Thanks bang tere liye!

Ketika orang miskin dan lemah sakit hati,

Mereka hanya terduduk menangis tidak berdaya.

Ketika orang2 kaya dan kuat sakit hati,

Mereka bisa menghancurkan seluruh sistem.

Tapi jangan bersedih, karena ada sebuah rahasia kecil terbaik dalam sakit hati ini.

Yaitu ketika orang2 baik sakit hati, maka mereka akan menyiapkan rencana baru, mencari cara lain, semakin teguh berjuang, semakin tulus berusaha.

Kita selalu bisa memilih jenis yang mana.

Sajak Ketika Sakit Hati

- Tere Liye

September 26, 2014 at 9:50am on Facebook :)

unfriend.

i once unfriend people on Facebook. heh.

then, of course i add them back because they are my beloved of my heart.

it was just that i did not know when i blocked them on FB, after i removed them from the block list, i would be unfriend them automatically.

indeed, to add them back in the list was the hardest thing to be done.

it's between ego and doing the right things.

well. experiencing worst argument in life, taught me to know myself.

yes. i didn't think much while i was clicking on the 'block' word on FB.

later, after apologized and being able to rationalize things and also identified my faults too, shamelessly, i did not only re-add, i also told the person face-to-face.

and shamelessly, i wrote this history here.

and, to have spacious heart and soul really need to be tough. =D

and, i do think, life is not about blaming others. life is about how we survive.

oh. it's zulhijjah already!

yeay! two days left to go home for three days! ~_~

random no. 13 - pre-ramadhan version

88. father.

what happened to my classmate was that, he didn't have the opportunity to meet his father for the last time before the funeral. my friends and i learnt to prioritise our parents more than our own wants in life, whatever it is. (e.g.: we wanted to be posted far from our hometown which would not be in Peninsular of Malaysia, but our parents did not allow us to fill the states in the application form.)

before that sad event, i shared something about father's presence on Facebook. what had happened was, a sister who no longer has a father alive commented on the post. again, i learnt to not really share anything on Facebook blindly.

this year, one of my task in my happy circle was to deliver tazkirah. i chose hadith about orphans in Al-Adab. it was because that time, i came across quite number of students who no longer have a father. and i learnt that orphans; the real definition of anak yatim is for those who've lost the father who used to support the family. the leader of the family.

ummi, ayah, i hope to see you both again before this Ramadhan ends.

and i'll leave ummi ayah under Allah's guardianship just like you both leave me here in His guardianship since five years ago.


89. silaturrahim.

silaturrahim. one of the ways to preserve the tie is to do good towards everyone without hoping for a reply for the deeds. what i meant is hoping for them to do good back to us. ^_^

and, remember that, Allah hate people who cut off the tie. may Allah guide us through and through and guard us from His anger.


90. was not really prepared for Ramadhan this year. am adapting Ramadhan mood.

may Allah bless, people.


91.  So Real by Raef ft. Maher Zain.

Lyrics: Raef, Maher Zain & Bara Kherigi
Melody & Arrangement: Maher Zain
Director: Ross Ching
Producer: Don Le
Actress: Bushra Maghrabi
Dop: Gabriel Lewis
1st AD: Jon Crawford
1st AC: Michael Skor
2nd AC / DIT: Andy Chen
Gaffer: David Lassiter 
Key Grip: Raul Rivera 
Best Boy Electric: Chad Nagel
Best Boy Grip: Gabe Verdesoto
Dolly Grip for Slider: Spencer Smith
Art Director: Erin Riegel
Sand Castle Builder: Greg & Kathy Lebon / Archisand Professional Sand Sculptors, Inc
(http://www.socalsandcastles.com)
Stylist: Angelica Lee
Makeup/Hair: Eva Cortez
Key PA: Justin Vancho
PA: Sam Puefua
BTS Photo / Video: Steven Lam
Special Thanks: Line 204

So Real - Lyrics:

They say that love never lasts
That love never lives to see another day
But what I know deep down inside
It's what I feel and it's so real
I gave it up all for You
And there ain't nothing that I won't do
All I know deep down inside
It's what I feel and it's so real with You!

