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20141231

i only ask for Allah.

i only ask for Allah, for 2015.

i only ask for Allah, for the lessons in 2014.

then, i only ask for Allah, to judge and guide me to the right path.

finally, i only ask for Allah, to show His Justice on the Judgement Day, soon; about every single thing.

yet, i only ask for Allah, to hide the embarrassing me and you and you; ours, on that Judgement Day, soon.

omo...

hai kakak. u did it! ur request does push me to update this blog. :) 

_sufiyyah zulkifli_
_batu 8, Gombak_
_2159 hours_

20140911

taking one step backward.

The captions of my instagram. August 2013 – august 2014

1.       Daerah itu. masa itu. rindu. <3 p="">
2.       nah nk tnjuk bsunnguhnye i...
3.       bukit mertajam.. pusing kot mana pun nampak jugak dia... xjemu tengok. time rasa nak kuat, akan cr dia zaman2 duk di langit ketiga asrama...
4.       sesuci fitrah. nama setakat ni Insyirah.
5.       Lebih 1000 je???? 6 hours more than 2000 kotttt!!!
6.       Ak ingat mesir... Rupanya tanah airkuuu
7.       Td jatuh dr bumbung ni kena dr almari pulak... Xtaula... ....
8.       Kes ni mmg x tutup eh?? Klau mcm tu kes kemanusiaan lg byk
9.       Nodia. Motorela. Samsong. Bolehhh
10.   .....
11.   APC. Congratz
12.   Olahraga memberds playing bola beracun. Budaks2 need to revise olahraga fun xtvts
13.   Gummorning princess!
14.   Lets sing
15.   rukun iman ada 6 perkara...
16.   ehh tecer ni.. tlg buat pulak..
17.   hmmm.. eksiden. Intrim. Posting...
18.   the boy in green...
19.   suka tgk dia nyanyi pg isnin!
20.   Yg ni pun smgt time nyanyi. Adam!
21.   Faris aiman! Kidal. Ok cute!
22.   "cikgu cikgu adik sy 4 org..." "cikgu minggu depan harijadi adik saya..." "cikgu nk tau lg satu tak... kt kdai kreta tu.... bla.. bla..." kidal jugak! comel!
23.   ngendap tcher instagram dlm keas ye... hahaha
24.   dak nemu jakuk aku . dik nme jakuk apa ( tslh nombor@syafiqahjawawi smlm skali org borneo....)
25.   nama saya Nur Insyirah. mak saya Siti Syazana. akhirnya saya balik selepas tiga malam dlm ward.
26.   masih kosong.....
27.   Normal. Yesterday. Morning. School. *yawn*
28.   Night market. Junjong.
29.   saturday. winding road.
30.   dah 7.15a.m. tahu la sabtu punnn
31.   org nk ambik gambar maluuu
32.   Ckgu kne oter haha
33.   Make up!
34.   Smgtt
35.   Prasekolah
36.   Persembahan xmau... Nyanyi blkg je lah... Budaks2
37.   nur hidayu. O:-) baby. fitrah.
38.   Twins. Xmau posing. Two days ago.
39.   Shahrul and Shahril. Xtau mana satu. Yg blkg sibuk tu nama Suffian.
40.   dictation x efektif. lecturer observe. final. nnt bersama2 pulakkkk.. tp tgk budak2 ni brusaha phm ak spkg terabur ni pun ckup buat aku thn sebak time ngajar... :-')
41.   mdm... mind ur spelling pls... XD
42.   Relief. Prasekolahhh
43.   Layu.
44.   My partner has two observations today...
45.   Brought the kids to buy flags.
46.   ...
47.   Night market. Puteri Gunong. Met a girl from 5C in SK Bandar Tasek Mutiara.
48.   pada suatu malam. [terpaksa crop sorang ni]
49.   it's raining. allahumma soyyibannaafi'an.
50.   my name is Nala. i love to disturb Sufi who's staying at my place for eight weeks. dia bru je tepuk kepala saya.
51.   Let's begin with the first wall.
52.   Dried.
53.   potpourri in the making.
54.   four. #R4BIA
55.   Thnks a lot mdm. I heart u. <3 2mins="" best="" better="" busy="" calls="" do="" final="" for="" i="" ll="" my="" one.="" p="" received="" s="" she="" that="" the="" too="" two="" within="">
56.   There's a hero lies in you!
57.   Walimatul urus at Omar Mee Kuah.
58.   Day 7 of the week at school.
59.   Final touch for the first wall
60.   Finished!!!
61.   Night market. Kilang lama, kulim.
