jawapan untuk setiap kali pertanyaan berulang, "saja"

hakikatnya? hah-ha. aku pun tak reti nak terangkan.

cumanya, bila aku cuba refleksi, yang aku ingat, dengan nekadnya ketika cuti Syawal hari tu, aku dengan nekad (ulang: nekad) bagi tahu ayah, "*ah tak nak balik cuti Deepavali dan raya Haji.." :) teruk sangat ke tak balik? :)

ini kali kedua tak balik cuti lama. kali pertama, 2nd update fr om penang. setelah dua tahun, aku ulang lagi. haha. ok. :)

petang tadi, ~~ayat~~ penutup cerita tidak balik ini, aku pun tidak tahu sebab sebenar yang pepejal (solid) untuk aku jadikan alasan untuk tidak balik... adalah rentetan peristiwa, tapi yang pejal, sebab apa? aku pun tak punya jawapan. seminggu sudah pun berlalu. banyak benda yang aku fikir. dan terasa tenang sedikit. ha. ha. sakit jiwa kah? tidak. bukan itu. :)
seminggu berada di kampus yang ada orang tapi sunyi sepi sepertinya tiada orang. ha. ha. eh. mari jadi serius! oh. ok. tuntutan ketika berada di rumah dan di sini, berbeza. :) teringat, perkongsian dengan siapa entah, balik rumah, yang 'awla' nya keluarga, ibu dan ayah. sebab tu apabila balik, jangan nak berangan nak bukak buku jadi academician. tak payah. yang itu sepatutnya dilakukan bersungguh-sungguh ketika ditempat belajar. namun, jika anda seorang pelajar yang masih budak sekolah duduk dirumah (memang nada perlekeh, tapi untuk mengetuk sikit biar sedar diri) tidak boleh samakan begitu. aku pun bukanlah pakar bab-bab tuntutan ni. hm. gunalah common sense anda. tapi, secara umumnya bagitulah bagi yang belajar jauh dari rumah macam aku ini. *senyum senget*
dan, bersyukur jugak. inilah masanya aku latih diri aku. ha. ha. aku ini mudah benar nak balik rumah tahu. tak cuti panjang pun aku boleh balik je. hu. jadi, aku sedang menghargai perasaan tak menebal untuk balik ini dengan tidak balik rumah. ^.^ nanti, ~~kalau~~ masa yang dah aku memang teringin nak balik tu, sah-sah aku cari jugak tiketnya. :) macam peristiwa konvo awal bulan hari tu. mula-mula tak nak ikut sama. dan dan, lepas zuhur sabtu tu tak cukup jari menekan google tiket bas dan kereta api. terbang? kapal? oh. itu aku tidak mampu la pula. dan juga tak sesuai. :)

seterusnya. aku memilih untuk bekerja dengan orang, bukan untuk sekadar melihat.

...Sesungguhnya saat ini umat sedang menunggu kamu, hiasilah dirimu dengan kebaikan....

khalifah. aku tahu tanggungjawab khalifah dan 'abid. khalifah. pernahkah aku terfikir, bila sistem khilafah itu nak naik balik? apa yang aku sedang lakukan? menyumbangkah? menonton? khalifah tanpa sistem?

rumah terbakar panggil bomba...

teringin bertiup kencang seperti ribut tetapi lembut bak bayu di lautan.

hati...

Itu dulu. Nak katanya : JAGA IKHTILAT terutama bila sesuatu "mengerumuni" hati. - k.'aisyah amaran, 2011.

sabar. do'a. do'a senjata mukmin. kan? :)

hari yang baik. :)

apabila manusia taat dengan segala perintah dan larangan Allah, sungguh, damai di dunia. kerana hanya manusialah yang tidak mengikut perintah dan larangan Allah menyebabkan yang lain juga berterabur << tak sedap jadinya ayat~. ekosistem. :)

ustaziyatul alam... world order... prime wave~ hadirlah dalam mimpi. moga menjadi realiti.

untuk dia, dia dan dia...
eh. aku nak sentimental sekejap. ha. ha.

dia, dia, dia dan dia... :) sungguh aku ini sememangnya tidak berhikmah dalam percakapan. kerana itu aku suka menggunakan teks, tulisan tangan, mahupun komputer mahupun juga telefon bimbit. aku sememangnya kurang ekspresi, disebabkan itu aku tidak boleh berlakon. dan tidak mahu pun. ekspresi yang terzahir selepas guna otak adalah tidak touche. no sincerity. for me. dan sesungguhnya, salahkan aku untuk apa pun. namun, tolong do'akan aku juga semoga derita hati itu tidak menyerang orang lain. untuk kedamaian sejagat. aku, insya Allah berusaha juga untuk itu. jazakumullah khair~ :)

هنسى

zulhijjah sudah~

moga. damai. mimpi. indah. indah. :)

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hope.

2011-10-27T15:31:00.001+08:00

rain, plz dun fall this evening~

jaa ne.

:)

WW1

2011-10-12T14:51:00.005+08:00

can't smile.

2011-09-21T17:37:00.000+08:00

currently hard to smile. why? it's not because of da swing-windy-mood, but because i'm ~~given~~ rewarded a little pain inside the mouth. today is the fifth day feeling the pain inside the mouth and on the lips.

last weekend was a great three-days-weekend. ha. ha.

mengkuang - minden - gopeng - butterworth - bukit mertajam - mengkuang - kampung matahari jatuh - mengkuang

ha. ha. i enjoyed it very much. attended Along Rufaidah's akad nikah. i think it's the second time meeting Along. :D *singing barakallahu lakuma by Maher Zain* it's such a... what eh? cure for being unable attending Iman's (my classmate in primary school) and Md. Nor's (my cousin) akad nikah.

after about 2 years and half i've been staying in this district, i contacted my cousins in Kulim and the island! ha. ha. am very sorry for being such a good cousin! :D their words won't be forgotten! "lain kali, kalau nak bosan-bosan duk kampus tu, bagi tau... nanti gi ambik.. boleh datang rumah..." ha. ha. boleh jalan-jalan tak? :p

let's maintain family ties... united by blood and united by faith... :)

But those who break the Covenant of Allah, after having plighted their word thereto, and cut asunder those things which Allah has commanded to be joined, and work mischief in the land;- on them is the curse; for them is the terrible home! - [Ar-Rad 13:25]

R 1432.

2011-09-09T11:46:00.000+08:00

=)
apa dengan R 1432? R ialah Ramadhan. :)
alhamdulillah.. sebab sempat berada dalam Ramadhan 1432 dari hari pertama sehingga hari terakhir. :D
rasa istimewa tahun ini... sebab ada benda baru terlaksana. tapi, masih ada lagi juga yang tak terlaksana dan terlaksana separuh jalan~ :'( do'anya dapat peluang jumpa lagi Ramadhan tahun hadapan! lagi sebelas bulan~ :'(

pernah rasa kehilangan sesuatu? dan kehilangan tu macam... em.. kehilangan lah kan. haha. hm.
Ramadhan tahun ni, rasa macam setiap 3 fasa tu, maksud aku, 10 hari, 10 hari dan 10 hari Ramadhan tu, alhamdulillah ada busyra~ :D peribadinya, untuk aku la. ;p dan ada yang dulu aku rasa 'kehilangan' kembali. dan sampai hari ini, dengan hanya ingatkannya, aku boleh senyum bahagia~ :) alhamdulillah.
boleh senyum bahagia walaupun pengembalian itu tak seperti dulu. :)

pernah rasa takut? yada. fear Allah. takut yang ini... hm. bimbang. yap. bimbang perkataan paling tepat.
hm.. ke serik ek perkataan terbaik? sebab aku tahu dulu aku hilang sebab salah aku. walaupun salah apa tak jelas dan aku pun tak mahu penjelasan sebab takut makin jauh, tapi aku tahu dan rasa salah aku, maka, aku rasa aku yang buatkannya tak seperti dulu. :D berjaga-jaga. ha. ha. cuba mendekat, tetapi menjaga jarak. macam pandu kenderaan, laju, tapi jaga jarak! hahaha. ye ye je aku ni jaga jarak ketika memandu...

dan pengajaran pada aku untuk kehidupan ini, bab kehilangan ini, apa pun yang berlaku yang dirasakan kabur... macam, kita tertanya, kenapa jadi macam ni? dimana silapnya? apa yang aku dah buat? apa yang sudah berlaku? apa yang sebenarnya sedang terjadi? apakah semua ini?

apa masalah pun kita tahu ke mana kita harus kembali kan?

apa saja yang dirasakan konflik kita tahu kepada siapa kita harus meminta kan?

apa cara sekalipun untuk menyelesaikannya kita tahu siapa yang paling tahu tentangnya kan?

apa-apa-apa-apa-apa pun yang kabur kita tahu hanya siapa yang boleh menjelaskannya kan?

siapa?
siapa?
siapa?
siapa?
siapa?

[Al Hadiid:3]
Dialah Yang Awal dan Yang Akhir Yang Zhahir dan Yang Bathin; dan Dia Maha Mengetahui segala sesuatu.

[Al Mujaadilah:7]
Tidakkah kamu perhatikan, bahwa sesungguhnya Allah mengetahui apa yang ada di langit dan di bumi? Tiada pembicaraan rahasia antara tiga orang, melainkan Dia-lah keempatnya. Dan tiada (pembicaraan antara) lima orang, melainkan Dia-lah keenamnya. Dan tiada (pula) pembicaraan antara jumlah yang kurang dari itu atau lebih banyak, melainkan Dia berada bersama mereka di manapun mereka berada. Kemudian Dia akan memberitahukan kepada mereka pada hari kiamat apa yang telah mereka kerjakan. Sesungguhnya Allah Maha mengetahui segala sesuatu.

[An Nuur:64]
Ketahuilah sesungguhnya kepunyaan Allahlah apa yang di langit dan di bumi. Sesungguhnya Dia mengetahui keadaan yang kamu berada di dalamnya. Dan (mengetahui pula) hati (manusia) dikembalikan kepada-Nya, lalu diterangkan-Nya kepada mereka apa yang telah mereka kerjakan. Dan Allah Maha mengehui segala sesuatu.

[At Taghaabun:11]
Tidak ada suatu musibah pun yang menimpa seseorang kecuali dengan ijin Allah; dan barangsiapa yang beriman kepada Allah niscaya Dia akan memberi petunjuk kepada hatinya. Dan Allah Maha Mengetahui segala sesuatu.

[Al Maa'idah:120]
Kepunyaan Allah-lah kerajaan langit dan bumi dan apa yang ada di dalamnya; dan Dia Maha Kuasa atas segala sesuatu.

[Al Mulk:1]
Maha Suci Allah Yang di tangan-Nyalah segala kerajaan, dan Dia Maha Kuasa atas segala sesuatu.

[At Taghaabun:1]
Bertasbih kepada Allah apa yang ada di langit dan apa yang ada di bumi; hanya Allah lah yang mempunyai semua kerajaan dan semua pujian, dan Dia Maha Kuasa atas segala sesuatu.

[Al Hadiid:2]
Kepunyaan-Nyalah kerajaan langit dan bumi, Dia menghidupkan dan mematikan, dan Dia Maha Kuasa atas segala sesuatu.

kredit: detak hidup

do'a banyak-banyak. minta sungguh-sungguh. mohon sentiasa-sentiasa.
aku selalu lupa...

"Dan Tuhanmu berfirman: Berdoalah kamu kepada-Ku nescaya Aku perkenankan doa permohanan kamu..." (Al-Mu'min:60)

dan...

هنسى أحزاني
هفرح دي الفرحة بجد لسه وحشاني
فيها إيه لو تبقى لحظة حلوة واخداني
يا دنيا روقي عشاني من تاني

hidup

2011-08-20T20:32:00.001+08:00

segala puja dan puji hanya kepada Allah s.w.t.

tau tak ada golongan yang tak mati?

"Dan janganlah kamu mengatakan orang-orang yang terbunuh di jalan Allah (mereka) telah mati. Sebenarnya (mereka) hidup*, tetapi kamu tidak menyedarinya." [Al-Baqarah, 2:154]

:) bukan itu yang mahu dibicarakan. terlintas dalam fikiran tadi. :D

ok. malam 18 Ramadhan 1432 yang lepas. aku nak kongsi cerita. he. selepas iftar di surau kampus, aku nak balik bilik. namun, sampai di tangga, ciptaan manusia yang berwarna pink tidak kelihatan~ banyak kali cuba perhatikan, tidak ada. warna pink itu sepatutnya paling menyerlah antara banyak-banyak alas kaki yang ada di situ. hue. maka, ambil inisiatif kemungkinan ada mana-mana saudari yang pinjam pakai ke dapur. tiba di dapur, hanya tiga orang saudari di sana. ketiga-tiga pasang kaki tidak berwarna pink. malah kaki seorang saudara pula ada warna pink. =.= sudah tentu bukan saya yang punya. kembalilah saya ke ruang solat wanita surau. duduk duduk mencari dan bertanya, nampak seorang saudari memerlukan bantuan menghantar barang-barang ke dapur lagi. kali ini ke dapur guna laluan lain yang lalu pintu masuk utama surau dan tangga masuk lelaki sahaja. masa pergi ke dapur, tak nampak. ketika mahu kembali lagi ke ruang solat, ternampak seakan selipar pink itu berkilau di mata! oh yeah. my slipper~ :D jumpa~ tukar selipar, tolong lagi saudari tadi angkat barang. syukur. :)
aku memang kalut kan? :D

kemudian...

kahwin. sebelum ini, aku memang mengelak nak sebut pasal ni dalam blog ini. tapi kali ini, aku nak sebut jugak. aku baru tau, ada juga orang yang berpendapat bahawa, selepas kahwin, dia seperti boleh melakukan apa sahaja sebab dia dah kahwin. jadi, tak ada siapa pun kisah dia buat apa pun. sedih. :'( sebagai isteri, sepatutnya lebih-lebih lagi lah penjagaan maruah diri itu dititik beratkan. maruah suami dibawa... heh. aku cakap macam apa je ek? apa-apa pun, walaupun belum ada suami, masih, nama keluarga mesti dijaga. tak perlu tengok keluarga, nama diri sendiri mesti dipelihara. nak tengok yang lagi berat? maruah agama kita bawa. peringatan untuk sendiri juga ya wahai diri? baik. tak tahu lah apa perasaannya eh? huhu. melihat ragam 'isteri-isteri orang' yang negatif, sedikit sebanyak membuatkan aku tidak mahu bercakap mengenai nikahwin ini. tak ada mood. takut... sudah~ tutup topik ini buat masa ini.

susahnya kan nak betul-betul bagi tahu hati bahawa segala yang lepas, sedang dan akan berlaku itu dalam kekuasaan Allah? kenapa susah?
sebab, memang lah boleh cakap yakin segalanya urusan Allah. tapi, masih lagi mengungkit hal lepas dan bersedih atas apa yang berlaku..
masih lagi berbicara panjang mengenai hal yang tak tahu akan berlaku macam mana...
maksud aku, berbicara in a negative way... hu...

Ramadhan sudah suntuk masa dengan kita... :'(

*Hidup dalam alam lain yang bukan alam kita ini, tempat mereka mendapat kenikmatan-kenikmatan di sisi Allah, dan hanya Allah sajalah yang mengetahui bagaimana keadaan kehidupan di alam itu.

listen.

2011-08-16T22:30:00.000+08:00

since Ramadhan 14th, 1432, i've been listening to:
.Salaam by Sami Yusuf.
.Ramadhan by Brothers.
.Rumahku Syurgaku by Hijjaz.
.Odei Anak by Raihan.
.Anak Soleh by Rabbani.
.Keluarga Bahagia by Saujana.
.Keluarga Bahagia 2 by Saujana.
.Cintailah Ilahi by Inteam.
.You and I See by UNIC.
.Senandung Al-Fatihah by Nur Irsyad.
.Insaan by Hamza Namira.

:)

listen for pleasure and listen for feeling it, is very different.
for example, when i listen to Rumahku Syurgaku, i remembered that i once memorized that song during my schoolhood; years ago~
sing it because i memorized it got different feeling when sing it with a heart. :D
am telling ya the truth. :)
am i homesick? hm.... dun think so.
it just... ehm...
sing a song with heart means to take note words in the lyrics.
understand the message. :)
family. :)
comparing singing the song as a little girl and a growing up girl;now, i feel... hm. how innocent was i. how ignorant was i.
now, i just. i really want to make it real. :)
anak solehah. what is it? by singing anak solehah i can be good? naahh. shall never be.

it's Ramadhan. :)

di Ramadhan Ya Allah,
rahmatMu kurasa
kubanyakkan beribadah
kutahu maghfirahMu melangit tinggi~

semoga beroleh maghfirah
moga kitakan jadi
hamba yang setia

andainya ini Ramadhan terakhir bagiku
kuharap ianya kan membelaku
di akhirat nanti~ (Brothers)

a human being inside you and me
a human being who has a dream and an aim
a human being who loves and never hates
a human being who has hope for a better tomorrow
INSAAN (Hamza Namira)

ibu bapa bahagia
kalau anak-anaknya
menyayangi mentaati dan memuliakan mereka
rasa kasih murni antara suami isteri
boleh rosak jika masing-masing tidak berakhlak
cinta murni antara anak-anak dengan ibu bapanya
diikat kuat oleh cinta tabi'i (Hijjaz)

oh.