Chorus:
Allah, everyday I'll try to be as true as I can to You
'Cause loving You the best I can
Will always be my number one and only plan
Yes everyday I'll try to be as true as I can to You
'Cause loving You the best I can
Will always be my number one and only plan

They say: "You're out of your mind"
"Don't you know that love fades away?"
They say: "It only brings you pain!"
But what I feel is so real!
I gave it up and turned to You
'Cause I know what your love can do
O Allah open up our hearts
And make us feel how it's so real with You!

CHORUS

random no. 11

76. "ummi... WSU stands for?"
"Wichita state university... anything?"
"ooo... hehe. just wanna know. i thought it's me. hauauaua"
"perasan!!"


77. muhammad said,
"sunat pun masuk tv?"

"kahwin pun masuk surat khabar?"


78. "thus, we, as we understand the  issue, just keep silent and observe until we have the opportunity to voice out at the right time..."  *ibrah of the story of one khalifah.


79. *please use spongebob squarepants OST tune.

sapo alumni SRI/SMI Aman? 
saya! 

sapo belajar SRI/SMI Aman dulu?
saya!

alumni SRI/SMI Aman namo gapo?
KALAM!

jadi, sapo ahli KALAM?
SAYA! 

80. "sufiyyah zulkifli?"

"yes?"

"zulkifli or zulkafli or...?"

spelling. name.


81. looking forward the January 17th, night! travelling me. may Allah ease. may Allah ease. and i have and i want  to cherish the present. me and time. again. feeling falling down. like leaves. but leaves never hate the wind that causes them to fall (Tere Liye). 

random no. 8

55.
"let's go to Borneo at the end of this year.."

"woah.. okey.. how much do we need?"

"save about RM*** to RM***..."

"seriously? urm... insya Allah.. we'll see..."


56.
"go buy a smartphone, dear!! it's a need."

"hehe.. i will.. i will... insya Allah.."


57.
"i think i'm going to umrah at the end of this year.."

"urm... that need thousands... who do you wanna bring?"

"hm... i don't know..."


58.
"i wanna buy a smartphone, soon.."

"okay. save your money..."

"can u add some?"

"you can take from another account of yours..."

"do i have much in that account? i don't think so... hueee"

"still can be used to add some.. would be sufficient..."


59.
someone updated her status. i don't like the content of the status. since i know i'm the one who's closely related to the status, it reminded me of what had happened about eight years ago. i asked her to delete. -_- it's better that way.


60.
"what kind of book is Anthem?"

"huh? where is it?" *looking at her hand, Velvet di Durham!!!*

"in the living area.... in the Jemari Seni's plastic bag..."

"hmm... about school students..." in heart, 'sending things without notice, but sarcastic status are not nice, dude.'

of DCs no. 3

20120906 captured from FB. eliciting Yiba beside Aman on the left. hahah. Amad's departing to KL.look at the chubby boy wearing glass, nerd, right?? haha.

20121221 i heard from two dads something about daughters. one is that his daughter would respond better to her friends. two is that his daughter don't know how 'bodek' her father. he.he.he.

20121221 let's smile.

20121221 let's be forgiving toward others no matter what, it's for the sake ourselves in searching for Allah's mercy and blessings.

20121221 am struggling..

20121221 true. it seemed similar about me when i was new to a place, then i just entered another place just earlier than few of my friends and i knew how they felt as the later comer, that i didn't want them to feel what i felt.

20121221 beauty. everyone loves it.

20121222 dushhh!!!

20121223 T________________________T

20121223 i'm taking this again.

20121226 i will.

20121226 hehhhh... hatred with knowledge.  nice.

20121226 the best reminder is death.