62.   Fatin auni amanina. Susah senyum. Meghap.
63.   Adik2 angkat. Kiranya aku ada 11 org adik masuk angkat tak rasmi segala. Dik Mai and Fadhil Nor. :-)
64.   there's elderly couple. they have roses in front if their house. i love to take the flowers. intentionally to make potpourri. yesterday was the latest i took. 4 roses. this morning, 3a.m. the husband died who used to let me taking the roses. al-fatihah. :-(
65.   found this at school today. may Allah bless the granny. may Allah forgive him. may Allah give him peace. :-,(
66.   rainbow never fails to amaze human to say Subhanallah and smile.
67.   UPSR candidate
68.   kan ku petik bintang2... ku jadikan hadiah utkmu... moga Tuhan merahmatimu.
69.   arash's sentence.
70.   panjat verandah. hujan. rindu pulak rumah manis. <3 p="">
71.   History. Sedar diri. (knp hgpa duk jauh sangat... (~.~))
72.   Arash's. Mmg tcher ajar alquran pun.
73.   I wish i can climb and sit here. Enjoy the scenery.
74.   second wall.
75.   dari minggu pertama cikgu dan budak2 duk tanya, "dah kahwin ke?" it's wan not puan. adoiii...
76.   see. she's busy. thx mdm! <3 p="">
77.   maybe i am unlovable person. #improve
78.   from left: third elder sister, eighth lil bro, bro in law, mak buyung 2nd elder sis, cousin, ummi n ayah. squatting?? from left ahaha. mischievous muhammad youngest bro n younger bro ahmad the sixth. that day i saw status like annoyed for people sending off fmly mmbrs bringing everyone to terminal, looking at this picta, i think to send off someone means love. it's like nk tgk awk depan mata smpai awk hilang dr pndgn b4 kita jumpa lg.
79.   acting like her mother. Nana. Convent Ipoh student.
80.   "ambik jauh2 sikit... nnt mama nampak gemuk and shorter...."
81.   Ladies of june. My company.
82.   Terpaksa dibazirkan. Selepas dua potong kek manis dan berkrim habis.
83.   Eight days. Already. Al-fatihah. Will be leaving the granny. Huu...
84.   Two lesson plans are done. Tomorrow's.
85.   #testing #momentos
86.   The second and third wall... finished within two days. #yesterday
87.   Sawang... received #yesterday. Ahah. The other, received this morning. #kids
88.   Farewell. With special ceremony. Very creative kids. Lalala... even though their role play like trying to imitate me.... not used to receive such appreciation. They taught me to .... #kindness #kids #support
89.   Not good bye. But hope to see you again. :) #experience #memories #momentos
90.   Nk ckpnya dah 10 minggu tinggalkan bilik....
91.   Full moon tonight. Fii amanillah. #homecoming
92.   Morning kota bharu!
93.   Home. After two hours waiting for that boy from Kuantan.
94.   Morning baby! Aunty uda n papa zola are home!
95.   Groceries shopping. #brothers
96.   Uways. A nephew of amanians. :)
97.   Sunday morning at home.
98.   Pasar. Market. Porter.
99.   Babies!! Girls! First n third row: twins. Amirah n Umairah. 6months. 2nd row: a niece of #amanianz named 'Iffah. :D
100.                        Grab his left hand, then look at the camera. Snap! (It's been twice he couldnt send me off..) #heroesofme
101.                        I found this in my one of my notebooks i used during my secondary school time. I dun remember where i copied this from. But one thing am sure enough, this quote concludes everything for one of the worst event in this year. #relationship #life #theperia
102.                        #momentos #appreciation
103.                        ....
104.                        Family portrait.3 generations
105.                        Final. Remember school. Haha #momentos
106.                        Yeay!hahaha
107.                        We smell like fish. We love fish. We are not fishy. We try to avoid selfish. #improve #fish #momentos