2011-08-07T15:09:00.004+08:00

i wanted to scribble at my fs blog. then....

friendster showed its new face after surgery..... i typed my blog URL.... then...

huhu... :( 2nd time having this experience. but, this time it's not that hard. :) still can smile.

it's RAMADHAN! :)

virus ukhuwah. still pending; the process of deleting it. hu.

i choose to be silent. yada. silent kills love. and it also may preserve the some of the candy there. hope the reserved space is still available.

self, kill your ego.
self, stab your selfishness.
self, it's Ramadhan!
dun waste the space with evil things!
it's Ramadhan self!

i ain't good at talking when my emotions conquer my head.
that's why i chose to be silent.
am searching for the exact causes of this conflict.
that's why i chose to be silent.
am too proud to restart again.
that's why i chose to be silent.
there's also something punch my chest.
am healing the bruise; that's why i keep quiet.

few hours left.

2011-07-31T09:38:00.003+08:00

أهلا يا رمضان

ما أحلى رمضان

لماذا؟؟

لأن في شهر رمضان نزول القراءن

قال الله تعالى

شهر رمضان الذي أنزل فيه القراءن هدى للناس

في شهر رمضان قامت غزوة بدر الكبرى

شهر رمضان يوجد فيه صلاة التراويح

ويوجد أيضا ليلة القدر

قال الله تعالى

ليلة القدر خير من ألف شهر

هل أنت تعجب الآن؟

هذا فقط منّي

أدعو عليكم

شهر رمضان خير من شهر رمضان القديم

credits to: kasehtania

have a feeling to get chances hugging them again. <3

them whom only for looking at their face, Allah grant us with rewards.

them whom with their pleasure, Allah's pleasure is guaranteed for you.

.....

focus this coming Ramadhan, AL-QUR'AN. :)

YA Allah, berkahilah kami di bulan Rejab dan Sya¡¦ban dan sampaikanlah
kami pada bulan Ramadhan

RAMADHAN MUBARAK!

ahlan bina?

2011-07-28T02:32:00.005+08:00

what does it mean by 'ahlan bina'? =.=

In the name of Allah, Most Gracious, Most Merciful.

If any one does evil or wrongs his own soul but afterwards seeks Allah.s forgiveness, he will find Allah Oft-forgiving, Most Merciful. And if any one earns sin. he earns it against His own soul: for Allah is full of knowledge and wisdom. [4: 110-111]

But those who believe and do deeds of righteousness,- we shall soon admit them to gardens, with rivers flowing beneath,-to dwell therein for ever. Allah.s promise is the truth, and whose word can be truer than Allah.s? [4:122]

Not your desires, nor those of the People of the Book (can prevail): whoever works evil, will be requited accordingly. Nor will he find, besides Allah, any protector or helper. [4:123]

If any do deeds of righteousness,- be they male or female - and have faith, they will enter Heaven, and not the least injustice will be done to them. [4:124]

just for us to ponder.

READ it.

FEEL it.

have FAITH.

welcome o Ramadhan~ hope to see you Ramadhan!

berjiwa besar

2011-07-04T02:33:00.005+08:00

pernah kau fikir pasal jiwa besar ke jiwa kecil?

hm. teringat pak hamka the blogger. dalam blognya ada kapal besar kapal kecil. aku tak faham apakah ia maksud tersirat tersurat. tapi, mungkin aku dapat sikit hintnya. dan aku sangat teringin nak jadi orang-orang 'kapal besar'. woha! (:p)

bagi aku sendiri, jiwa besar itu boleh menyerap segala benda yang negatif menjadi positif.

pendapat aku lagi, jiwa besar itu mampu meminta maaf daripada orang apabila aku berbuat salah. kenapa? sebab nak minta maaf tu perlu meruntuhkan ego sendiri. betul tak? ingat senang nak minta maaf? susah. sebab tak nak mengalah. nak menang aja. fikir sendiri, salah dengan manusia takkan terhapus dengan memohon ampun daripada Allah sebab kena langsai dengan manusia tersebut dahulu. tu syarat nak taubat kalau pasal salah dengan manusia. jadi, nak bertaubat pun semacam ada halangan kan, bila buat salah dengan manusia? jadi, sebaik saja sedar kita telah bersalah dengan seseorang, marilah kita bersegera meminta maaf. >.< kemudian marilah kita meminta ampun daripada DIA.

Allah berfirman, ‘Katakanlah (wahai Muhammad); Wahai hamba-hambaKu yang telah melampaui batas terhadap diri mereka sendiri (dengan perbuatan maksiat), janganlah kamu berputus asa dari rahmat Allah, kerana sesungguhnya Allah mengampunkan segala dosa sesungguhnya Dialah jua yang Maha Pengampun, lagi Maha Mengasihani.’ (Az-Zumar:53)

nak bagi maaf pun susah kan? susah bila memikirkan sakit sendiri. yalah. sakit yang tak ternampak dek mata kasar itu. tapi, aku pernah menaip firman Allah dalam blogdrive dulu;

''Perkataan yang baik dan pemberian maaf lebih baik dari sedekah yang diiringi dengan sesuatu yang menyakitkan (perasaan si penerima). Allah Mahakaya lagi Maha Penyantun.'' (Al-Baqarah:263)

kalau ikut faham biasa tanpa rujuk mana-mana, boleh faham sendiri kan frasa 'pemberian maaf lebih baik' tu? dan sebab penurunan ayat ini seingat aku kisah Abu Bakar r.a dengan hambanya semasa peristiwa Aisyah r.a;anaknya difitnah. Abu Bakar terlalu marah sehinggakan berkata-kata sesuatu. aku lupa apa kata-katanya. lalu turunlah ayat 263 ini.

ikut logik, siapalah kita kan nak tak mahu memberi maaf kepada orang, kan? bayangkan kita sendiri tak diberi kemaafan seseorang, jiwa seksa kan? tau tak apa. dan perlu kita ingat, Allah pun Maha Pengampun terhadap hamba-hamba-Nya. jadi, siapalah kita untuk angkuh tidak memberi maaf? dan juga, tidaklah kita perlu menanti orang yang tak sengaja menyakiti kita itu datang meminta-minta maaf dengan kita. bukankah lebih baik kita memaafkannya begitu sahaja? siapalah kita untuk menanti-nanti orang datang meminta maaf? yada. mari kita maafkan semua orang sebelum berlayar dalam gelombang alfa. >.<

sakit.
bila bersalah dengan orang.
sakit.
bila tidak mendapat maaf.
sakit.
bila tiada kata putus.
sakit. lebih parah.
bila orang itu yang tersayang.

berjiwa besar lagi.

jiwa besar itu perlu untuk kita menampung cita-cita yang besar. macam mana nak tanggung impian setinggi langit, segah gunung, seluas lautan sekiranya jiwa kita kecik macam biji sawi? ya. jiwa besar perlu untuk kita mempunyai cita-cita seluas angkasa.

macam mana nak gapai syurga kalau meminta maaf pun sesuatu yang berat untuk dibuat?

layak ke jejak syurga andai angkuh masih bertapak di hati, wahai diri?

macam mana nak syurga firdaus mahupun `adn kiranya dalam do'a tak pernah diminta?

"Syurga mempunyai seratus darjat dan tingkat, di antara satu darjat dengan satu darjat lain adalah seperti jarak bumi dengan langit. Tingkat darjat yang paling tinggi ialah Syurga Firdaus. Daripadanya akan mengalir sungai-sungai ke dalam empat syurga. Di atasnya terletak Arasy. Apabila kamu meminta kepada Allah, mintalah syurga Firdaus." (Hadis Riwayat Tirmizi dan Imam Al-Bukhari) kredit: perjuangan selamanya

mempunyai jiwa besar. pendapat aku lagi, jiwa besar itu mampu menangkis serangan-serangan perasaan. macam mana tu? contohnya, seseorang menutup pintu bilik dengan kuat. tak payah nak terasa sakit hati ke apa. sebaliknya tanya kepada penutup pintu tu kenapa atau ada apa~ tak pasal nak sakit hati itu sakit. kalau tak suka bagi tau baik-baik. kan? >.<

jiwa besar. apa yang berlaku dalam hidup, apabila timbul bermacam soalan yang tak selari dengan iman, mengadulah kepada DIA. mintalah kepada DIA.

Dan apabila hamba-hamba-Ku bertanya kepadamu tentang Aku, maka (jawablah), bahwasanya Aku adalah dekat. Aku mengabulkan permohonan orang yang berdoa apabila ia memohon kepada-Ku, maka hendaklah mereka itu memenuhi (segala perintah) Ku dan hendaklah mereka beriman kepada-Ku, agar mereka selalu berada dalam kebenaran (al-Baqarah:186)

besarkan jiwa dengan iman.

cukup besar ke jiwa kalau berjauhan dengan keluarga pun rasa semangat merudum? uhf.

jom, besarkan jiwa dengan iman~ ^.^

'Ajarlah jiwamu untuk terbang tinggi, nescaya ia benci sesuatu yang remeh. Ajarlah jiwamu erti kemuliaan agar ia benci kehinaan. Berilah peluang jiwamu merasai kelazatan rohani yang agung, nescaya ia bencikan kelazatan kecik yang sementara..." Abdul Wahab Azzam.

bulan Jun.

2011-06-15T16:55:00.002+08:00

yeah. bulan Jun sekali saja dalam setahun.

cuaca sekarang ini angin bertiup ganas menyebabkan tempias hujan ke dalam rumah; tempat aku duduk menaip entri ini, kedengaran guruh berderum-derum di luar rumah, hujan menimpa bumi serta bumbung rumah dengan kelajuan yang mungkin hampir maksima.

suasana rumah, aroma roti bersalut telur goreng *la haula wala quwwata illa billahil 'aliyyil 'azim* [kedengaran guruh!!! ke pelaka? er.. ] merebak dibawa udara bergerak dalam rumah sehingga ke tingkat atas.

bulan Jun. minggu lepas, aku termenung sendirian. ada apa dengan bulan Jun? ia semacam menjentik sesuatu di ruang yang tidak dapat terlihat dan terdengarkan dek pancaindera yang zahir pada diri aku. [perh...............................]

aku selongkar entri aku dalam blog ini. aku temui entri Jun dua tahun yang lepas. bukan aku nak suruh korang baca, aku sedang bercerita ni!! ok. dua tahun yang lepas, Jun. cuti sekolah. ya. cuti sekolah. tanggal 4 Jun pada tahun tersebut, rupa-rupanya ada berita gembira yang aku dapat. ha. ha. peluang menyambung pelajaran ke tahap seterusnya selepas sekolah menengah.

seterusnya, 8 Jun; hari yang kelam kabut itu, aku sudah mendaftarkan diri. tidak lama selepas itu, dapat keputusan temuduga untuk di mana aku belajar sekarang. hue. pendek je ceritanya. tapi, tiba-tiba aku rasa Jun ni macam nostalgic pada aku. dua manusia kesayangan sejak kecil aku, lahir pada bulan ini.

aku jugak terfikir-fikir, kenapa cuti bulan Jun tahun ini, terasa sangat lain? terasa ada sesuatu yang tak sesuai dengan puzzle yang aku nak padankan. aku akhirnya jumpa jawapannya! nak tau apa dia? tahun lepas aku ke MISI!!! Mukhayyam Intensif... itulah jawapan dia~

jeda pada jam 1728.

patience

2011-05-31T00:22:00.009+08:00

patience or being patient is very subjective.

some say, he's patient because he has the willing to wait.

some say, she's patient because she can bear the burdens on her own.

some say, they're patient because they are strong at heart to go through the tests in their life.

the list may goes down...

i found one of the meaning is that patience is when we're not telling others about things that we feel it like testing our patience. ^.^

i've googled 'sabar' and 'patience in Qur'an'. here are some of my findings... :)

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introduction of The Importance of Patience in the Qur'an by Harun Yahya
....how Allah may test people so that they can acquire a more perfect patience, and the great return Allah promises to those who exhibit great patience.

Examples of how the Prophets showed patience in every area until the end of their lives will be presented in the hope that people will "be steadfast for our Lord" until the end of their own lives. (Surat al-Muddaththir, 7)

Six Benefits of Patience from the Qur'an
Imam Ahmad rahimahullah said, “Allah has mentioned patience in the Qur’an in 90 places.”

Patience in the Qur’an: Six Benefits

1. Instruction: Patience is enjoyed upon the Believers.

وَاصْبِرْ وَمَا صَبْرُكَ إِلَّا بِاللَّهِ

And endure patiently, your patience is not but from Allah. (16:127)

وَاصْبِرْ لِحُكْمِ رَبِّكَ فَإِنَّكَ بِأَعْيُنِنَا

So wait patiently for the Decision of your Lord, for verily, you are under Our Eyes. (52:48)

2. That which is opposite to patience is forbidden

فَاصْبِرْ لِحُكْمِ رَبِّكَ وَلَا تَكُن كَصَاحِبِ الْحُوتِ إِذْ نَادَىٰ وَهُوَ مَكْظُومٌ

So wait with patience for the Decision of your Lord, and be not like the Companion of the Fish – when he cried out (to Us) while he was in deep sorrow. (68:48)

3. Patience is made a condition of success and prosperity

يَا أَيُّهَا الَّذِينَ آمَنُوا اصْبِرُوا وَصَابِرُوا وَرَابِطُوا وَاتَّقُوا اللَّهَ لَعَلَّكُمْ تُفْلِحُونَ

O you who believe! Endure and be more patient, and guard your territory by stationing army units permanently at the places from where the enemy can attack you, and fear Allah, so that you may be successful. (3:200)

4. The reward of those who exercise patience is doubled

أُولَـٰئِكَ يُؤْتَوْنَ أَجْرَهُم مَّرَّتَيْنِ بِمَا صَبَرُوا وَيَدْرَءُونَ بِالْحَسَنَةِ السَّيِّئَةَ وَمِمَّا رَزَقْنَاهُمْ يُنفِقُونَ

These will be given their reward twice over, because they are patient, and repel evil with good, and spend out of what We have provided them. (28:54)

إِنَّمَا يُوَفَّى الصَّابِرُونَ أَجْرَهُم بِغَيْرِ حِسَابٍ

Only those who are patient shall receive their reward in full, without reckoning. (39:10)

Sulayman ibn Qasim said, “the reward of every deed is known, except for the reward of patience which will be like heavy rain.”

5. Patience and emaan are pre-requisites for leadership in religion

وَجَعَلْنَا مِنْهُمْ أَئِمَّةً يَهْدُونَ بِأَمْرِنَا لَمَّا صَبَرُوا ۖ وَكَانُوا بِآيَاتِنَا يُوقِنُونَ

And We made from among them (Children of Israel), leaders, giving guidance under Our Command, when they were patient and used to believe with certainty in Our Ayat. (32:24)

6. Patience is the way to earn the Companionship of Allah

وَاصْبِرُوا ۚ إِنَّ اللَّهَ مَعَ الصَّابِرِينَ

And be patient. Surely, Allah is with those who are patient. (8:46)

-Taken from “Patience and Gratitude” by Ibn al-Qayyim

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pictures that caught my sight.

i actually don't like so much to copy and paste others' articles to this blog. but this time, i feel like doing it. ^.^

beneficial.

2011-05-02T04:19:00.004+08:00

beneficial. sounds like facial, uh?

i've finished two books bought at KLIBF; Baju Melayu Hijau Serindit and Maaf, Saya Bukan Bibik!
both of the books are enough to make me to revise myself.
thus, both of the books are good for me to be read of. yeah.
they made me check myself.
the authors are lucky to have me as their reader, yeah. i hope they'll be grant for what i felt and feel reading their pieces. amin.

targets for my return, again again again again and again are not accomplished.
somehow, i'll try my best to have my 'dream' tomorrow.

am happy to see people around me change to someway or something better for good in a way that will and can bring them to ALLAH's blessings.

and i do touched seeing some of them seems like making a move like a u-turn at a traffic jammed.

what do you think real love is about?

i bet we know about the hadith that promises the shade of Allah for people who love each other fisabilillah.

we should know about one verse in the Qur'an;
67. Friends on that day will be foes, one to another,- except the Righteous. (43, az-zukhruf)

i pray that people that i know won't be foes to another and i when we're on the Judgement day. for me that i have faith in the Judgement will be here someday, i do want good things only. even in a story we want a happy ending, and so do we for our life right? nevertheless, i also have things undone on my side. forgive me, all.

8. "Our Lord!" (they say), "Let not our hearts deviate now after Thou hast guided us, but grant us mercy from Thine own Presence; for Thou art the Grantor of bounties without measure. (3, Al 'Imran)

i really like Jalanku Pulang by UNIC. especially the tone at this (last of the song) part;
ku bersyukur hanya padaMu Tuhan
Kau tunjukkan laluanku pulang
dan cintaMu bagai air di tandus sahara
buatku melepaskan dahaga
takku temu dimanakah hentinya
rayuan taubatku padaMu

melawan arus.