20121226 to ponder upon.

20121226 adey. the moment i read this, i was like, so i should delete my blog? deyy~

20121226 but beware of what you are reading... :)

20121222 dush. dush.

am waiting for a transport return home to go somewhere. am already LATE. and i HATE to be LATE. 
i was hit by words i spit. about riding the public transport. =P serve me right. PADAN MUKA.
tomorrow.. am going back to the campus. yuhooo. new room. i'll update random tomorrow insya Allah.

of DCs no. 2

20121215 - have faith.

20121215 - that-the-past. effort is the key. with the faith.

20121215 - to be a latifah is one of my ambition these days.

20121215 - parents and children.

20121215 - the heart.

20121216 - the BIG picture overlooked.

20121216 - yeah. i should let go of the feeling earlier. yes. i was the person who's hard to let go of something. even i was left behind i still chased them. oh. am tired now. exhausted, perhaps. physically. not spiritually. insya Allah am chasing you in my du'as buddies. :)

20121216 - ha-ha. simsimi. too many people teaching you uh?

20121216 - haha. adoyaiii...

20121216 - i can't resist the way simsimi responded to the word "melaka". haishh...

20121218 - my 30-minuta status. alhamdulillah. :)

20121220 - ^_________________^" lifelong debt.

20121220 - father and children.

20121221 - yeah. i just realised this from that point of view in the September.

20121221 - urm...

20121221 - time is never ours, i would say.

20121221 - it seemed unreliable since it's quoted  from Korean artist. haha. nevertheless, i have to take this for myself since i am learning to smile the best. =D

20121221 - i don't really understand the words.. but i think i will understand them in the future. so i'm keeping them in this blog. :)

of duckcapture(DC)s no.1

my third elder sister was under pressure, i gave her this picture to make her smile. she did smile she told me. ^_^ yes. she's die-hard-fan of Sami Yusuf

apa rasa tidak boleh dirasa menggunakan lidah? 

RASA HATI

suara apa tidak mampu didengari anggota telinga terzahir?

SUARA HATI

ikatan apa yang utuh lagi kuat tidak mampu terlihat mata kasar?

IKATAN HATI

apa yang berbolak balik?

HATI

siapa yang menguasai hati itu?

ALLAH

*diam*

hadiah terbaik? 

DOA

doa terbaik?

DOA RABITHAH

doa tu pada siapa?

ALLAH

*diam*

*air mata mengalir laju dengan mata tertutup*

random no. 3

17. i actually intended to post a dedication entry for yummy, yesterday. happy belated bday sister. :) our prayers always with you sister. just letting you know that you have your own significance/effects in my life, in a way i can't describe and you mayn't realise. :)

18. i just... i'd looked wrongly at the calendar when someone's telling me her important date! oh my! lucky me. i will be with her, insya Allah. ;)

19. kids. i don't know how to tackle them. :( yeah. i prefer to handle secondary school students rather than primary school students. i told the interviewer that time!!

20. May. many things that i wish can be remembered by me all the time actually happened in May. kohf. kohf. omo..

21. i advised myself to not looking back behind me. but, i keep looking back. i found that one my school buddies once said to me to come to her home when i passed my driving license. i'm now a competent driving license holder... thus, to go to her home will be in my list.

22. still remember my randomies no. 8? i found this, yesterday.

23. another duckcapture from facebook.

24. no events outside my hometown. err... i meant. no TOF this year. no Himpunan 1000 Jiwa 1 Hati this year. TOF - obviously no extra budget. :P boo at me. meanwhile, 1kJ1H is about the date. 31st December will be the first date the office gonna distribute new room keys for hostel residents. so, i wish i would be the first person among the residents at the third floor since i want to be the first person opening the reserved room. hahahah.