108.                        I can't donate again. T.T HB.... #healing #kindness
109.                        Heart. #improve #healing #theperia
110.                        Time flies like butterfly. Butterfly lives a short life with lucky beauty. Clover is colloquial with luck. Dragonfly sounds brave. As brave as red. Red and white are great. White for purity and purifying. All hung at one chain. #perghhhh #appreciation #momentos #lurve
111.                        Netball. Look behind, that hill. Anywhere you go. Haha. #momentos
112.                        #theperia #life #healing #theyolk
113.                        Tourism. Heritage. History. #sunnatullah #fasiirufil-ardh
114.                        Tourism. Heritage. Towers. Monuments. History. Adelaide's sister-land. Multi-livinghood;cultures,religions, etc #sunnatullah #fasiirufil-ardh 49:13
115.                        Heritage. Tourism. #fasiirufil -ardh #momentos
116.                        Storytelling. 
117.                        Hanaa. #mushyloveydovey
118.                        #improve #healing #kindness # life
119.                        Petanque.
120.                        #improve #healing #aminquestions #mushyloveydovey #momentos #thegonepast
121.                        Haha. Harapan.. harapan menjadi layu... #improve #healing
122.                        Sweet. I Think the girl is his grand daughter. #mushyloveydovey
123.                        Cats. Can sleep. Can play. Anytime. But me. Am human. #improve #life
124.                        Alhamdulillah! #healing #life #theperia #improve
125.                        Kalau boring telefon saja saya... adeyyy! Haha. I will remember ur number bcoz only two numbers in urs are different from mine. #momentos #life #perghhh #thegonepast
126.                        Semua benda nak pulun. #life #improve #willbegonepast #perghhh
127.                        #FANELS13 #awesome #perghhh #momentos #mushyloveydovey #eyesbeautysleepless #life #thegonepast
128.                        Of cats again. And heaven yes. Ain't going back for 'eid. :) #perghhh #healing #life
129.                        Haha. Just knew how to screenshot. Lew. #life #jakunness #bungalambatkembang
130.                        #life #buddiezz #mushyloveydovey
131.                        #willbethegonepast #momentos #kindness #my'eid
132.                        #dayofarafah #breakfasting
133.                        #life #willbethegonepast #momentos #myeid #mushyloveydovey
134.                        The steps; May them paved towards jannah, May them filled with love, May them counted for Here and After, May them not be exhausted and stopped... Keep moving forward and once a while, take one step backward. #life #improve
135.                        Friday!
136.                        #academiclifeofme #fear #improve #thegonepast
137.                        "U surely got some smiles, huh?" The moment i heard this whisper, i was like, what's ur problem? Just now, someone shared an article about ladies and ajnabis (men who can be married to...) one of the point is smile. .... Ok. Too many trifles i have overlooked. Thanks. #improve #life #theyolk #mushyloveydovey
138.                        Raining. Not going anywhere. Just walk. Letting go. Hard. #life #improve #lonergoner
139.                        Gwen. Haha. K. #life #improve #aminquestions #kindness #relationship #thegonepast #theperia #thereadingme
140.                        Ninja assassin. "Your heart is special.." "What's out there?" "Life..." #kindness #life #mushylovedovey #diehardinjihadbeamujahidah