2011-03-22T02:29:00.003+08:00

yeah. tak tidur lagi.
esok kena gi sekolah lagi.
menjalani aktiviti ini, aku suka dengar guru-guru yang bersemangat-motivasi-sangat berbicara.
aku suka tengok kanak-kanak sekolah rendah itu senyum-malu-mungkin-segan-takut-pun-mungkin. bagi salam. memanggil, "cikgu" "teacher" "ustazah". aku dapat semua gelaran. ha. ha. ha.
tapi, tatkala mendengar dengar tekun bicara HM sekolah itu, aku tak ingat saat ayat mana dituturkan, yang aku ingat, tiba-tiba aku rasa l.e.m.a.h.
betul ke aku ni nak melibatkan diri dalam bidang ini?
benarkah aku ini tekad sungguh untuk bersama mereka?
tidak semena-mena aku berasa tidak mampu. oh. aku terasa masih terlalu bermain-main lagi.

hari kedua, melihat kakak-kakak yang bakal masuk ke kelas untuk mengajar. salah seorang daripadanya berkata, "kakak suka mengajar. tak sabar nak masuk kelas."
oh. aku teringat, aku tak suka mengajar. aku pilih dulu bukan sebab aku suka mengajar. tapi sebab benda lain. sungguh tak bersemangat! teringat kawan-kawan seinstitut. oh. lain kali, insya Allah aku nak buat bersama seseorang yang satu kampus!!! bila lemah begini, memang teringatkan mereka... dia... dia... Dia..
tak reti berkomunikasi dengan kanak-kanak.
yeah. adik aku kanak-kanak. kanak-kanak lelaki. berbeza dengan yang berada di sekolah itu. ho. ho. x ada kaitan sungguh kan?!

sedang bergelak ketawa sendiri dalam kereta, cuba mendengar siaran baik dari corong radio, radio tak mahu berbunyi, terdetik di ingatan, robot yang lupa akan tuannya.

terasa diaim.

emosi terganggu.
ragu itu haru.
haru diragu.
baru
deru.
titik.

ada lagi, aku kagum dengan pencapaian sekolah itu. namun, perkataan ummi mencerahkan aku, "KPI kita tak sama".

O thou wrapped up (in the mantle)! Arise and deliver thy warning! And thy Lord do thou magnify! And thy garments keep free from stain!And all abomination shun! Nor expect, in giving, any increase (for thyself)! But, for thy Lord's (Cause), be patient and constant!(74:1-7)

the hard rock ride.

2011-01-29T13:43:00.005+08:00

hey. it's already at the end of January 2011.
the hard rock ride.
last night, after made a mistake by putting luggage in the wrong bus, my institute-mates and i got onto the right bus. haha. extra bus. ISA travel tours co.
after a minute sitting on the seat beside the wide window, my dearie at my left said, "ramainya lelaki..." we counted lady passengers in the bus. only 14 included us~ =.= it's strange. why? because, usually there'll be more ladies... i calculated the percentage if the total number of passengers is 40, only 35% for ladies. hm.
when the bus began our journey to Darul Naim, the radio also started to produce sounds. again, my dearie commented something, "tak pernah lagi naik bas macam ni..." i replied, "hindustan tu biasa la kan?" ha. ha. last night, the songs were pop-disco, rock and roll. i just tried to catch the songs' lyrics. :) looked at the dark horizon.
one of the songs has this line,
jangan engkau terpedaya dengan dajal yang jahat
more or less, the sentence sounded like that. i couldn't catch the whole story of the song.
this hard rock ride was shaky. ha. i felt like i was rocked harshly and roughly! i just imagined i was in a cradle and somebody rocked me in anger. @_@ for the first time i think, i couldn't sleep very well in a bus. :)
when the hard rock ride came across my cognitive (eceyh) system, i remember about hard rock iman button. :)
the harder the better. take it self.
this time, i arrived home late. usually i'd arrived home before the dawn. today, i arrived after the adzan.
this new semester... hm. quite enjoyable, interesting, more challenging and insya Allah, can make this heart smile to keep learning.
i also learned quite many new things. about people, self, this way of life. the tauhid. how great Allah is. how noble is the knowledge about tauhid-ing Him compared to other knowledge.
i learned how important beautiful ukhuwah is. how trust really makes sense in loving people. how backstabbing is ugly. i told my another dearie, please don't tell me what people said about me behind me. things like that is better to be unknown. or there'll be chaos. what is worst, chaos in the soul. this really made me to really understand what berlapang dada and husnuzzhon is like. and i stated again one of remarkable quotes in me, 'if i hate a person, there'll be ten persons hating me'. please do love others no matter what. 'love and you'll be loved' no matter whom.

let's end this entry. :)

Our Lord tells us in the Qur'an that a person can attain the best kind of life by doing right actions:
Anyone who acts rightly, male or female, being a believer, We will give them a good life and We will recompense them according to the best of what they did. (Surat an-Nahl: 97) (copied and pasted from Harun Yahya, 24 Hours in the Life of a Muslim, 1424 AH/2003 CE, United Kingdom)

photos.

2010-12-21T20:36:00.011+08:00

yada. i'm enjoying my holidays. insya Allah, every year, in December i'll be enjoying my holidays. in December!

how i wish to be questioned like the pic above for every break i have in the middle of semester.

one year ago, i'd passed my JPJ test in December. unfortunately that my PCDL will expire only in February 2012. =.= due to the late registration. :| i have 3 copies of my LCDL with me! hah.

how i was confuse to choose when i started to enjoy my studies. :)

2010 is leaving. it's been several years already. should i say i've grown up or i'm still growing up? :D

*knock my head*

THE MOST DIFFICULT PHASE OF LIFE IS NOT WHEN NO ONE UNDERSTANDS ME; IT IS WHEN I DON'T UNDERSTAND MYSELF.

i never quit being a muslimah

2010-12-19T20:29:00.006+08:00

first, from muna 'adilah. :)

for my friends; virtually know me or know me in reality, thanks for always being there. hope we'll be included amongst the seven people that will be under the shade of Allah hereafter. amin. :)

:: 1~ say Alhamdulillah.. ::

::2~ copy paste this picture then write the tittle " i never quit being a muslimah" ::

:: 3~ lafazkan rasa cinta pada sahabat antunna kerana Allah ::

:: 4~ tag kan pada sahabat blogger tersayang ::

second, from iqa pika the boink boink. :)

1. Adakah anda rasa anda HOT?
bila makan cili, rasa. ;p

2. Update wallpaper anda guna sekarang
supposed to be upload kan? =.=
tak jumpa folder. =.= nak print screen pun xrajin. :) tapi, wallpaper biasa kat windows, home.

3. Cerita about this picture
CANTIK.

4. Kali terakhir makan pizza.
paling ingat, tak salah, sebelum balik di tengah-tengah musim peperiksaan akhir dua sebulan yang lepas. baru dapat elaun setelah sebulan 'kebulur' (amboi. tahu bersyukur tak?) masa tu. sakan. sebab ada teman sekelas aku mengidam nak makan spaghetti kat pizza hut. tambah lagi jadi macam hadiah untuk diri sendiri setelah banyak perkara berlaku - organize itu ini dan kerja-kerja kursus yang mencabar mental dan fizikal pada sem terakhir pra itu. ha. ha. (lebih-lebih pulak deskripsi aku)

5. Lagu terakhir anda dengar.
baru je tadi, outlandish - feel like saving the world.

6. Apa yang anda buat selain selesaikan tag ni?
dengar playlist kat winamp dan semata selesaikan tag ini.

7. Selain nama sendiri, anda dipanggil dengan nama apa?
selain nama sendiri, tak ada. er... ada satu nama, han pei Ya. tapi itu pun dah dekat-dekat nama aku dah. ha. ha. Momo antara pioneer guna nama-nama han-han ni rasanya. =) pengaruh novel.

8. Tag lagi 5 orang
aku tak nak tag. :) boleh ya? :D

footnote:
- worried about tomorrow.
+ haven't seen my dentist formally. the appointment is postponed due to the construction at the clinic. the dentist told me that my left geraham bongsu also might be pulled out. >.<

There are seven whom Allah will shade in His Shade on the Day when there is no shade except His Shade: a just ruler; a youth who grew up in the worship of Allah, the Mighty and Majestic; a man whose heart is attached to the mosques; two men who love each other for Allah's sake, meeting for that and parting upon that; a man who is called by a woman of beauty and position [for illegal intercourse], but be says: 'I fear Allah', a man who gives in charity and hides it, such that his left hand does not know what his right hand gives in charity; and a man who remembered Allah in private and so his eyes shed tears.' Narrated by Abu Hurairah & collected in Saheeh al-Bukhari (english trans.) vol.1, p.356, no.629 & Saheeh Muslim (english trans.) vol.2, p.493, no.2248

buat sahabat dunia maya.

2010-12-16T17:52:00.002+08:00

Sahabat ………

Jangan kau bayangkan aku seindah pelangi

Jangan kau khayalkan aku secerah mentari

Jangan kau mimpikan aku selembut merpati

Jangan kau harapkan aku sewangi melati

Ku tak ingin kau jatuh kekecewaan

Ku tak ingin kau terjerumus dalam penyesalan.....

Aku hanya sekadar insan

Penuh dengan keterbatasan

Jangan terlalu banyak menyandarkan harapan

Setinggi langit dan seluas lautan....

Bangkitlah menghadapi alam nyata

Terbentang harapan menghadang

Jangan sesali masa silam

Jangan mimpikan hari esok

Hadapi hari ini penuh kesungguhan

Bangun impian dengan keyakinan

Langkah nyata turut mengiring......

kau hadir dengan suara lemah

meresap melepasi telinga

merasuk ke dalam jiwa

hingga ku terpaku dan hampir tak bersuara.....

kau dunia mayaku

yang hadir hanya melepasi suara

dan datang dalam fikiran hanya sebuah bayangan

bayangan yang nyata...

aku mendongak ke langit malam

mencari sebuah kebenaran

kau hadir dalam khayalan

lalu ku peluk erat dirimu

setelah ku bangun

kau hanyalah dunia maya

yang ku harapkan untuk jadi nyata.....

kredit kepada Tu Noh. kurang jelas sebenarnya siapakah dia ini. :D

*masih hutang tag daripada cik iqa pika dan muna 'adilah. :)

karma.

2010-12-13T16:51:00.005+08:00

now i understand more about the word karma. ha. ha. funny eh?

i watched "Dimana isteriku" at TV3 two days ago at Che Yah's. yada. the television at this home is warded. actually, my sister and i wanted to watch a drama entitled "Ustazah dari UK" ~~at TV2~~ on TV1, but it wasn't on air. there's a live show from "Pilih Kasih" instead.

two days ago, a tragic.. something tragic for me happened. okay. before that, for your information, i had been in my beloved secondary school for three days before the accident. i was to help my teachers for the prefect camp there. there, i'd commented my juniors, they weren't pro-active as they presented in their manifesto.

return to my tragic story. ummi was driving. on the way to the school mentioned above. then, we stopped at one traffic light. in front of our car we're riding, at the left corner, i could see a cute orange kitty under another car. it looked unwell. the light was still red. i told my sister about the kitty. then, the light turned to green.
"tak sempat dah la..."
i looked through the left side mirror, the little cat was still there. moving.

we continued our journey to our destination.

ummi asked me to drive. her head was spinning. i drove. we arrived the traffic light i mentioned above again. i saw a dead white body of a little cat on the lane i was driving. oh. and in front of us, there was the place of the orange kitty lost in it's world. ummi said, "don't look there," with an apologetic tone.
"kalau awak bertindak cepat tadi, sempat je nak bagi tau kat kereta-kereta tu.. ambil kucing tu bawak masuk kereta.." i was insensitive. i got it. if the day before, i told my juniors about it, that moment those words slapped me back.

today, i used the same road again. know what, i could see the orange spot on the road. i was.. regret. am regret. in the afternoon, i was blocked by two cats on the way home. black and white cat. i don't want to repeat the same mistake again. i'd killed. i killed.

thus, be more sensitive. being sensitive for thing like this is okay and good for us. think quick, act fast~

and yes, am still thinking about the if i react quick that moment...

i had the chance to save a soul. even it's a cat. a kitten.
maybe this is also how they feel for not change before it's too late.

this is a sad story.

42. That to thy Lord is the final Goal; 43. That it is He Who granteth Laughter and Tears; 44. That it is He Who granteth Death and Life;(An-Najm (53))

give and have.

2010-12-01T10:12:00.003+08:00

i don't have money, i can't give you money.

i have dust, i only can give you dust.

thus, i can't give you a thing i don't own for myself even if i know about the thing.

sorry. this is really apologetic. not to you, but for you inside here.

it's already december.

Hai December, I heard you’re good in listing people’s dream for new year? - cik diah.

repeat. sorry, that i can't give things i don't have. ~~sorry that i love you. sorry seems to be the hardest word.~~ heh.

half our deen.

2010-11-30T10:07:00.007+08:00

leave yesterday. fix today. plan tomorrow! live a life.

i don't think i've left my yesterday. bad one.

it's been a long time i haven't planned my day.

when there's no plan, no best fix either.

half our deen. ha. ha. found about this on youtube. ain't interested with the content. but the video effects and other elements in the ads. :) and yet am quite impressive for the content of the videos. :D

was a tourist in south Thailand on previous Friday and Saturday. the trip ended with a yawn from me. loudly. what a shame. -.- the trip, for me and Yiba was like a refreshment. why? because we had been there in 2002. :) but we don't remember everything clearly. for me, i just remember Narathiwat mosque, Yala Rama hotel and Yala Islamic University. however, when we passed through a beach, i can remember some of the memories. we once had our dinner there, using the Japanese table.

am thinking about transferring my blog entries into a book. :D

if you wanna know more about the trip, please click here. my sis is writing about it. :)
my talent of writing about event in my life in my blogs are rusting. he.

o ho. i would like to thank to Momo (again) and Shag for giving me awards. so, 2010, i got 2 awards. :)

firstly, from Momo.

Sila jelaskan kenapa anda suka ber-blog?
kerana saya boleh syok sendiri?

Apa motif anda tarik followers? Anda superstar kah?
dulu; rasa macam disayangi kalau difollow. ha. sekarang; saya tak kisah anda follow saya ya, anda follow saya tidak. :)

Cerita sikit perangai anda.
jual ikan. sombong. nak menang.

Pernah terfikir nak masuk magazine aka mewar-warkan mewara-warakan belog anda? Mengapa?
tak pernah kerana saya tidak berhajat untuk mencari populariti. low self-esteem. :p

Sila tembak bloggers lain.
penulis-penulis blog:

- Ftn Fth's Thoughts (Ftn Fth)
- ashia's remedy (ash of wrath)
- Nur Areefah (Nur Areefah)
- Shada Wentz (shada wentz)
- ain't a writer (madihah ibrahim)
- An agugu (diah nadiah)
- ~boink boink~ (iqa pika)

now, the second award from Shag.

pesanan penaja:
Anda juga sewajibnya menjawab soalan dari aku. Sebab, aku nak perbaiki apa yang kurang dan memantapkan apa yang lebih. Kiki. Jom tengok soalan :

Nama penuh anda dan nama panggilan blogger anda.
Kenapa jadi pengikut belog ini [shagcomot]?
Apa kekurangan belog ini [shagcomot]?
Apa pula kelebihan belog ini [shagcomot]?

Selesai menjawab, dan membuat entri khas, korang haruslah tinggal permanent link pasal entri khas korang tu kat ENTRI INI. Bukan di entri lain atau di shoutbox. Aku takut aku terlepas pandang kalau korang respon kat tempat lain.

PENTING! Jangan serahkan anugerah khas tu kepada blogger lain. Kerana, ianya khas untuk korang yang dalam list sahaja. Okay?! Nampak tak keistimewaan korang kat sini :P

soalan pertama
W. Sufiyyah W. Zulkipli (dalam i/c) nama panggilan blogger; iYa, sufi, piya.

soalan kedua
kerana owner dia follow saya. ha3. sebab saya suka baca entries dia.

soalan ketiga
saya tak suka kena klik "read more" tu. :D

soalan keempat
dalam sehari update lebih satu entri. sampai tak larat nak baca. :P

sama-sama KASIH kepada Shag. :) thanks for this award too.

that's all for today's update. :)

jalan2 ke selatan thailand.

2010-11-28T10:43:00.002+08:00

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adik2 kakak2 sisters yang nak tengok, contact me.
please don't contact thru my hp, i haven't charged it yet.
*rofl* :)

~~malas~~ pulak nak tambah gambar.

tak rajin pulak nak privatekan entry lagi.
*30nov2010, 0134hours*

log hari ni.

2010-11-22T19:47:00.004+08:00

log. ada dua jenis log. dialog. monolog. :P bukan buku log.

sejak semalam, mengomen ayat pengulas sukan. tv2. yada. Lin Dan vs Lee Chong Wei.
teringin nak tengok senior Lin Dan tu lawan Wong Choon Han balik. :D

pengulas sukan semalam sangat la tidak best. kalau dia baca macam mana? bacalah. bukan apa. antara perkataan yang selalu di ulang,

"sayang sekali"

"untuk memastikan"

"memakan diri"

"kemungkinan"

geram aje apabila mendengar perkataan2 berulang-ulang di atas. ha. ha.

hari ni, dialog dan monolog menarik.