25. kitchen project. durian crepe!!! please suggest me instant whipped cream brand that is easy to be found in Kelantan specifically. or u can suggest me the best brand for the milk that will be delicious making whipped cream. i hope ur suggested brand won't be in the boycott list. =3

26. sew. i wish i can learn using the sewing machine. ummi's making me skirt. ahah! i like! i just wanna learn to sew a baju kurung manually using hands. i am serious. if u know anyone willing to teach somebody young to inherit her talent, please tell me. i am willing to spend my holidays with her!!

27. this advertisement is for anyone  living in Kota Bharu. please come.

ok. that's all for this entry. my randomies. ahah.

miss.

miss. miss Yong?
miss me? :P
ok. 

lately, i feel like falling down to the mantel layer in the earth again. but, at the same time, i too sometimes feel like eating strawberry with chocolate. ^_^

i feel like falling when i look at what i have done currently.
i feel like chocolate coated with strawberry when i read Allah's promises in the Qur'an, remember His rewards on the Judgement Day, feel of being yaqin with His true hope when He says in the Qur'an that He's near and He'll be All-Hearing to my du'as.

du'a.

du'a is real powerful. it's for real. it's better than internet in connecting people beyond geographical barrier.

it's sweet. sometimes u just can't tell the person that u care for him. but, make du'a, and Allah hears you.

it's lovely. that you know Allah has the power over human. over the world. over this life. human's hearts are all in Allah's Knowledge and Hands. :) thus, make du'a.

it's gorgeous. that anywhere u are, just say it in the heart. look at the sky. all praises to Allah.

du'a means hope.
taubah means hope.
so, never lose hope.
keep du'a-ing.
keep taubah-ing.
for Allah won't put me aside when i'm walking to Him.

be grateful of what i have.

and, it's been seven days i've deactivated my account at one of social site. hmm...

what do i feel?

i feel am at peace! ah-ha.

why? hmm... because i found that reading others' status made me sick. sick in the heart. sick at emotion. why? well.. i'm sick of lovey-dovey status about being good for good spouses, baitul muslim etc etc etc... err... something like that. at one side, that's good that people realized about being solihah and solih~ however, when my home wall flooding with phrases, quotes etc. ONLY about that, i got annoyed. =.=" they do disturb my emotion and my brain!! *emo*

i too feel at peace because i found that i'd been very active socializing there. =.=" i suddenly feel ashamed of my comments and posts and likes on the men's status and walls and posts. embarrassing. T.T

hm... and, when i'd 'more' time, i, honestly i did stalk people. =.=" and i sometimes questioned myself, do i need to open his profile? is it necessary to be friend with him? it's doubtful~~~ la. la. la.

lastly, i found myself spending time on that social website more than one hour once i browsed it after being connected to internet! so, it disturbed my time. u might be saying,

 'it's ur fault that u donno  to manage your time well..' 

because i'm at fault, i left it!!! hu. ^_^ currently feel good without it.

my studies... hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm.............
i'd been distressed because i'm like wandering again in this world..

what am i doing?

why did i choose to be here?

why is it so hard to deal with?

why is it disheartening for me to accept the reality?

how can i solve these whispers in my heart?

who should i call to share all the loads i feel on this barrel? 

where is my passion?

where is my patience?

when did the large space in me i'd spared for this shrink?

yada. just be positive. turn to Allah. ask from Him. everything will be okay.

and, when i'm annoyed with lesson planning, i call ummi for ideas. ^_^ jazakillah khair ummi. hu.
i hope ummi will bear my calls until i've the confidence in doing it. am showing to ummi that her daughter here is very hopeless in such things. :'( and to listen to ummi's ideas are really like eating pizza. hu. because ummi has that aura of being a teacher~

muktamar is one the seven wasilah tarbiyyah. ^________________^ *knocking my head

i want this kind of love; which brings me to JANNAH. (it's cool say JANNAH rather than syurga or heaven. *gedik*)
example 1
example 2 (especially the third situation)

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p/s: him/his/he - refers to human generally; not considering gender.