141.                        Matilahkauuuuu! Making noise around me. Spreading dirt around me. Flying to irritate me. Not going out of my 'cave'. Off you die! #perghh #life #wheresthekindness #annoyinginsects
142.                        Another insect was assassinated by me. Okey. This cockroach is not dead yet. /_._\ #annoyinginsects #perghh #wheresthekindness
143.                        Gonna keep this wall. #willbethegonepast #life #lonergoner #mushylovedovey #momentos #mycaveinthecampus
144.                        Kumpulan sedap performing nur syahadah. Bringing back the memories. In this exam cold season. May Allah bless. #life #momentos #thegonepast #theperia #missingamanianz #mushylovedovey
145.                        Kumpulan circle team performing destinasi cinta. Bringing back that emotion. Haha. #life #thegonepast #momentos #mushylovedovey
146.                        Kumpulan islife performing nur kasih. Seriously. This is not really contemporary. This is nostalgic!!! #life #thegonepast #momentos #mushylovedovey
147.                        Kumpulan mawar. Layar keinsafan. Turned to make audience laugh. Lyrics. Actions. #life #momentos #willbethegonepast #thegonepast #thisisfun
148.                        Azben: muhasabah cinta. Okey la. Accepted as contemporary. :-D #momentos #mushylovedovey #life #lonergoner
149.                        Last: kumpulan soft. Erti syukur. Real contemporary of music. But still.. nostalgic; the song. :') #mushylovedovey #life #momentos #thegonepast
150.                        #life #improve #mushylovedovey #theyolk #momentos
151.                        #life #improve #theyolk #thereadingme #diehardinjihadbeamujahidah #healing #mushylovedovey #readandthink
152.                        Regret. Aversion. Yet, lesson learnt. Keep your head up, next time. And yes, it's inevitable for me to avoid something that caused me to be that bad me. That bad evil me is not only hurting others, it hurts me too. Heh. Whatever it is, that bad me doesn't bring me closer to jannah. I want jannah. Heh. #life #theperia #theyolk #relationship #thegonepast #improve #diehardinjihadbeamujahidah #healing #kindness
153.                        Welcoming k.ila to our happy circle. <3 improve="" life="" momentos="" mushylovedovey="" myhepicircle="" p="" theyolk="">
154.                        #areyousure #life
155.                        #mynicknames #perghh #thisisfun
156.                        Putting some efforts. #improve #academiclife
157.                        #momentos #mushylovedovey #notgoodbye #life #relationship #readandthink #thereadingme
158.                        Baru tahu selama n makcikakak cleaner bersihkan jgk tngkap. (Third floor tak la kot? Haha) #kindness #life #mycaveinthecampus
159.                        White people say the more the merrier. #lonergoner #momentos #mushylovedovey
160.                        #perghh #momentos #therockiscookingwithluv #thisisfun #traditionalcuisines
161.                        Sleep with notes. #academiclifeofme #mycaveinthecampus #thereadingme #milktooth #academiclife #perghh
162.                        #life #improve #theyolk #thereadingme #readandthink #arraqaiq #mushyloveydovey #aminquestions
163.                        Morning sunshine! :-) #kenapakakakcleanerdatanghariahadmencurigakan #life #improve #aminquestions #perghh
164.                        Sempurna. #life #theyolk #improve #mylittlepencil #opick #bloghoping
165.                        Susah ada kakak gedik macam ni haaa... #macamgedikjemacamgedikje #laghooooo #heroesofme #barutaucarienglish :p
166.                        Finale. Cloudy morning. #life #moveon #amsick #aminquestions #improve
167.                        Guling guling. #cats