Cheng Ho Expo, dialog bergelak-senyum.

"nak tanda tangan? tanda tangan kat sini..."

"oh. boleh jugak." sambil gelak-gelak. ambil pen, tulis nama, pekerjaan serta tanda tangan.

"eh.. nombor telefon?"

"orang lain tak tulis pun?"

"ehh... orang lain tulis juga.. tengok ni.." sambil menyelak-nyelak muka surat sebelumnya.

"oohhh.... nombor ummi dengan ayah la..."

"tulis nombor rumah dah la..."

"naik nombor pelik-pelik tu, nombor kami la tu..."

ha. ha. ceh!

Jalan Sultanah Zainab, parking lot tepi jalan, monolog orang hilang sabar.

mata tengok garisan kuning parking kereta. tayar kereta besar di sebelah melebihi had.

"besar la tayar kereta nih..." keluar dari tempat pemandu kereta kecil SUV perodua yang dah layak jadi antik.

usha bangunan tiga tingkat di hadapan.

berdialog sebentar dengan seorang pak cik. dia bawak Vios putih kot. heh.

pintu tempat dicari kunci.

tangan menekan-nekan keypad yang dah kosong nombor telefon tertera. line Celcom buat hal. grr.

buka pintu kereta. cuba meloloskan diri ke tempat memandu melalui ruang yang tak sampai 50cm kurang lebih.

"kereta tayar besar ni...." lidah tak bertulang gemalai menuturkan.

ada dua orang pak cik tampil menyapa pandangan. melihat kereta sebelah.

"aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa!!! malu! malu!" letak muka dalam stereng.

mereka keluar dulu. pak cik di tempat penumpang sebelah driver asyik menengok-nengok je. aku sengih je tengok dia. dalam hati, tahu la kereta dia tu tinggi. ;p bukan kereta la kot. torpedo. ha. ha.

gear reverse. pak cik Vios tadi pun mula meninggalkan tempat itu. aku menyusul mereka.

moral: cakap siang pandang-pandang...

Jalan Raja Muda, dialog.

"ayah nak gi Pulau Pinang esok..."

"ayah tak bawak sapa-sapa pun..."

aku, "tak apalah. tak nak ikut pun..." sengih. padahal dalam kepala dah nampak dah blok-blok asrama yang akan dilalui sebelum naik jambatan Pulau Pinang.

kemudian, imaginasi berfungsi.

"kalau ikut pun, kitorang jalan-jalan la kat Queensbay ke.. Feringgi ke... pusing..." gelak.

meraputipu.

2010-11-21T18:36:00.005+08:00

You Should Go on a Caribbean Cruise

You are easygoing, friendly, and optimistic. You find it easy to have a good time.

When you're thinking about a vacation, you're just primarily to relax. You'd like to have every need and whim catered to!

Not much sounds better to you than pristine beaches, plenty of sunshine, and maybe even a little island hopping.

All you need is a cool drink and a good book ha. ha. yeah. right. , and you're set for the week.

What Type of Cruise Should You Go On?

Blogthings: If Quizzes Are Outlawed, Only Outlaws Will Take Quizzes

You Are Toast

Old fashioned and a bit of a homebody, you totally go for comfort food.

You're the type who loves to cook for friends started to cook when i was form two. the last cook was for my classmates at Nilam Puri , and they love you for it.

You truly know what tastes good, and you can often pick out the best dish at a restaurant.

You don't fall for food trends. You stick with what's been food for a long time!

What Kind of Breakfast Are You?

Blogthings: Learn Something Surprising About Yourself

You Failed Your Driver's Test

You only got 3/10 correct.

If you have a driver's license, it needs to be revoked!

u're asking me US's laws, of course i don't know!

Are You a Good Driver?

Blogthings: Learn Something Surprising About Yourself

You Are a Blueberry Muffin

You are a nurturing, domestic, homey person.

Of all the types, you are the most likely to make your own muffins at home.

You don't like to rock the boat, and you're most content when you're making everyone else happy.

You are very loyal. You'll defend your family and friends, even if you secretly disapprove of what they're doing.

You tend to be a bit shy and withdrawn. You don't make friends quickly or easily.

But once you do make a good friend, the chances are high that you'll be friends for life.

What Kind of Muffin Are You?

Blogthings: 100's of Fun, Free Quizzes and 3 Stupid Ones

You Are Double Chocolate Hot Chocolate

When you do anything, you do it big. You live large, and you don't hold back.

You either love or hate things with a passion then i regret. heh. And since you love hot chocolate, of course you want to double down.

You're the type of person most likely to make your own hot chocolate. Only you can make it as decadent as you like it.

And you're also likely to go for the good stuff - real chocolate. No wimpy cocoa packets for you!

What Flavor Hot Chocolate Are You?

Blogthings: We'll Tell You The Truth... Someone Has To!

You Are a Mostly Polite Driver

You are high strung and easily worked up. You have a heck of a temper, and you're ready to fight anyone who ticks you off! yeah. ha. ha.

You are a fairly aware person, but you can't help but make judgment errors from time to time. errr... not precise.

You are a very fair person. You treat everyone equally, even when it's difficult to do. err.. like, no signal, no way! ;p

You can be a rather tense, grouchy person - but you try to maintain your dignity. 0_o

You have the utmost respect for authority figures. You feel that rules - and their enforcement - are important. heh.

You are not a very focused person. You have trouble walking and chewing gum at the same time! i like this! very true!

You are a very responsible and conscientious person. You often consider the feelings and needs of others. no.

Your ego is a healthy size. You don't think you're more important than anyone else. not healthy at all. obesity.unlike!

What Does Your Driving Say About You?

Blogthings: 100's of Fun, Free Quizzes and 3 Stupid Ones

You Are Vanilla

You are a delightful, friendly person. You are optimistic about life and people.

You are enthusiastic and energetic. You enjoy everything you do.

You are cooperative and flexible. You get along with people from many walks of life.

You're not a show off. Instead, you're more likely to help other people shine.

Are You Chocolate or Vanilla?

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You Are a Scrambled Egg

You are spontaneous and fun. You like to mix it up in life, and you are very flexible.

You consider any day that surprises you to be a good day. You aren't big on planning and structure.

You are an agreeable, happy person. You can get along with almost anyone, and you're pretty easy to please.

You live a somewhat chaotic life, but things seem to work out for you in the end. Even when things are a mess, you come out fine at the other end. very chaotic.

What Kind of Eggs Are You?

Blogthings: We're Not Shrinks, But We Play Them On the Internet

You Crave a Blissful Life

Your dream is to live a light hearted, carefree life. You don't want to be bogged down by stress.

You'd like to recapture some of the playfulness and innocence you had as a child.

You believe that life should be about celebrations and fun. The world needs more happiness.

You want to focus on the positive and stay optimistic. It's too easy to get depressed. correct! too easy to get depressed and demotivated. heh. liar.

The Sunset Test

Blogthings: Quizzes and Tests and Memes, Oh My!

You Are a Green Pen

You are not just a little quirky, you're downright weird i like this word. ;p. And you're proud of being different!

You go against the grain i miss that song; made her mark just so you won't fit in. You couldn't imagine being like everyone else.

You are creative liar. and a big wacky. You've got a big vision, and it's changing every week err.. ;p.

You are surprisingly charming and popular liar. You may not be normal ain't normal? T.T in any way, but that's part of your appeal.

What Color Pen Are You?

Blogthings: Discover the Parts of Your Personality that Have Been Hiding

You Are English

You are easy to understand, and most people are able to communicate easily with you. You say things simply and clearly. tipu. either i use filter or opposite understanding.

You are flexible and not too hung up on rules or customs. You can go with the flow and change as needed. ain't flexible. they told me.

You can speak simply or you can exercise your vast vocabulary. You customize you communication style to whatever setting you're in.

You are a very cosmopolitan and worldly person. If you like something from halfway around the world, you try to figure out a way to incorporate it into your life.

What Language Are You?

Blogthings: We're Not Shrinks, But We Play Them On the Internet

ayam makan ayam.

2010-11-14T16:03:00.005+08:00

ha. percaya tak? ayam makan ayam? tak percaya???

alahai. aku tak ada kamera tadi nak snap gambar tu.

lebih kurang 30cm dari ayam yang makan ayam tu, kucing makan ayam.

aku sebelum ni memang dah agak tertanya-tanya, ayam makan ayam tak eh? maka, pagi tadi, terjawab sudah. ayam makan ayam!

macam mana boleh jadi macam tu?

semalam aku telah membeli dua ketul extra drumsticks for encik no. 9 dan no. 10. namun, mereka tidak makan dua ketul tersebut. hari ni, ragu-ragu aku nak makan. bagi la makan kucing yang no. 8 tu suka sangat. tapi, kucing bunting tu ambil seketul sahaja. maka, ada ibu ayam ni lapar jugak, datang patuk-patuk drumstick saudara dia sendiri. hm. tiba-tiba nampak terjemahan surah al-hujurat. :)

hari ini, aku terkenang zaman lepas SPM sebelum sambung belajar. being a homemaker. hm.

aku tiba-tiba rasa perubahan aku ada kaitan dengan tinggal di hostel. aku punya statement dalam kepala pagi tadi, "tinggal di hostel buat aku makin jual ikan."

namun, aku terbanding pula asrama pertama aku dan asrama kedua. kenapa ketika di asrama pertama tu, aku rasa bahagia eh? err. bukan kedua tu tak bahagia. tapi, rasa dia macam lain. haha. ala. sebulan, mana nak tau berubah ke tak, ye? baik. baik.

sebenarnya, bukanlah tinggal di hostel penyebabnya. haha. cuma, sedikit sebanyak, rutin di situ buat kita jadi terbiasa. alah .. tegal biasa. aku lupa dah peribahasa !! parah. parah.

rutin di asrama yang sangat la bagi kesan negatif apabila balik rumah, tak buat kerja orang lain. ya lah. di asrama, tempat kau, kemas sendiri. meja kau, pandai-pandai kau. sekali lagi, logik aku menolak. haha. ok la. bukan pasal tempat. bukan pasal meja. sebab semua tu tetap berkongsi. laundry business. yeah.

am calling U

tutup topik. aku merapu.

tadi, pergi kedai buku. oh la la. banyak buku. main objective is planner 2011. :D tapi semua aku tak berapa berkenan. -.- nak masuk ular pop, tapi, fikir, nak sumbang kepada ekonomi melayu yang islam. =.- lepas tu, usha novel. ilham hamdani dah ada adik penulis rupanya. hamzah hamdani. (pandai2 je aku) :D nampak novel Jhumpa Lahiri!!! oh my. tapi harganya tu, cun la. dicongakkan, RM36.00. kedekut tak aku? aku tau, aku kedekut. tambah lagi, 2 bijik buku aku beli masa date dengan ayah kat Carrefour hari tu pun tak khatam lagi. English jugak. :D lepas tu, aku nampak lagi.

weih!!! novel DBP!!! susah tahu nak jumpa novel DBP dijual open begitu. pesta buku je aku selalu jumpa. DBP baru buka pasaran ke luar ke? aku pun apa lagi, terus belek. nak beli JS nye novel, kakak-kakak aku galak memborong hari tu. tak pasti tajuk mana belum dibeli.

ayo ayo...

masalah sikit kedai tu, novel DBP tu dia tak letak harga. aku pun buat confident tanya akak cashier. ada diskaun. dapat la RM18.00. tajuk apa ya buku tu? tema dia budak lelaki pandai, aktif di sekolah tapi kurang perhatian daripada ayah. menarik tak? :) cikgu... hm.

ada sebuah novel ilham hamdani aku terasa nak beli. anekdot belakang tu agak tak boleh pergi (blah). ha. ha. harga dia lebih kurang je dengan Lahiri tu. hu.

*teringat tuzki punye emoticon*

i wanna tell you sometimes i feel like we've killed the world
don't wanna leave you like no mercy at all...

driving skill aku sangat teruk. =.= aku benci aku yang memandu. tapi aku suka! 0_0 boleh pergi la. heh. entah.

when they ask about ME
my servants, I AM NEAR...

o ye. aku dah buang nasyid hari tu. :)

aku dah jadi mak cik. sebab classmate aku masa sekolah rendah dahulu sudah menimang cahaya mata sulung pada 10 November lepas. nak pergi ziarah dia! baby is innocent and pure. heh. silalah faham. bersih dari dosa.

take one step toward ME
I will come running to you

classmate aku yang sekarang pula, salah seorang akan akad nikah 19 November. aku nak pergi kenduri dia! :) kenduri akhir tahun ini, di Kedah juga. tahun lepas, pergi kenduri di Kedah dah. :)

esok, ada jamuan di sekolah menengah. ketika memandu tadi, tiba-tiba rasa macam segan-segan. ha. sekarang, nampak pantai. jom?

buku alam Jin sebenarnya seronok juga kan? ini adalah pengaruh Xarine yang menulis pasal Yuda tu. aku ni, cakap je lebih, padahal baru sampai m/s 42. :D

tengok Korean drama dengan no. 3 dan no. 6 malam tadi. aku sangat la concern pasal bahasa inggeris translation dia tu. tolong la weiii. grammatical errors crazy banyak!!! tak boleh menahan aku. dalam hati, siapa la yang translate ni? takkan la company cerita ni tak pilih elok2? tolong la wei! entertainment. entertainment jugak. bahasa tu kena jaga! *oh. semangat bahasa?* haha. minta maaf! :D

tiba-tiba aku jadi macam mempraktikkan ilmu linguistics aku ketika menonton drama Korea. o la. la. la. Language Description. heh. tiba-tiba terfikir, agaknya, satu hari nanti akan ke exam subject tu di lakukan dengan cara menonton drama?

"watch the drama and identify the errors in the translation."

ha. ha. seronoknya! hisy. tiba-tiba nak jadi Menteri Pendidikan. Pendidikan i would say. dan, sesiapa yang nak belajar dalam bidang apa-apa, mestilah dia itu mencintai bidang itu! :D

sebab belajar tanpa hati, susah la. pernah tonton 3 idiots? silalah tengok. dia highlightkan isu hati dalam belajar ni. :) jangan la leka tengok tarian2 dia. skip aje yang itu. aku tengok pun kerana projek Social Studies. :D thanks k.muna.

aku cuba sampaikan kepada kawan-kawan aku ketika study. lebih kurang gini,
"kenapa kita boleh ingat jalan cerita sesebuah novel dengan baik walaupun hanya sekali baca? sebab kita baca dengan hati. sebab tu kita boleh ketawa, menangis masa baca novel. try baca buku tu macam baca novel."

subjek Social Studies masa tu. ha. ha. ha. kawan aku tu buat-buat menangis dan ketawa. haha. aku saja je masa tu. santai aja. siksa tahu menunggu habis exam. bukan nak jawab sangat, nak balik! untuk SS ni, nak study je, akan keluar ayat ini, "kena bersosial dulu ni" dengan nada gurauan biasa. he.

kesimpulan, dalam aku punya pelajaran kan, aku rasa, literature la paling boleh hayati dengan hati. ha. ha. :) aku memang suka sastera. sejak bila? aku tak perasan untuk hal ini. :)

itu sahajalah.

sukanya berada di rumah pada hari persekolahan. :) bila lagi ya?

eh. jom puasa.

Daripada Ibnu ‘Abbas r.a bahawa Nabi s.a.w bersabda bermaksud, “Tiada suatu hari pun, amalan kebaikan padanya mempunyai kelebihan melainkan pada hari-hari ini – iaitu 10 hari Zulhijjah. Para sahabat baginda bertanya, ‘Tidak juga Jihad pada jalan Allah (mengatasi kelebihan Hari-hari tersebut)? Ujar Baginda, Tidak juga Jihad di jalan Allah kecuali seorang yang keluar dengan jiwa raga dan hartanya dan tidak membawa pulang apa-apa pun (kerana habis disumbangkan untuk memenangkan agama Allah)”. (HR Imam Bukhari)

Dari Ibnu Umar r.a. bahawa Rasulullah s.a.w bersabda, “Tiada suatu haripun, amalan kebaikan padanya mempunyai kelebihan melainkan pada hari-hari 10 Zulhijjah ini, oleh kerana itu perbanyakkanlah padanya tahlil (La Ilaha Illa Allah), takbir (Allah Akbar) dan tahmid (Alhamdu Lillah)”.
(HR Imam Ahmad)

Dari Abi Qatadah r.a. bahawa Rasulullah s.a.w bersabda, “Puasa pada hari Arafah, saya mengharap Allah akan menghapuskan (dosa) setahun yang lalu dan setahun yang mendatang”
(HR Imam Muslim)

kredit: The Dawn Will Cut The Dark

lari.

2010-11-13T09:45:00.004+08:00

jom lari?

haha.

aku perasan. ya. perasan tadi bahawa tajuk entri aku selalu bahasa inggeris. =.=

*feels like saving the world - outlandish*

aku rasa aku lebih suka dengar dia punya muzik tuh. hm.

lari. teringat. tak lebih kurang tiga minggu lepas aku menyertai lari berganti-ganti.
ha. ha. besar-besar macam ni pun aku masih main benda-benda begitu. bila fikir balik, tak pernah aku bermimpi nak terus beraktif-aktif dalam aktiviti begitu. he.