168.                        I won't give up on us... Kerana itu wasiat agung junjungan mulia s.a.w. Kita hanya perlukan senggang waktu diisi dengan tasbih tafakkur penyerahan kepada Sang Pencipta. #healing #improve #relationship #readandthink #theyolk #theperia #thereadingme
169.                        Dan kerana cinta langit yang didamba... Dambaan hati para pengimpi syurga. #lurvetoheaven #relationship #theyolk #improve
170.                        #thereadingme #relationship #readandthink #lurvetoheaven #theyolk #mushyloveydovey #improve #diehardinjihadbeamujahidah #buddiezz Seindah sejarah kisah inilah impian aku dalam membina perhubungan dengan kalian. Saksikanlah.
171.                        It's raining at beloved hometown. #homecoming #talkabouttheweather
172.                        Business? #aminquestions Kedai setingkat terbakar. Lepas tu bangunan sebelah naik..lepas tu tapak kedai terbakar jadi tempat parking. Bangunan tu jadi kedai baru!!!
173.                        Objective questions. T.T #oklupakan
174.                        Putu halba! #traditionalcuisines
175.                        Watching tv. Out of sudden, the third younger bro said, "look.. R***** M*****". Dang!!! #thisisfun #JK
176.                        Dangerous. Was climbing the double-deck bed. The third younger bro (again) said, "watch out. The fan above ur head". (×_×)'
177.                        Kenduri k.attiq. sebelah lelaki. Kahwin dgn org kelantan, insya Allah sampai. :D Jzkk k.hawa sbb ajak gi sesama. :) #nikahconnectingpeople
178.                        The second week of my longgg sem break. Initially returned home as the only lady in the house. Then the only daughter among four bros. Now, still the only daughter but with only two bros. When this happens, haa... u know to miss ur siblings. *sunyilarumahhhh* #life #mushyloveydovey #heroesofme
179.                        Sufiyyah. Suffiah. Sofiah. #amanianz #kohai #senpai #momentos #mushyloveydovey #life #QQi2013
180.                        #nikahconnectingpeople 
181.                        Was in UK. #ulukelantan #ukhuwahteraskegemilangan
182.                        The pic on top: wan maryam sofiyyah with wan sufiyyah. The pic below: wan sufiyyah with zarith sofiya and ain sofia. #QQi2013 #thisisfun #mushyloveydovey #momentos #kohai
183.                        Leadership course. Leaders in the school. Make history darlings! #kohai #amanianz #mushyloveydovey #gonnabethegonepast #senpai
184.                        Been searching for this since two years ago. Yesterday i was determined to ask for new cert from LPM since i'll be needing it in 2014. Went to JPN and post office. Even bought postal order. Last night, ummi was searching and gathering her certs for an interview, then, there it was. In a clear holder. Alhamdulillah. :) #life #momentos #certs #improve #experience #yesterday
185.                        'Akad nikah. My lil sister's classmate in college. #nikahconnectingpeople #life #thisisfun #relationship
186.                        Aribcliquers. Sila repost dia inappropriate. Yes. I did. Heh. *bertanduksketmalamni* #life #civilisation #educationinmareshia #annoyingattitude
187.                        Tonight's snacks. From thailand. #thisisfun #life #hehyouenjiarai
188.                        It's been quite a time. Need new plans. May Allah ease. #life #theyolk #thegonepast #momentos #improve
189.                        #relationship #amanianz #kohai #batch18 #theyolk #ukhuwahteraskegemilangan
190.                        #rayuannurani #shitaa #pray4syria #letsdonate #aqsasyarif #mll4s #winterappeal #ukhuwahteraskegemilangan #ummah
191.                        #winterappeal #pray4syria #ummah #ukhuwahteraskegemilangan #letsdonate #lurve #humanity #life #lunchboxfordeath
192.                        My first experience in debate. Hahah. Amateur. #life #experience #myadventure #thisisfun #thegonepast
193. At the end, i didn't attend the camp. What made this such sentimental to me was the date and the place. ^_^ if ain't mistaken i met u @ftnfth . :D #life #thegonepast #experience #relationship #thehoneychoc #mushyloveydovey #lurve #karisman #PTAK
194. #nikahconnectingpeople #mahligaimahabbah #aminquestions #thisisfun #thisistooearlyformekot #ukhuwahteraskegemilangan
195. Happy feet. They miss hiking. They miss jungle trekking. They miss walking. They miss running. They miss climbing. They miss to be soaked in wet socks and shoes. #life #momentos #inisemuapoyo #thisisfun #momentos
196. Teman bilik setahun setengah. #senpai #mushyloveydovey #momentos #aminquestions apa la agaknya harta pusaka tu... #life #comeandgo #lurve
197. Epik. Never know the existence of this epicta. Say-no-to-camera-age-for-me because I dunno how to smile. Gagaga. #thegonepast #momentos #thisisfun #amanianz #life #ukhuwahteraskegemilangan
198. Breakfast. Burpppppp! #thisisfun
199. This senior. I remember how she concerned about me. About our beloved school. I remember how she with love replied my childish emails. I remember how naughty she is. Haha. I owe her cendol; i promised her my treat. Knowing her residency in cairo was on fire, i only can make du'a. She's in exam phase now. All the best mitsui! Please return to Darul Na'im! #amanianz #senpai #momentos #life #healing #theperia #improve #experience
200. #statigram #shadawentz #momentos #jakunness #life
201. #life #lonergoner #esokkelas
202. Dear you.. the owner of this handwriting. May Allah bless you with His bountiful rahmah, barakah and maghfirah till jannah! All the best in ur life! ILY. And do missing you tree! *insteadoftoo. #momentos #amanianz #life #mushyloveydovey #relationship
203. #30DayAffirmationChallenge Day one. I love myself.
204. My classmate. Xoxo
205. #30dayaffirmationchallenge Day 3: I am getting better everyday. :)
206. #30dayaffirmationchallenge Day 4: I am important. :']
207. #30dayaffirmationchallenge Day 5: i am successful in whatever i do. :-)
208. #30dayaffirmationchallenge Day 6: i am loved <3 p="">
209. #30dayaffirmationchallenge Day 7: i am strong.
210. #30dayaffirmationchallenge Day 8: i am hopeful. :)
211. #30DayAffirmationChallenge Day 9: i am making things happen
212. #30DayAffirmationChallenge Day 10: i persist with confidence B-)
213. #30DayAffirmationChallenge Day 11: i trust myself in making great decisions. To be here, is one of them. Thanks to them for never decide for me. Thanks to them for always give me hope with guidance and let me choose freely. To adhere, it's the final year. Ummi ayah, i need ur prayers till the end of my life.
214. #30DayAffirmationChallenge Day 12: i embrace fears fully and calmly
215. #30DayAffirmationChallenge Day 13: i am a wonderful person
216. #30DayAffirmationChallenge Day 14: i deeply love and accept myself.
217. #30DayAffirmationChallenge Day 15: i am able to solve problems creatively. No absurd problem found in this picta. … :D
218. #30DayAffirmationChallenge Day 16: i am vibrant and have lots of energy! Thisshowssymptomsofbeingnakbalikandnakbalik. X semangatnya final year! Soo not good.
219. #30DayAffirmationChallenge Day 17: i think like a winner. Semangatsketciksufiyyah!
220. #30DayAffirmationChallenge Day 18: i appreciate every moment of the day.
221. #30DayAffirmationChallenge Day 19: there is a solution to every problem. Thanks lala for mr. Potato. Thanks dr. Tarsame for Hersheys. And Hersheys reminds me of@ftnfth hue.
222. #30DayAffirmationChallenge Day 20: i feel the joy of abundance. Weee! Selfies of the year. Lol.