*calling you*

aku ingat, 100m bulan 4 hari tu, itulah last aku lari. lari untuk pertandingan. bulan 10, budak2 kelas aku lah. asal lari je, nama aku. memang aku suka lari. lari dari masalah pun ya. ;p

dan juga, aku tak mahu dah lari. dan aku tak berniat nak bagi tahu mereka. aku hanya mampu beritahu, "aku dah retired~" mereka bukan peduli.

U changed me

*alhamdulillah*

*saving the world repeated*

tukar trek.

setiap kali aku lari, mesti aku nampak cerita ni. hu. nak lari untuk siapa kan?

so go ahead now

we cry, we try...

we'll rise..

aku harap, relay hari tu, itu terakhir aku lari untuk kejohanan. cerita relay tu, aku dan tiga lagi budak kelas aku dan 4 juniors. hm. hikmah relay, baiki hubungan antara kami berempat. at least, kitorang ada kenangan bersama kan? :) kemudian, mengeratkan silaturrahim dengan juniors itu. sepanjang relay itu, kami maintain no. 4 sebenarnya sehingga checkpoint 8. Florinna di c.p terakhir tu, yang lari laju-laju. dapat la tempat ketiga.

*calling U repeated*

all i need in my life

greng. onomatopoeia. ha.

*alhamdulillah repeated*

by being far from U..

itulah kisah larian.

omo. ha. rasa nak lari ditepi pantai~
jom!

kredit k.ummu.

and still we'll rise
like it we'll rise

i will not lose

jom~ *teringat LDV*

next time.

2010-11-06T19:28:00.004+08:00

even if the sky is falling down...

gr. hasil tiga hari di rumah, kurang dari tujuh puluh dua jam, tak buka pun nota-nota dalam beg besar Billabong itu. oh. beg itu, talinya sudah rosak! pada... lupa. minggu lepas. ~~tengah~~ sedang berlari-lari kat laluan yang menghala ke pusat sumber dari kantin, aku dapat rasa tali beg sebelah kiri seakan menggelusur dari bahu. hee. memang bebannya berat lah. tapi, masih boleh diguna lagi dengan usaha kemahiran hidup. walaupun aku tahu, KHB aku masa tingkatan tiga tak A.

hari ni misi ke kenduri terlaksana. walaupun begitu chaotic with flaws.

misi berjumpa cik Fatin Abd Fatah yang sedang dipanggil-panggil oleh Universiti Al-azhar itu juga terlaksana. walaupun bateri kereta kejap naik merah kejap tidak menyala merahnya.

segala puji bagi Allah. kemudian, segala puji bagi Allah.

setiap kali aku bertemu kembali mereka, aku ada satu rasa yang menyelinap dalam jiwa. rasa itu tidak aku tahu bagaimana untuk dinyatakan menggunakan perkataan-perkataan, disusun menjadi ayat. tapi, ianya indah. ia bisa membuat kami mengalirkan sungai dipipi kami. kami juga boleh menampilkan gigi indah kami dengannya. jiwang? memang. itulah hakikatnya. dan, jika anda; pembaca tidak offkan sound diblog ini, maka, rangkap pertama puisi yang dinadakan yang anda dengar, itulah perasaannya. :)

ada dua projek selepas habis exam. hah. semoga berjalan lancar.

lain kali,
- no homecoming before i finish my examination. ini ayat yang dibaca dengan tegas!

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kredit kepada iqapika kerana kongsi. :) sila watch on youtube. jika anda tak offkan sound diblog ini.

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entri tahun ini kurang dari tahun lepas. hm. isi pun kurang kut? ha. checklist. checklist.
cari balik. cari balik. susahnya melawan hati sendiri. siapa kata senang? hati baik kata senang. hati yang jahat tu yang susah. tambah-tambah dah biasa buat sesuatu itu. mencabar kot nak hilangkan kebiasaan itu. ambil masa. ambil masa. usaha. usaha. yang penting, usaha. hasilnya? usaha dululah! selamat!

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Sahabat Perjuangan

Album : Rumahku Syurgaku
Munsyid : Tazakka
http://liriknasyid.com  

Pertemuan kita kali ini
Bukan sekedar kawan lama tak jumpa
Tapi kita bertemu ada satu makna
Kita punya satu perjuangan

Andai ada kasih antara kita
Kita kembalikan kepada Yang Esa
Agar ia suci tulus dan ikhlas
semoga Alloh memberkati

Sambutlah tangan sahabat saudaramu
Pimpinlah ia melangkah bersama
Satukan hati kita teguhkan ia
Berdiri bersama untuk kebenaran

Reff:
Perjuangan itu artinya berkorban
Berkorban itu artinya terkorban
Janganlah gentar untuk berjuang
Demi agama dan bangsa
Inilah jalan kita

secrets.

2010-11-04T09:21:00.006+08:00

ha. ~~jahiliah~~... secrets sung by onerepublic.

arrived my hometown at 4a.m. sharp. haha.

the bus was drift last night. i woke up with a shock.... err.. i don't know. i think my head hit the frame of the window at my left.

in the middle of exam fever, i came back home. :)

6th nov; there will be a wedding ceremony. :) my teacher's.

2 papers left for this final exam. english studies, social studies.

2 papers had been answered for 7 hours. wuh... the hall froze me!

whatever the reasons for my homecoming
whatever my answers for any question
i am who i am.

he.

mumbling. great self. great.

for the first time, i only carry 2 ordinary bags to return home. but, they are still heavy! can't help it. i love to bring back my books. :D i know it's my bad. and i can't get rid of it. uhf.

after one hour i arrived home from penang, my parents departed to there. hee. ayah has to meet his supervisor at USM. i bought my ticket about three weeks ago. no regret. :)

within one month,
one died
one retired
one dated
one... the cycle goes on,
pray that we won't be in the stupid cycle.

one dated... aha. i was dating with ayah. :)

we can prepare a superb farewell party for one's retirement,
can we prepare the best appreciation ceremony for one's coming death?

hm. i'm trying to be better in this English language. :)

o yeah. last night, i heard Arabic lesson on air. hm. Jama' is like plural, one stated (we also always hear the same thing from our teachers in school...). when i think about that carefully, it's unfair. why? in Arabic, jama' is for number that is more than three while plural is for more than one. thus, we can't make them same because they are different!

know everything, master of nothing.

got invitation from ESQ for MCB. uhu. need money. he. sorry can't take part in the program.

too many things to do.

for the exam, i've to cover the following topics:
- English Studies; literary devices and elements in poem, short story, novel (To Kill a Mockingbird by Harper Lee) and play (Macbeth by Shakespeare)
- Social Studies; culture and society, communication, gender and society, environment and development, conflict and resolution & globalisation in education.

these two subjects demand me to read lots of things. pergh.... yet these two subjects are in the top of four subjects. :)

spreading the rahmah over the world...
why are we separating?
separating ourselves...
separating the world of world and hereafter...
separating almost everything?

Mengkuang Dam... 101102. thanks my sisters for inviting me. thanks my another sister. thanks the brother. sorry for everything.

i ask myself,
was i really mujahadah over my desire?
am i really mujahadah over my wants?
will i be a real mujahidah?
mujahadah is not a word for jokes
once i say i want to mujahadah
it means i have to fight my own self
i have to go over my mind
i will hate my own self,
pray hard. try hard.
die hard to be a mujahidah, self.

decided to will be willing to reply comments starting from this entry. insya Allah.

jaa.

ends with subhanallah by maher zain.

added: the 016 owner was my eldest sistah! cik yummy!

it's gonna end.

2010-09-18T03:42:00.003+08:00

the raya break is going to be at its end...

nak cerita satu benda!!

:) benda menggembirakan ke?

bukan.

kisahnya begini, jam 0250 tadi, seorang lelaki batch saya masa sekolah rendah tegur kat facebook chat. he's thanking me for tagging him in our batch photo during yesterday's gathering.

at the first second he wrote salam for me, i wasn't comfortable actually. he. because he's a male.

5 minutes later, my Indian boy classmate also buzzed me thru fB chat also. but, i don't have the uncomfortable feeling.

IS THIS FEELING RIGHT????

after several sentences, 0303hour, my ex-schoolmate wrote this,

"okla
rase x elok r chat lame2 mlm2 ni
ok
assalamualaikum"

in my heart, "alhamdulillah!! finally~"

:) point saya ialah, selama ini saya memang tidak selesa-serba-salah bila chat dengan lelaki tanpa satu sebab yang munasabah atau important.. (Syar'ie kot istilah lebih tepat) jadi, tadi, bila dia yang menyatakan ayat undur diri itu, saya gembira! sebab maksudnya dia pun bukan suka-sukalah nak tegur saya. :)

tapi saya tau, saya tak adilkan. dengan budak kelas saya tu, saya tak rasa apa-apa perasaan tak selesa pun.

ada apa2 nasihat tak? :)

harap bermanfaat ceritanya, kan? :)

makanya, mungkin sebab tu jugak lah kot saya jadi kurang rajin sign in YM saya. he. godaan hebat. tett.

dah nak balik tempat tu balik dah... sambung sem 3.

ikutkan hati, dah tak mahu kembali ke sana.

macam-macam sebabnya.

satu semangat tak mahu kembali.

semangat satu lagi nak kembali.

hati yang satu lagi tu nak perbaiki apa yang patut.

satu hati tu dah lemah dah. kalau sambung pada mesin yang orang kat wad ICU tu, dah nak putus-putus dah garisan dia. bukan straight lagi!

hyperbole betul kan penulisan saya awal-awal pagi ini.

jiwa yang satu lagi tu pandai memujuk!

satu jiwa pun termakan sikit. lembut lah sikit sebab dibelai-belai dengan pujukan.

tapi, satu jiwa tetap macam liat-liat sebab membayangkan betapa mencabarnya nanti kemungkinan-kemungkinan situasi yang akan dihadapi.

jiwa yang satu lagi pulak berkeras dalam lemah gemalai membujuk satu hati tu!

dan dek kuasa kedua-dua hati, jiwa dan semangat yang lemah sebagai ciptaan, tetap menghadapi apa yang tersurat.

selamat bermujahadah menimba ilmu kembali!!

dan selamat menjaga hati.

17. Allah accept the repentance of those who do evil in ignorance and repent soon afterwards; to them will Allah turn in mercy: For Allah is full of knowledge and wisdom. [Surah 4. An-Nisa' (Women)]

am sulking.

2010-09-09T21:14:00.003+08:00

ayat aku selalunya kepada budak2 atau kawan2 aku yang jumpa merajuk kebelakangan ini;

"orang merajuk rugi..."

dan sekarang aku merajuk. rasa rugi tak? *tak*

*hati geleng*

malam raya. *nak ego jugak?*

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*boomm!* *baammmm!* kebaboom!*

bunyi-bunyian tu, dekat satu-satu tempat di dunia ni, tanda pertumpahan darah.

bunyi-bunyian sebegitu juga, ada juga tempat-tempat menandakan ada pesta-pesta.

tanda merdeka? malam 31 ogos...

bunyi-bunyian begitu, ikut kalendar Cina, kena masa, nak halau evil spirit la lebih kurang.

malam raya??

*lekapkan headphone pada kepala*

*bad guy ost track 14 @ syaheed ekram's menapis bunyi-bunyian itu*

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"tak boleh activate???"

*apakah?*

*harap-harap aku punya tak macam dia*

"mu deactivate bila?"

"marim"

*eh?* -----

*buka homepage facebook*

*tak boleh jugak*

sedih?

*sikit*

*try lagi beberapa kali*

*nak create new account ke?*

*facebook dah bosan agaknya dengan temporary deactivate-or macam aku dan yiba?*

*cik diah, facebook aku dah tak boleh activate lagi dah!*

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tadi tukar nama pada plurk. sebab saya nak jadi macam nama tu.

inside and outside....

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jalan-jalan blog.

senarionya ada guna nama sendiri; pendek panjang penuh semua ada.

teringat dulu. masa mula-mula aktif dengan dunia tak berpijak pada bumi nyata ini.

guna nickname. seronoknya tak ada orang yang dikenali secara real tahu.

lama-lama semua orang tahu.

dan aku dah tak ada hati lagi nak guna nickname.

apa gunanya guna nickname sedang orang sudah tahu kita?

rasa macam transparent pun ada.

dan jugak, selalu rasa macam bukan diri sendiri.

ok. aku guna perkataan yang aku tak berapa suka tu. rasa macam hipokrit.

tengok orang lain yang masih hidup disebalik nickname tu, rasa dengki pun ada. envy sahaja. bukan jealous.

maka, aku pun guna lah nama ku yang cantik itu. eh. ini. :) maksudnya best.

panggillah aku dengannya. aku suka korang do'akan aku. :)

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komen-komen korang... aku bukan tak nak respon, tapi tak tau the best way nak respon macamana?

tapi, no worries sebab memang aku baca, dan selalunya aku senyum macam ni :) bila baca.

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semalam,

setelah sekian lama aku tak rasa 'feel' menerima nasihat, semalam kena 'tembak' dengan ayat biasa,

"jaga diri."

rasa... rasa yang macam tu lah. rasa yang best tuh. ha. rindunya rasa itu kan...

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*tuzki tak ada nak letak muka-muka comel tuh...*

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let us rejoice indeed
for this is the day of eid

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SELAMAT HARI RAYA FITRAH!

KULLU 'AM WA ANTUM BIKHAIR.

TAQOBBALALLAHU MINNA WA MIN KA / KI.

MOHON MAAF MENTAL EMOSI & FIZIKAL.

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antara SMS raya:

MaaF eK c0z x anTa kaD raYe..
Org X anTa AdE sBB..
KAD = RM1
SAMPUL = 20sen
SETEM = 30sen
TOTAL = RM1.50

SMS baru 1sen je.. jGn sLah
pHam Lak, bKnnYe kdek0t Tp
" MmbaZir aMaLaN SyAiTan.."
iNGaT TuH..!! ANta aWaL sBb K0mP0m LIne
bZ raYe t..
sLAmAT HaRI RaYa..!!
maAF ZAHiR dAn BaTiN..!!
0-0 yek!

[Sm Asma', 09:54:37]

walau jauh bukan halangan,
SMS dihantar tanda persahabatan,
kupohon maaf selama berkawan,
salam aidilfitri tanda ingatan.
selamat hari raya aidilfitri..
maaf zahir n batin, dr che ah+kinah & keluarga..;-)

[G8 Sam Solehah, 15:42:23]

Since 2moro is rya,
im as a muslim wan 2
aplgz n hpe dat u'll 4gv me frm my scpula 2
fibula 4 all my parallx errors
zero errors n oso all
my involuntry 8tion dat i did
w'out concious cntrl.
hpfully diz msg cn b a catalyst 4
us 2gain momntum n probbility
4 in4mtion n hjrh juz only
2get tranquilty dunia
akhrt. hepy eid, maap zhr btn..;-)

[G8 Najiha, 18:06:42]

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اللهم اشف شفاءً لا يغادر سقماً

tadaima.

2010-09-04T09:11:00.005+08:00

penggal ketiga ramadhan.

balik dari SMIAAB.

seniors sem 2 & 4 gone for PBS.

merdeka.

persaraan pengarah. dan beberapa pensyarah.

*teruk*

self-destruction?

hidup perlu diteruskan selagi diberi peluang.

tension ke? *tak pun*

*kosong*

*masalah hati*

seronok bercakap dengan bukit, langit, awan, burung, pokok, rerumput, tanah, embun, sang mentari...

*kosong*

rumah.

akhirnya disitu.

"tolong ambilkan roti."

"tolong kosongkan mesin."

"nak minta tolong mop lantai."

"tolong basuh baju budak2 lelaki." (hakikatnya mesin yang basuh)

.......................

sepi. walau dalam ramai?

rasa sendiri. walaupun dalam ramai? itu syok sendiri namanya. perasan.

*cari nasyid MISI, hai sahabat*

*tak jumpa*

dilema.

luah, mati mak. telan, pahit.

pahit tak apa kot.

makan tebu, manis balik.

ambil pengajaran.

gagal untuk keputusan di dunia, alhamdulillah. ok lah. ada waktu, boleh baiki.

gagal ketika Hari Kebangkitan? no turning back... dah kan?

diri,
ingat, tidak ulang kesilapan berulang kali.

mu'min yang baik tak ulang salah yang sama banyak kali.

hi there.

2010-08-08T02:29:00.003+08:00

peace be upon you.

i don't know what kind of title should i give to this entry.

out of sudden, i remembered something. i was disturbed by... if Syud wrote in her book, 'Teja Aulia', you-know-who, i'll write, i-don't-know-who. he/she is using 016. ok. i'll use he since it's a general thing. i don't know it's a male or female. his first message was, "hi there!" and that time, i was waiting for SMS from anyone in the choir group i was in charge. without thinking much, i replied, "hi. anything i can help?" then, he replied my SMS. err... i realised that i shouldn't reply his message earlier. haha. i was very irrational that time. Vik asked me to call that number to know who. i refused. it's okay lah. since i don't want to make things more complicated. i realised something, usually, when i got message from unknown people, i will just straight away call the number. but... i tried to flashback... since when i'd changed my style? maybe after i'd changed my number. well, it's cheaper now to reply a message. =.=" continue the story, i added the number to my screened number list. haha. that number is the third. =.=" few days later, unintentionally i opened the screened message box. there're two messages from that number. the first was the same as before, "hi there!" the second was in Malay this time. and his words were typed in full spelling. hm. that's all for my introduction.

o yeah. i'm home. ^.^ arrived home at 6.30a.m. too late. i only got extra bus this time.

guess what, there're lots of durians in front of the door. oho. last evening, ayah went to the orchard again with ummi and Muhammad. Muhammad got his little boot-like PCK ones but blue in colour. ummi asked me too if i want to go to the orchard. but i didn't have the heart to go. furthermore, i was eating that time. ^^

life at the institute is very hectic for me. i don't know why. but that's what i feel. and actually i didn't do anything at all. now, again, i feel like i am strangled by something. i'm not in comfort now. all i can say, i feel the insecurity. there, i feel my academic performance is not good as well as my involvement in other activities. alhamdulillah, i'm still can think using my heart and mind. together. ^^

this semester also i had several conflicts. erh... the more we know about certain or particular thing, object.... i can't finish the line. heh. yada. i have something in my mind. i don't wanna write here. :P

last week, Shikh Nuruddin Al-Banjari Al-Makki came to the institute. yeah. it's very nice to have him at our place. i don't know what are the precise terms to be used here to describe about the day. but there's one significant thing in me. i miss my school. T.T we used to pray in jamaah in a hall. i used to have that 'good' feeling. i hope i will have another 'good' feeling at the institute. and yes, i'm the one who must strive to create that 'good' feeling. :)

i'd learned many things through out this third semester and people around me especially my roommates, classmates. alhamdulillah for giving me a working mind.

it's already august 8,2010. 11p.m. my friend and i will depart to Butterworth back.

hm.

o yeah. busyra! ramadhan is coming!

i received an SMS from my classmate at APIUM last year, Nurul Asma' binti Abu Bakar, the message was;
Salam! Nama sy Sya'ban! Sy ingin mengingatkn anda bhw jiran sy iaitu Ramadhan akn dtg mengunjungi anda x lama lagi bsama isterinya iaitu Rezki & kedua2 anaknya iaitu Sahur & Iftar! Mrk akn ditemani oleh ketiga2 cucunya iaitu Rahmat, Barakat & Keampunan... Mrk akn pulang slpas 30 hari dgn menaiki pesawat Eid airlines... Hargai mereka & Anda akn mndpt berkat! Insya Allah.
AHLAN WA SAHLAN YA RAMADHAN.

comel kan? cik diah and cik hada said so. :)

thus, let's greet ramadhan.

self, be strong. :)
we're here to have tests. ^^
and spread the rahmah worldwide. (",)
never give up for HIS hope. =]

all the best for all!

pst... i didn't broadcast my homecoming news this time. haha. just wanna be at home. :)

3rd update from penang; have a look.

2010-08-01T13:07:00.004+08:00

http://fc01.deviantart.net/fs71/f/2010/201/c/0/Because_he_is_a_muslim____by_Nayzak.swf

credit to k.ummu. :)

jaa.

2010-06-26T17:28:00.003+08:00

jaa ne.

am going back to my campus-hostel-life.

yet, don't wanna go there.

will you hit me on the road and give me MC for 1/2 weeks? anyone?

jaa.

badly missing them.

dr. crazerx, how're u?

miss 10, long time no IM.

mcDah, .... ^.^ hope u understand? ha.

miss farah nur hilwah a.k.a kakak, hope u're fine.

AO, NM, WNHWAR, AAs, SSZ, SSAZ(2) , hope we'll gather again!

ex-SRI's UPSR 2003, when we'll gather again?

wonder if they read this.

everyone at home, am sorry.

aiseyh. jaa.

home.

2010-06-09T14:46:00.003+08:00

i'm home.

yesterday, arrived KB at 4 a.m. i think it's too early.

seriously. i'm growing up. i have to grow up. yalah. semakin hari semakin tua. semakin hari semakin banyak tahu. maka, semakin hari mestilah semakin cerdik actionnya.

betullah, diam yang berfikir itu baik.

diam sejenak. berfikir banyak. mencari hikmah.

cuti 3 minggu. namun, malam ini akan ke shah alam untuk MISI. MISI dah mula 5 jun lagi. tapi aku ada perkara lain 5-7 Jun.

semalam birthdate Aya; Amalia Othman. tak wish lagi.

aku perlu lebih peka.

dan aku sedar sebelum bertindak, jadi pemerhati dulu. baca keadaan.

^.^

selamat bercuti kepada yang bercuti.

selamat meneruskan perjuangan menuntut ilmu bagi yang sudah mula sem.

will you help me?

2010-03-17T17:33:00.004+08:00

WARNING : only if you don't have any other important thing to do. ^.^

please listen to the nasheed below and catch the lyrics. :)

parts of the lyrics that i can catch are

Laa ilaaha illallah
Muhammadurrasulullah
'alaihi solatullah
wa alihi wal ahibba'

shine your mercy like the sun
and be gracious as the earth
let your kindness come
like rain care not whom it falls upon
and let ... ocean .....
....... in peace
....
be like al-habib
and in your deepest need
and in your deepest grief
call...... in humility
..........
to whom.....

...truth
be... peace
with the light of your sincerity
...cloud....
... be like a blessed tree
give your shades to all who seek
may your root...
take your strength from al-habib

ya nabi salam 'alaik
ya rasul salam 'alaik
ya habib salam 'alaik
solawatullah 'alaik

... tranquility
...
... comes
be patient....
someday you will return to Him

...company
of the....
through their...
and through your love for them
may...
...
...
let your heart and soul...
...

and stand before Allah
like nothing has exist....
and worship Him like you are seen
be with .... all creation
........

when you master all of this
forget not your .....ness
worried not for Allah's grace
none of this can be achieved
so be humble as the lonely earth
that all creatures walk upon
be a slave of the Most Merciful
take your light from al-habib

shine your mercy like the sun
send your light across the earth
let your kindness ................
................. who come
... mountain strong your spirit be
...... that leads to him
may you be with al-habib

thank you. :)

if you want to say, this entry should not be posted, then, just write in the comment box. :)

love like this.

2010-03-16T13:18:00.006+08:00

love like this by a band from Korea.

no need to search about the song, saham dapat saya sekali! :) the lyrics has nothing mufid. as well as the video clip. i only like to listen to the rentak. rancak~ (teringat orientasi tahun lepas)

love.

ukhuwah.

am just back from Nilam Puri. if u're one my blog reader since last year, u know what's there. who's there. what's the meaning of that place for me. :)

i went there by driving ummi's Kelisa. ^.^ alas, i drove there.

i only brought some curry-puffs. instant. fried by me. ~~according to the original plan~~ actually i want to bring something else. it's that. i'm just a mere planner. thus, i just rustle up curry-puffs.

there, went into my room. A215. my face is still on the wall at the door's left. although the room is lived by only two persons, still seems like four! :) full. i know that they use the room as the main place for gathering. haha.

met almost all the APIDS members. Aisyah, Adila, Hidayah, Athirah, Kauthar, Fatimah Dalilah, Basyirah and others. Asma bint Abu Bakar is the most havoc. she has improved her Kelantanese accent. haha.

the hostel is nearly empty because all of the seniors and others in other course already went back to their hometown. thus, only APIDS members left since they still have classes. mathematics. haha.

we talked. but Hidayah, Basyirah, Aisyah, Wani (if 'm not mistaken) have to go out. they go to clinic. another APIDS member, Ruqayyah is warded. she got problem with her ovum. syafahallah. and Kauthar has to go to JPN and buy ticket.

before i went home, i knocked Nisa''s, Hasinah's, Jie's and Sofiah's door. :) there're Aqidah, Syuhadah and Rabiatul Adawiyah.

i was thinking about my aim for making myself there, AMK along my way to home. why should i drive there today? why my feeling is not the same during i was about to leave them there?

quite empty. just like the hostel. not too contented.

but, i'm still praying.

that place, that room has taught me many things.

the place is the second place makes me appreciate people more.

the place taught me to show my gratitude.

share things with people around me.

taught me more about friendship.

how ukhuwah should be.

what sharing is about.

what does living together mean.

brought me out of my selfishness.

i keep reminding myself, our base is our aqidah.

talking about ukhuwah with others based on aqidah, it's kindly another muhasabah for me for my relationship in family. i have more responsibility towards my family.

i always type about the kindness at Nilam Puri, right?

not forgotten, my current institute has many loving people too. my roommates are caring too. well. i have many kind people around me. :)

thanks my roommates for giving me experience celebrating my birthday. :)

lalalala. i can't focus anymore on what i'm typing about.

i'd planned to meet Ftn Fth today. but, ummi said we're gonna have lunch at Nenek Atuk's place. :)

alhamdulillah.

*i think my blogging skill is worsen. lala. about 3 months didn't update at all. huh.

salah cutikah?

2010-03-15T01:35:00.003+08:00

cuti.

gembira.

boleh balik rumah.

pada masa sama, ada bahagian pada diri yang merosot.

pada mulanya, aku perasan aku seorang yang menghadapi masalah ini.

tapi tidak rupanya.

macam mana tu merosot?

seperti, ketika di kolej, kita sangat rajin pergi ke surau untuk berjemaah.

sangat senang untuk solat pada awal waktu.

namun, apabila pulang ketika cuti, sejauh mana usaha solat jema'ah.

sejauh mana awal waktu kita.

fenomena balik cuti, tido + makan + jalan2.

mungkin suasana di rumah itu yang mempengaruhi atau perspektif kita sendiri terhadap balik rumah.

maka,

aku cakap pada diri aku, aku yang menjadi AGEN YANG MERUBAH keadaan. (nak guna istilah dalam chemistry sebenarnya, tapi lupa. :D)

aku yang sepatutnya membina suasana. bukan suasana yang mempengaruhi aku.

wahh... post aku dah menjadi makin kurang isinya~

semoga ada manfaatnya. :)

pusing.

2010-03-13T10:14:00.002+08:00

salam.

hai blog.

dah lama tak update.

ketika diri berada di institut, selalu fikir nak update blog. blog ini juga blog cikgu ku itu...

namun, aku berbelah bagi...

kenapa aku perlu pisahkan blog itu dan blog ini?

dan sebenarnya aku menyembunyikan blog ini daripada kawan-kawan satu institut itu.

kenapakah?

ya. aku ada satu perasaan 'bimbang' itu.

dan saat ini, aku nekad.

aku tidak mahu sembunyikan blog ini lagi. kenapa perlu takut?

kenapa perlu bimbang?

ingatkan diri aku, tanggungjawab aku.

ingatkan diriku, tujuanku.

ingatkan diriku, sisi siapa lebih mulia.

ingatkan diriku.

banyak cerita mahu aku kongsi di sini juga di sana.

tahun ini... sudah hampir 3 bulan berlalu. baik masihi mahupun hijri.

baiklah. setakat ini sahaja dulu.

dan sebenarnya, ada lagi satu blog kat friendster yang aku agak memang selalu update.

*grin*

aku mintak maaf teman seinstitut kerana menyembunyikan blog ku. *lol*

___________________________________________________________________

Your Blogging Type Is Thoughtful and Considerate

You're a well liked, though underrated, blogger.

You have a heart of gold and are likely to blog for a cause.

You're a peaceful blogger - no drama for you!

A good listener and friend, you tend to leave thoughtful comments for others.

What's Your Blogging Personality?

Blogthings: Cheaper Than a Therapist

Your Blog Should Be Purple

You're an expressive, offbeat blogger who tends to write about anything and everything.

You tend to set blogging trends, and you're the most likely to write your own meme or survey.

You are a bit distant though. Your blog is all about you - not what anyone else has to say.

What Color Should Your Blog or Journal Be?

Blogthings: Cheaper Than a Therapist

____________________________________________________________________________________

underrated. hm. aku tak mahu tahu dah siapa jenguk blog aku. berapa orang jenguk blog aku. :D

kenapa purple? aku suka merah putih!

just one.

2009-12-06T22:55:00.006+08:00

only one task i've done lately. however, i've improved myself. i've read preface in the literature book. just the preface? i'd read several short stories indeed during previous semester. but, never read the preface before. i would like to share with you a sentence in the preface.

...: to expand students' appreciation of literature and to suggest the many possibilities for self-discovery that literature offers.

i remember mr. genga. my lecturer for 'English Studies'. this subject is about literature. ha. ha. jika dikenang saat bersamanya dalam kelas... kelakar! the first class, it's ok. i didn't fall asleep. second class... until the second month, i can't hold my eyes anymore! haha. the first time i fell asleep in his class, i apologized to him. the next next class? hurnm. i didn't apologize anymore. still, the guilt is hanging over my heart.

mr. genga always repeat this sentence, "literature teach you about humanity. how we deal with our life.. (bla3)..." something like that. ha. ha. thus, because of his sentence, i keep forcing myself to get 'possessed' in literature. haha. omo. i'm quite interested in literature.

o yeah. the task i've done is article writing. that's not part of my study in the institute. it's one of my commitment i've to commit with - the CARE. well. i chose to be there, so, i've to do whatever it comes. bla3. dah mula mengarut.
k.put asked me to read sirah. since i'm reading two books now, i want to finish those books first. then i will force myself to read sirah. insya Allah. am thinking about ayah's words. about two things. naah. i'm not going to tell about them here.

i didn't attend mc10's sister's reception. momo has gone to gombak. ahmad has gone to his hostel. i forgot that ahmad's break is not like others. i was hoping that he'll be around during my break! haha. why? it's joyful to have a talk with him. bla3. ye la tu. having a fight pun sangat la best! yiba'll seat for her PQS paper today in the ~~evening~~ afternoon. pray for her. also for other candidates.

i'm infected by yiba. playing fish isle on facebook. -.- crap. infected by momo too. playing jungle jewels.

these are the books building i mentioned in the previous post.

these files are my works. social studies, language development, language description, English studies, co-curricular. oh. so many of them!

these are the books i'd brought in my bag from the institute! they're very heavy ok? the green book is the book i'm talking about in the above paragraph.

this is the firs book i finished during this break. -.-

the second book khatamed by me. haha. i don't really understand this novel. it's more interesting than the novel above and below, but it's that. i don't really understand the message. yeah. it's in Indonesia Language~ the place setting is in Spain. Granada. Albacyin (lebih kurang macam nilah ejaan. x rajin nak gi check). the time setting is undefined. i will read it once again. maybe. aha.

this is the third novel. i finished it yesterday. -.- typical story by alaf21.

o yeah. there's another novel! haha. four novel i've finished? this is not an improvement!! empat novel yang dibaca secara lompat-lompat. haha. not interesting enough. andalusia's story above is interesting, but the problem is about the language.

ok. you should make a checklist. it's already three weeks. -.-"

c.a.r.e.

2009-12-04T19:37:00.004+08:00

c.a.r.e? C.A.R.E? c.a.r.e? C.A.R.E?

omo. it's a name of a non-government organization. urm. omo. why am i ~~tal~~ typing about this? my task about CARE is not finished yet. he. he. k.Muna assigned me the task. dush. it was last week. supposed to be sent by today (mengikut perkiraanku la). i had the references. but, it's very hard to say no to my pillow... my bed... to the narita... the blanket... ha. ha. it's hard to say no to those books too. i had built a building using the books i wanna read! haha. still, i read those on the rack apart of the building. i want to snap a picture, but i don't know where the camera is. and i'm reluctant too. ha.

about 4 days ago, chatted with maryam. just wanna know the meaning of jawa (or java?) sentence in her facebook. -.- i remembered echa, my quartersmate before, "napata kuriheng?" hehe. and asma'. "amit amit". then she asked to guess. i don't know the language. i failed. she 'denda' me to read do'a rabithah. the thing is, after that, i found a book at ayah's work area entitled "Syarah Do'a Rabithah" Saudaraku, Kuhadirkan Wajahmu dalam Do'aku by Muhammad Lili Nur Aulia. i don't finish reading this book yet. ^.^

samihah is gonna have the JPJ test on the same day with me. she's taking the test for second time. omo. i'm nervous. takut... a. ha.

apa lagi nak tulis weih?

hahaha. nak taip entri panjang-panjang la. why? sebab sidebar kat tepi tu lebih dari entri. jadi nak entri saksama panjangnya dengan sidebar! hahaha!

yesterday, i had edited the blogs i'm following. after delete there, add here, there're 100 blogs i'm following! terer ah.

i had edited the sidebar as well. can you see what have disappeared? few things. if you can guess the right things, i will give you... nak bagi apa? tak ada apa-apa.

hurnm. i have laughed many times here. ah... ops..

yesterday ummi was on via googletalk. ummi chatted with me. yes. ummi chatted with me. ha. i don't know what to ask to ummi. furthermore, she thought i was yiba. haha. yiba was on too using our elder sisters' old-thick-authentic acer. hahaha. laughing again. i should keep away from computer. since i don't know who should i chat with via YM. what are beneficial things i can do via facebook, friendster, blog? haha.

o yeah. about my previous ~~skill~~ (what the...?) school. the A.I.S.S. it has been a very long time too i don't visit it. i saw a picture in Anis's camera, there is a pavement (is it really pavement? the bricks... i don't know what is the real name is). ha. teachers park their cars there.

ok. i will ~~close~~ (--") end this entry with CARE information.

CARE ( Campus Environmentalist ) — adalah komuniti penggerak (aktivis) yang terdiri daripada mahasiswa/i IPT yang menumpukan kepada gerakkerja pendidikan, pemuliharaan dan pemeliharaan alam sekitar. Aktivis CARE akan membentuk satu keorganisasian yang mampu untuk mengupayakan diri dan masyarakat serta berkesedaran tinggi dalam konteks mengenalpasti masalah alam sekitar, mencari sumber dan punca masalah, bertindak dan memikirkan tindakan yang dirasakan wajar atas permasalahan atau isu yang timbul serta menyedarkan masyarakat luar tentang tanggungjawab bersama yang harus dimainkan bersama dalam usaha mencapai kehidupan yang sejahtera di atas planet bumi yang satu ini.
source : http://care[ai][pi][ti][bi].blogspot.com/

so long.

o yeah. it is two weeks already i'm home. i had cooked caramel pudding. i had cooked ntah-apa-apa-punya-ayam-and-beef. ha. ha. several days ago, i threw garlic, onion, into the kuali. followed by chicken (chopped), oyster sauce, ketchup (read: kicap), white and black pepper. it's delicious. he. he. today, i threw garlic, onion again into the vision. then, i threw the beef (chopped) and water. then, i put cabbages, serai, ginger, limau purut. hahaha. i put the serai, so that i can taste it's taste and smell it's scent. but i put it very sedikit. ha. (vocab teruk!) the ginger, i don't know why the heaven i put it. limau purut, for the taste and scent too. (ada ke guna word scent? --") and yiba ate a slice of limau purut!!

that's all.

so short. ;p

drive yourself.

2009-12-01T21:26:00.006+08:00

after a long time i left my driving class, and my driving trial at home-without a legal permission, last morning, i started to drive again! huh.
i was very nervous.
it had been about 6 months i didn't go to Kotaraya. if i crossed it with my family, i didn't recognize and realize that much. yes. i remember i was on the road with my dad during my sister - yiba's MRI (Majlis Restu Ilmu). maybe just that once until today.

after two persons, there you go, it's my turn! the two girls before me were born in the same year with me. ha. ha. my peers. they are having their semester break and continuing their driving class just like me. they are Sara and ... i didn't ask her name this one. Sara is a pre-teacher trainee just like me too again, ha. ha. but in Ampuan Afzan campus. she's in Social Studies. another girl is currently studying in UiTM Machang in banking. Sara is was also a student in ummi's school. ho. ho.

Sara's story was interesting. she had taken the JPJ test before she register either in UniKL or AFc. however she failed the test and has to repeat the test. that's the reason she was in the car with me. mean while, the other girl, i'll call her Kak Long since she's the first child, was finishing her final hour to be tested by JPJ. Sara told us her experience during her previous test. before the test, she was hoping to get a female examiner. her hope became true! but, not very considerate. ha. ha. today, she is hoping that she will get a kind-easy to make us pass the test!- examiner. Kak Long and me agreed.

about myself, as usual, after several minutes i sit in the car, my eyes got heavier... heavier... until i lost in my own world. the unconscious world! ha. ha. sleepyhead uh? i don't know.. i don't really know the exact reason for my sleeping habit in my teacher's car! i was fully sleep during the trip back to home. and cikgu asked, "kenapa selalu mengantuk?" i was not really awake that time. i just grinned and agreed to the time for the next class. then, i walked home.

oh yes. Kotaraya has changed a lot! less tree. less ~~seat~~ bench. more space for motorist circuit. ho. ho. i quite enjoy watching those motorists on the circuit.

what else? talked to two sisters. one is graduated from a university in Terengganu. the other one is a teacher in Sarawak. ha. ha. the one who is a teacher told us her story in Sarawak. about how did she get the pose in Sarawak and she get married early. she has been teaching in Sarawak for two years. she's just 23 year-old. well, now i know that i can choose the place for posting. from the sister's story, if i don't really want to be there, either Sabah or Sarawak, please don't ask for it! kui.

omo. today, Aya has moved to KL with her family. when i rewind my memories with my friends, i feel like, how can they, now, just playing in the mind? just in the virtual mind? now, we are splashed into various places in the country and world. in the North part of Malaysia. West. Egypt. Jordan. hu. hu.
and, am very grateful to internet. ha. for making us possible to keep in touch. though, with this internet we do not keep in touch that much. still, we know. we have a better 'talian hayat'. it is du'a. the prayer. we still can keep in touch through our prayers. so, Always Say A Prayer!

currently reading three books. my reading interest has been decreasing nowadays.
this disease is dangerous. i'm rewatering my desire in reading back. yes. i'm trying my best. all the best!

okeh.

pen off.

marah.

2009-11-29T08:06:00.002+08:00

dalam penghujung salah satu entri + satu entri lepas aku pernah sebutkan pasal marah.

sudah lama aku tak marah... means, nak meletup-letup kat orang lain.

ketika di kampus, selalu je ada marah tu. tapi, marah yang meletup dah lama tak. sekarang ni, marah meletup tu, dah lama tak meletup di luar rumah.

tapi, aku pelik, balik rumah, senang je pulak marah meletup tu nak kebaboom!

aku tanya diri sendiri, kenapa?

hairannya diriku. padahal rumah itulah yang di sakit-sakitkan nak balik. sanggup tanggung tambang prebet individually sebab nak balik.

baru terlintas tadi, "masuk rumah bagi salam tak?"

itulah antara kepentingan bagi salam. beradab tu mesti.

setiap kali suara yang keluar dari kerongkong ni melebihi satu oktaf, hati sebenarnya mengigil melawan marah. marah itu melawan fitrahku yang baik!

aku tak suka tengok wajah adikku 'Ali dan Muhammad ketika kena jerit dengan kakaknya ini. terutamanya 'Ali. besar impaknya dalam kehidupannya nanti.

dua tiga hari lepas, Ahmad meluahkan rasanya ketika kemarahan kepada 'Ali itu berpunca daripada aku sehingga empangan air matanya pecah lagi sekali.

sungguh, aku tak suka marah.

aku kasihan tengok 'Ali. aku tak suka marah. aku tak suka tinggi-tinggikan suara.

teringat peristiwa-peristiwa marah adik-adik yang lalu, geram. ya. berdosa.

terngiang-ngiang kata ummi. ummi yang bersusah payah bawak kami semua dalam kandungannya. siapa aku untuk marah mereka?

jadi, walaupun marah. kena fikir, aku ni siapa? kenapa aku marah? perlu ke?

marah pada bukan tempatnya tu zalim jugak.

tapi ada lagi satu marah yang aku tak faham. entri lain, insya Allah aku cerita.

cuti tinggal lagi 5 minggu! pergi sentuh coursework la!

cermin duniawi.

2009-11-28T00:52:00.002+08:00

cermin duniawi - firdaus ft. tomok. (got this thru doc ummu's blog. ^-^)

hari ini, genap seminggu sudah diriku berada dirumah.

genap seminggu juga ummi dan si Aman itu bermusafir nun di barat dunia.

seminggu berada dirumah, terasa seperti tidak ada apa-apa. (BAHAYA)

balik rumah, dugaan paling besar, tempat tidur best. ~~[bukan ke aku ni kat mana-mana boleh tidur ke? -.-"]~~ tambah lagi kena dengan musim hibernasi ini. pencahayaan rumah juga menjadi sangat malap! -.- alasan semata. huhu. namun, itulah dugaanku yang sangat mencabar! percayalah! (tak boleh blah)

berfikir-fikir pasal fenomena cuti-balik-tido-makan ni, teringat kata-kata seorang pensyarah masa kem sukan dan rekreasi yang baru seminggu berlalu. dia komen kitorang pasal kitorang... kitorang = aku dan rakan-rakan sekelas. he. kitorang ni tak fit katanya. agak la. huhu. dia sebut mungkin sebab habit dari sekolah jugak kot. tambah-tambah sekolah asrama. macam ayam ternak. kat sekolah belajar, belajar, belajar. sampai masa makan, makan. dan seterusnya rutin pelajar hari ini. apabila cuti, balik je, tido. hu. itulah gaya hidup tidak sihat. inside me, aku agak denial la. sebab aku bukan pelajar tinggal di asrama. :P he. he. jadi, pensyarah tersebut telah menasihati kami agar mengamalkan budaya hidup sihat ketika cuti. ^-^

*imbas kembali kehidupan di kampus itu sekejap*

inhale...

teringat... pasal couple. ha. ha. aku kena kejutan! kejutan apa?

semua orang keluar dating. ramai orang tiap-tiap minggu outing untuk jumpa pak we-mak we.

ramai yang outing tengok wayang. keluar sama-sama lelaki perempuan. well. zahirnya nampak tak salah. dan pendapat aku,... entah. tak reti nak cakap macam mana. pernah hampir menyertai kawan-kawan. hu. alhamdulillah aku canceled.

teringat lagi....

nak taip lagi. tapi, dah mengantuk lah!

maka, saya beransur dahulu.

pelajaran hari ni : korbankan kepentinganmu jika benar ingin bermanfaat untuk orang lain!

a pink letter. (2)

2009-11-23T18:43:00.005+08:00

in the name of Allah, the Most Gracious and Merciful.

i promised to continue the story about the pink letter a k a summons letter before. so, let's continue about it.
oh yes. before that, i better check my planner. :D

it was 28th of october 2009, wednesday.

now i remember, this day was the busiest day! hectic!

two big events for me. social studies was on this day. i was not aware about the date! very guilty to my teammate. at night, i had tae kwon do ceremony. for the second time, i got yellow belt.

about the pink letter... i broke the rules. my friends and i. haha.

on the same day, wednesday, 28th october 2009, there was a spot check. it was done by the chief warden and his 'konco-konco'. i didn't realize about it. it's just, when i arrived my level, my roommate told me, "our heater was taken...." haha.

they (chief warden and the 'konco-konco') took my level mates' iron, water heaters/kettles, hairdryers. however, some of us were lucky because certain things didn't disappear. he. for example, my room, they took our heater but not the iron.

my friends and i received the pink letter, if i'm not mistaken, on friday. 30th of october 2009. i received mine in the noon. i was sleeping in my friend's room. it was a tiring day too. in that week, my classmates and i was on the highest peak of stress.

after received the pink letter, we had to write a letter. a letter to back up ourselves, perhaps. haha. explanation letter. we typed the letters. we supported ourselves with various reasons. ha. at the same time, we admitted our mistakes. :D

we submitted the letters to the chief warden ourselves. i went to his department with my roommate. my reasons for breaking the rules were :
'pihak tuan tidak menyediakan kemudahan-kemudahan itu.
tidak diperingatkan mengenai peraturan'

then, i doubted about the spot check.
'aras lain, blok lain tidak dijalankan spot check.'

the chief warden replied me about my doubt.

"awak pernah tengok road block?" i nodded.

"ada orang pernah marah JPJ buat road block?" i shook my head. with a smile.

"ada tak orang persoalkan, kenapa tak buat road block kat jalan .. bla3.. ramai lagi buat kesalahan... ada?" i shook my head. ehe.

could you write the values we can take? :)

may Allah bless!

a pink letter.

2009-11-08T07:23:00.003+08:00

haha. a pink letter is not an imagery for a healthy condition. it is a 'surat saman'!!

wanna know more?

just wait. to be continue next two weeks. insya Allah.

the moral values : be obedient. :)

too many stories to share? hm?

ok. gotta go. bukit mertajam is waiting for me!

2nd update from penang

2009-10-18T23:11:00.004+08:00

hahaha.
dah delete post "see you".
kenapa ek?
entah.
sedang sakit rumah. kind of stress about something that i shouldn't take port. :P
serve me right uh?

sedang sakit rumah.
hampeh.
insya Allah by hook or by crook, i'll be home in the early of november before the school holidays.
heh. dah dekat dengan cuti sekolah, tak ke membazir?
tak peduli. hari aku last ada kelas, ummi dah nak fly. no. way.
nak jumpa ummi dulu.

tu la. deepavali tak nak balik. kedekut sangat.
bukan kedekutlah. harga tak sama... kedekut la tu! -.-"

semalam berliqa' dengan akak-akak medic lagi. haha.
k.Put fetch me by her blue myVii. hurnm. second time pergi sungai Petani.
2 weeks ago dah pergi SP, tapi yang tu open house je.
kali ni duduk, sambung muqaddimah zilal lagi.

on the way pergi SP, yeah,aku tak tido lagi! :D
kesian k. Put ketika first time ke SP 2 minggu lepas. aku tidur. dah la k. Tiha pun tak ada.
k.Put drive sorang-sorang. nge~

on the way ke SP, k.Put bukak cerita analogi-analogi. sebab last week, k.Put berprogram bersama ustaz Salam.

antara analogi-analogi yang dibangkitkan, nila, orang lemas, pastu kandang-kandang manusia biasa, manusia da'ie, manusia ekstreme. hurnm.
3 analogi disitu. dan sehingga saat ini, aku masih gagal melakukannya! argh!

rindu. rindu. sakit rumah. sakit rumah. kuang3.

again, am asking myself, adakah karat-karat itu betul aku hapuskannya atau aku sedang menambahkan pengoksidaannya?

kredit untuk : miss ain syuhada dan miss zati bayani

add notes : tadi berjalan-jalan di 'jalan matahari' (sila translate ke bahasa inggeris.) kui3.

nota tambah lagi : bahasa aku dalam blog ni semakin rosak nampaknya. kerja-kerja institut semakin banyak!

an update from penang.

2009-09-08T22:54:00.004+08:00

terima kasih kepada classmateku liza.

untuk subjek teknologi maklumat,

aku kena create a blog!

dush~ takkan ku berikan link blog ini!! (maksud aku untuk projek teknologi maklumat tu.)

kuang3.

so, i've created another one using the same account!

wanna have a look?

here, http://teachergonnabe.blogspot.com/

rasa agak poyo dengan url link itu.

tapi tak mengapalah.

nanti balik raya, insya Allah aku make up kan blog itu.

haha.

so, theme for that blog is my journey in this institute.

^.^

10 terakhir ramadhan sudah tiba.

urm.

checklist!

ok.

see ya.

kenang aku dalam do'a korang!

nak balik!!

ALL THE BEST FOR THIS RAMADHAN.

bleuss.

2009-08-25T16:57:00.004+08:00

cakap telefon dengan ayah, memang selalu cair.

dapat bersama-sama ummi dalam satu hari memang menenangkan.

dapat panggilan daripada momo, lidah kelu. suara jadi nyaring. excited tak terkata.

dapat SMS daripada lala, jari kaku. kenapa lala? gumbira dia habiskan kredit untuk aku.

tengok warkah kiri yummy, mata sayu. jiwa seakan dipam-pam oleh angin! berkembang. membesar!

dengar suara yiba, dapat SMS dari aman, diorang ingat lagi aku rupanya.

first time dapat panggilan malu-malu dari muhammad, aku tengah program. maaf ya dik!

'ali junaid, as loud as always.

ahmad? adikku ganti aku ubah susun atur rumah! tingkat atas...

balik, jangan harap sangat nak mengarang sangat. kerja sekolah maksud aku.
tak tenang tengok bilik aku tinggalkan untuk yiba itu.

konklusi :
yummy, rajin-rajin nukilkan warkah untuk aku!

lala, send me message tho no replies at all!

momo, just call me! but don't at morning, afternoon and evening.

ok. gotta go!

yummy.

2009-08-25T08:55:00.003+08:00

am waiting for yummy neechan to appear online in my YM. -.-

ramadhan. madrasah tarbiyah sinonimnya.
ramadhan. bulan berkat, bulan rahmat, bulan keampunan.
ramadhan. bulan paling banyak tawarannya.

aku mesti RAJIN. aku mesti BERUSAHA!
build my PASSION, my DESIRE in what i'm doing now.

kerja yang aku senaraikan sudah terusik.
tapi progres nya sangat perlahan!

sejauh manakah sayonara aku kepada jahiliyah?

pendek + tag cik arina = panjang.

2009-08-23T23:11:00.004+08:00

ramadhan dah datang. selamat kepada semua.

insya Allah sedang berada di rumah dan akan berada di rumah untuk lagi tiga hari.

ada dua short coursework assignment.

ada banyak essay kena buat untuk Social Studies. tambah slides.

akan berada di Putrajaya untuk tiga hari. -.-"

2 september giliran kelas memasak untuk iftar!

baru sedar diri asyik mengigau. -.-. dan ianya mengerikan bila mendengar cerita dari kawan-kawan.
ngeri dengan diri sendiri?

rasa makin terumbang-ambing.
rasa dengki dengan kawan-kawan ada program.

aku punya kakak-kakak yang hebat.
tak ada naqibah pun, boleh buat liqa' sendiri.
aku punya akhawat yang hebat.
tak ada orang yang biasa buat circle, mereka boleh adakan!
aku?

aku patut luangkan masa untuk diri sendiri. rather than internet, books, etc.

ek?

hari pertama puasa di Bukit Mertajam. berbuka di Butterworth. melanggar peraturan surau.
^^

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cik arina,
terima kasih pokok celagi,
lain kali tak mau lagi! :P

Put your iTunes, Windows Media Player, etc. on shuffle.
For each question, press the next button to get your answer.
YOU MUST WRITE THAT SONG NAME NO MATTER HOW SILLY IT SOUNDS.
Tag 10 17 friends.
Everyone tagged has to do the same thing.
Have fun.

If someone says ‘Are you okay’ you say?
playing - ya rayah
How would you describe yourself?
playing - dunia baru islam
What do you like in a guy/girl?
playing - berkorban apa saja
How do you feel today?
playing - we will not go down
What is your life’s purpose?
playing - flowers are red
What’s your motto?
playing - sang eo reul sa rang han in eo
What do your friends think about you?
playing - anata dake mitsumeteru
What do your parents think about you?
playing - kasih sejarak dua jari
What do you think about very often?
playing - futatsu no kodou to akai tsumi
What is 2 + 2?
playing - my mum is amazing!
What do you think of your best friend?
playing - *unknown japan song*
What is your life story?
playing - hikmah kembara
What do you want to be when you grow up?
playing - forgive me when i whine
What do you think when you see the person you like?
playing - gee
What will you dance to at your wedding?
playing - sohniye
What will they play at your funeral?
playing - cinta pertama
What is your hobby / interest?
playing - looking glass
What is your biggest fear?
playing - baitul maqdis
What is your biggest secret?
playing - kalimatan
What do you want right now?
playing - free.
What do you think of your friends?
playing - sebelum terlena
What will you post this as?
playing - wahai pemuda islam.

rasa yang terindah.

2009-08-03T16:08:00.005+08:00

rasa yang terindah? apakah?!!
sebahagian lirik dari keheningan malam - hijjaz.

*aii... rasa cam nak taip lirik aje!!! tidak~*

ok. pertama sekali, aku dah lama tak plug in aku punya charger.

ya. bateri dah nyala kaler kuning sebelum merah. dalam tempoh masa dua bulan lepas,
aku selalu pesan kat adik-adik form four dan form five pasal charger. tajdiid niyah.

*falling away berdendang*

apa yang berlaku hari ini, kerana apa yang telah berlaku semalam. omo... rentetan peristiwa semalam.

apa yang berlaku.. yang sudah, sedang dan akan, semua itu dengan izin Allah s.w.t. itu mesti yakin!
err.. habis, kenapa aku elak lembu? dush~~

tadi, pergi bandar. seorang diri. sesungguhnya aku tak suka pergi beli apa-apa pun seorang diri. he.

aku pergi sana dengan menaiki bas awam. aku sungguh suka bas awam! sebab murah. dan di negeriku ini, bas memang berpendingin hawa.
sebaik sahaja bas berhenti di destinasi yang tuju, *apsal terdengar2 lagu destinasi siti nurhaliza ni?*
aku seperti lipas kudung aku turun daripada bas. keluar dari abdomen bas.

tiba-tiba, seorang kanak-kanak lelaki menyekat aku dari meneruskan langkahku yang laju dan kalut.
aku berpaling melihat wajahnya.

suaranya, "minta derma..." sambil menunjukkan senaskhah yaasin.

aku, menyelongkar poket kiri overallku, bersuara, "sekolah lagi?" *aku lupa dia angguk ke tidak*
jariku sudah mencapai objektif dalam poket. objektif tersebut bertukar tangan.
aku menggosok bahu kirinya dan suaraku, "belajar rajin-rajin."

aku meneruskan langkahku yang laju dan kalut tadi.
aku juga tertanya sendiri, kenapa soalan itu aku ajukan? kenapa ayat itu yang keluar?
wajah budak itu terlakar diminda.
bersilih ganti dengan wajah Ali dan Muhammad. 'aini kabur.

akhir sekali, my assignments aren't finished yet!!!

august 2009.

aug 2nd - D.O.B azim sekolah rendah
aug 3rd - D.O.B nadia sekolah rendah (tersilap wish semalam. )
aug 4th - D.O.B ihsan classmate f1-f3
aug 5th - patutnya tarikh test dengan JPJ!!!
aug 6th - momo neechans! and encik faiz...kan? ho. ho.
aug 7th - mehyra and doc hanif + tarikh penceraian malaysia dengan singapura.
aug 13th - zaki classmate f1-f5.
aug 15th - izni 'aqilah a.k.a eznehyung!
aug 16th - fatin amirah classmate sekarang.
aug 21st - ROQ. siti's anniversary.
aug 22nd-aug31st - CUTI!!!!
ramadhan 3rd - ahmad ibrahim.
aug 25th - azeem and izzat.
aug 31st - piJah. ^-^

oh. my management week story. ehhem. management week is orientation week at my institute.
yes, it was in the first week we're there.
most activities were indoor ; in the hall.
i was anxious. i was nervous. i was afraid. haha. why?
the main reason is, there, we're in formal attire. uh. i'm not that formal.
however, to not be a troublemaker nor rules breaker nor find troubles, i followed all the instructions i read in the offer letter. i left my sneakers in its box. i wore the black shoes i'd worn on the interview day. i wore kurung baju. i wore black socks. no colourful. no more white scarf. i wore the scarf that match my baju's colour. i registered myself by myself. haha.
the academy before, i left all the things to ayah. yes, i'm a dependent person. i realized that this time.

along the management week, we're given 2 chalks each person as "barang amanah". mine fell and broke on the second night. whoever broke the chalks were given other thing. we got bricks!
on the fourth day, they 'lighten' our burden. they gave us "biskut mayat".
everynight we're 'tortured' except the third night.
the fourth night, they 'tortured' us again. i ain't . just fed-up , i might say.
the climax was here. hahaha! there're seniors who acted as freshies. it was like this.
as usual, before we return to our room, we've an 'assembly'. the fourth night, they-seniors who managed to arrange our orientation week-announced that a handphone lost. err... had been stolen by someone. they shouted to us. "baru hari ke berapa dah mencuri... bla3.. bla3..."
then, the so-called victim stand in front of us. after several minutes... maybe 30 minutes, a person admitted. the 'pesalah' was brought to police station... (kononnya.) by a car.
at the same time, there's a name list. the names in the list 'kononnya' blacklisted. a brother called those names.
diorang pun tensenkan kitorang. bla3.. bla3... nak maafkan ke diorang yang dah buat salah ni...
bla3... kitorang pulak bangunlah beramai-ramai nak bela kawan kitorang. diorang bidas balik... mane korang percaya? baru berapa hari duduk sekali...
then semua kena duduk. kecuali yang bersalah tadi.
lepas tu, kereta tadi balik kembali. yang mencuri itu pun keluar. tak lama, kitorang diarahkan pejam mata. semua. sekali.
kedengaran, "happy birthday to you! happy birthday to you! ...."
"bukak mata! bukak mata!"
my eyes were blurr. he.
one of the brothers said, "salahkan kawan-kawan korang. sape suruh lahir minggu ni... hahaha!"
ade ke?
nama-nama yang kena panggil tu rupanya birthday boys and girls.
barisan pelakon diperkenalkan. pelakon wanita tak ada rasanya.
segalanya yang diorang-seniors- telah lakukan sepanjang minggu itu adalah lakonan semata-mata.
except certain parts. hu. hu.
am telling you, this is my first orientation week ever in my life. hu. hu.
that's all.

ehm. kali ni memang sya'aban sudah muncul. rejab sudah berlalu. ramadhan sedang datang.
rejab has gone. sya'aban is here. ramadhan is coming soon!

semoga dapat manfaat.

self, pergi siapkan kerja sekolah!

ai. ai.

rindukan chargerku.

i'm home.

2009-07-31T21:12:00.002+08:00

there's no other word i can say. it's just, i'm home! ha. ha.
i'm home not because i'm homesick.
i'm here because the institute where i'm studying give me a break for a week.
yes, i just can stay there. however, everyone is moving out!
lecturers, wardens and others are moving out, they say.
also the caterers at the canteen. what would i eat? ho.
my quarters-mates also went home.
ehm.
yesterday, after the announcement about this break was announced, everybody packed their things and went to Butterworth. everyone called their contacts to get tickets!
i went to the bus terminal with 3 friends - k.wanis, farah and norlida.
when we arrived there, we, quickly went to ticket counter. we're lucky. so, we headed to a stall.
well, the owner of the stall is from the same state with us.
after maghrib, i could see most of people at the terminal are my institute-mate. from my batch, seniors.
one word describes my feelings : frustrated. smokers, couples. hu. hu.
apa peranan aku? and it's not just that. i'm surprised that certain people that is respected at the college is just the same with others outside the college. T.T
checklist.
ok, next story, orientation or management week!

i was wearing mask along my trip to my hometown.

karma.

2009-07-11T14:36:00.000+08:00

peace be upon you.

analogi aku... urm. analogi tu pengibaratan kan?
aku nak ajak kita-kita semua renungkan satu keadaan.
omo... aku joined plurk. well, plurk ni, semakin kita aktif, semakin kita punya ramai kawan dan fans, karma itu akan naik dan terus naik. walaubagaimanapun, kalau kita punya plurk tu flooding, karma itu akan turun. bila kita tak on plurk untuk beberapa hari, karma juga akan turun. kecuali, bagi mereka yang freezekan karma diorang.
main game, semakin kita menang, semakin banyak score kita.
main brute, ada tiga benda kena kumpul. victory, kelajuan dan entah apa dia. cara nak kumpul? kena ajak orang lain join, kena menang banyak kali, dan lain-lain cara lagi.
bayangkan, score yang kita dapat tu, karma yang kita kumpul tu, adalah pahala. bagaimana?
muhasabah.
lagi. ikut plurk, karma boleh difreezekan.BESTnyakan, andai iman dan pahala tu boleh freeze? bila rasa down je, iman boleh freeze. mesti seronok. kasihan la syaitan dan nafsu.
:) itu aje yang aku nak ajak kita fikir.

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barang, dah separuh dah dikemas. ada lagi separuh belum settle.
hijrah ini, bukan untuk diri sendiri semata.
hijrah ini, ada sebabnya.
hijrah ini, bermatlamat.
ada paksinya.
semoga nyalaan semangat itu tidak pernah padam, walau dihembus angin, ditabur pasir.

ignorance is not bliss. in MY opinion.
betapa tidak peduli aku selama sebulan, aku tak tahu apa sedang terjadi.
isu murtad yang menggila. isu hijab yang sudah pada kemuncak.
kamu tahu mengenai Marwa al Sherbini?
sudahkah sedar mengenai kes Natrah?
michael jackson semua tahu.
kisah 'orang puaka', pun semua tahu.
pemergian Fathi Yakan?
oh duniaku! ~~yang menyempit.~~
ignorance is not bliss. i'm not that pure. i'm still not free from black dots in and on the heart.

hu. hu. bila aku menulis begini, aku tidak reti menyatakan sesuatu kenyataan. ^-^

masih ada waktu.

selamat jalan. ^-^

semalam, ibu saudaraku, mak ngah sudah kembali.
30 Jun 2009 lalu, moyangku Tok Wan yang pernah aku ceritakan.

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ada lagi satu benda. makanan ruji kita, umumnya nasi kan?
omo... sedap tak kalau makan nasi sahaja?
mesti nak tambah laukkan? sayur ke... budu ke... cencaluk ke... sambal belacan ke... tempoyak ke...
baru sedap!
begitu juga makanan rohani kita. kena ada tambahannya juga. ;)

ok. semoga entri ini ada manfaatnya untuk semua.

overall.

2009-07-09T18:26:00.005+08:00

majmu'ah 10 yang wujud selepas kedatangan pelajar ambilan kedua.
kumpulan ni seramai 32 orang. entri yang lepas tu, tersilap taip 33. 32 sebenarnya.
dan sememangnya, pelajar lelaki adalah minoriti. kumpulan aku, 10 orang sahaja lelaki.
12 orang dari kumpulan aku, pada awalnya menunggu keputusan temuduga IPGM.
2 orang dari lelaki dan 10 orang dari perempuan.
selepas mendapat keputusan, pada 26 Jun tu, 2 orang dari golongan aku, tak dapat.
10 lagi semuanya dapat. rata-ratanya dapat di Kedah-sorang, Selangor, Terengganu, Kelantan-sorang dan Pulau Pinang-sorang.
tahu dapat IPGM tu, hari Jumaat.
pelajar perempuan majmu'ah aku, separuh pergi jalan-jalan. ke pantai. aku, room mates aku, beberapa lagi tak ikut sebab parents tak bagi. aku, ummi tak bagi. ayah bagi. ^-^
petang Jumaat tu, kitorang ada perlawanan tarik tali. majmu'ah untuk APIDS, ada 2 sahaja. untuk kos lain-lain (syari'ah, pengajian islam, usul) ada 8. sem 3 pula, pelajar APIDS tak ada. sebab mereka sudah ke PASUM. majmu'ah 1-8 gabung dengan senior masing-masing. APIDS majmu'ah 9 & 10 digabungkan.
untuk pertama kalinya, aku sertai tarik tali. talinya besar, macam nak tambat gajah. he.
seriously, tarik tali adalah satu perang saraf. secara umumnya, apa permainan pun melibatkan emosi dan mental serta fizikal. tapi, tarik tali ni, mental + emosi tu, agak la. tak tau la kalau memang sebab aku dah tak stabil masa tu. ha. ha. ha.
hari Khamis sebelumnya, perlawanan bola jaring. aku. suka! aku jadi C. (ini kali ke berapa aku beritahu kat sini?) puas hati walaupun tak menang pada perlawanan kedua kami. ^-^
dalam masa seminggu, majmu'ah aku mula berkurangan orang.
omo.... ahli majmu'ah aku, kebanyakannya tinggal di blok A. ha.ha.ha. dan bilik aku, agak la jadi tempat berkumpul. sebab bilik aku, semuanya sem 1. semuanya APIDS, majmu'ah 10. huhu. antara pelawat setia, Hidayah-Selangor, Athirah tu, Najwa-Perlis, Sofiah-Kedah, Kauthar-Perak dan Liyana-Selangor.
urm. cerita aku sudah berterabur. huhu. you can call it anything but lucid. ^.^
ok. aku senaraikan nama ahli majmu'ah jap. yang italic tu, dah keluar.
aku-Sufiyyah, Huda, Aisyah, Adila, Hidayah, Liyana Athirah, Atirah, Liyana, Hasinah, Suriani, Nisa, Kauthar, Najwa, Asma, Najihah, Hafizah, Ghaziah, Hafzaliza, Farahwaheeda, Farawahida, Sofiah dan Nadiah. korang best! aku sayang korang!
huhu. rakan-rakan APIDS, tarik tali best! tarik tali yang mengukuhkan kita~ huhu. simboliknya tali itu.
otak aku dah berterabur nak berhikayat pasal kehidupan aku kat tempat itu selama 8 Jun 2009 - 8 Julai 2009. =)
aku dah rindu diorang. diorang dah rindu aku. live on.
harap rindu ni berterusan.
rindu ini ada asasnya.
jiwang tak? huhu.

dan, diriku, hargai masa dirumah yang beberapa hari ini.

analogi yang aku sebutkan hari tu, tengoklah. analogi apa je pun. yang mungkin orang dah tau dan amalkan. :D

weird0 iN typicaL waY

perhaps, a good ending caused a better start (part two)

WW4

perhaps, a good ending caused a better start (part one)

bosan?

saya pengiring.

WW3

life is a test

frolic.

WW2

review.

infeksi.

Erti Persahabatan Ini

Brothers - Selamanya

Sahabat Sejati

103.

Itu dulu. Nak katanya : JAGA IKHTILAT terutama bila sesuatu "mengerumuni" hati. - k.'aisyah amaran, 2011.

hope.

WW1

can't smile.

R 1432.

hidup

listen.

a human being inside you and me a human being who has a dream and an aim a human being who loves and never hates a human being who has hope for a better tomorrow INSAAN (Hamza Namira)

oh.

few hours left.

ahlan bina?

berjiwa besar

bulan Jun.

patience

beneficial.

melawan arus.

the hard rock ride.

photos.

i never quit being a muslimah

buat sahabat dunia maya.

karma.

give and have.

half our deen.

jalan2 ke selatan thailand.

log hari ni.

meraputipu.

ayam makan ayam.

lari.

next time.

Sahabat Perjuangan

secrets.

it's gonna end.

am sulking.

tadaima.

hi there.

3rd update from penang; have a look.

jaa.

home.

will you help me?

love like this.

salah cutikah?

pusing.

just one.

c.a.r.e.

drive yourself.

marah.

cermin duniawi.

a pink letter. (2)

a pink letter.

2nd update from penang

an update from penang.

bleuss.

yummy.

pendek + tag cik arina = panjang.

rasa yang terindah.

i'm home.

karma.

overall.

a human being inside you and me
a human being who has a dream and an aim
a human being who loves and never hates
a human being who has hope for a better tomorrow
INSAAN (Hamza Namira)