223. #30DayAffirmationChallenge Day 21: the universe provides for my every want and need.
224. #30DayAffirmationChallenge Day 22: i see endless opportunities before me.
225. #30DayAffirmationChallenge Day 23. #textcutie
226. #30DayAffirmationChallenge Day 24.
227. #30DayAffirmationChallenge Day 25: i radiate positive energy.
228. #30DayAffirmationChallenge Day 26: everything i do turns into success. Even falling asleep. Lol.
229. Cikgu. Ustazah. Teacher. Semua pun boleh. #momentos #life #teachingpractice
230. #30DayAffirmationChallenge Day 27. #textcutie
231. #nikahconnectingpeople Weddings of january and february. ^_^ #amanianz #apiumnp #apids #life #ukhuwahteraskegemilangan #mushyloveydovey
232. #30DayAffirmationChallenge Day 28: i see the bright side in all situation. That hill. From different point of view. And that building is where i live for five years and half. ^_^
233. #30DayAffirmationChallenge Day 29: i am in control of my life.
234. Katanya @nurulasma15 install la camera360. Haha. Pengantin cool. Layankan aje tetamu2 awal ni nak berposing2 berpuluh2 kali dari dalam bilik sampai ruang tamu. Dari akad nikah sampai persalinan kedua. ^_^" I was afraid to attend the wedding. Afraid of krik3 situations due to long time no see each other. But, no. The warmth was like the yesteryear. Ha-ha. I heart you alls! <3 and="" apids="" apiumnp="" arrived.="" farah="" he.="" liza="" momentos="" mushyloveydovey="" not="" p="" ukhuwahteraskegemilangan="" were="" yet="">
235. #30DayAffirmationChallenge Day 30: today, i will spread joy in random and beautiful ways. Finale.
236. #life #lonergoner Kemon la. ~_~
237. Nampak tak gambar sape lebih? :-P #life #momentos #teachingpractice
238. From left: amir muhammad, zaid, naqib and zikri. Year 3. The cutest is zaid. *giggle*
239. Rindu-rindukanlah diriku... Sepanjang hari-harimu.... :)) the six heads group. #life #momentos #mushyloveydovey
240. For you who's missing us. #heroesofme #bekadecasa #momentos #life #mushyloveydovey
241. Good morning.
242. Gather. Heaven. Blessings. Dream. #life #momentos #mushyloveydovey
243. Wanted. Tell her i am searchiNg for her ig account. Hahah. #amanianz #kohai #momentos
244. Mental age. Now am having extra than over worried. #life #teachingpractice
245. He said: enthusiasm is inside you. No one can do anything about. It's you who should do something. You can do better than this. Kungfu panda said: there's no secret ingredients. It's just you. Look at the mirror. It's the person appears when you're looking at it. #life #experience #myadventure
246. Go. Work. Wek!
247. The path that i've taken. The road not taken... #life #improve
248. Demi matahari dan cahayanya yang terang-benderang; Dan bulan apabila ia mengiringinya; Dan siang apabila ia memperlihatkannya dengan jelas nyata; Dan malam apabila ia menyelubunginya (dengan gelap- gelita), Demi langit dan Yang membinanya (dalam bentuk yang kuat kukuh - yang melambangkan kekuasaanNya); Serta bumi dan Yang menghamparkannya (untuk kemudahan makhluk-makhlukNya); Demi diri manusia dan Yang menyempurnakan kejadiannya (dengan kelengkapan yang sesuai dengan keadaannya); Serta mengilhamkannya (untuk mengenal) jalan yang membawanya kepada kejahatan, dan yang membawanya kepada bertaqwa; - (91:1-8)
249. Selamat pagi, love. #mushyloveydovey #facebook
250. Haven't used correction pen for few years. This year, i just have to buy them as suggested by my supervising lecturer. And that free gift will be given to any lucky boy or girl among the pupils tomorrow. :-D #improve #life #teachingpractice
251. I want a full stop. Can i?
252. How to ease the self after prayers.
253. Friday morning. #life #momentos #mushyloveydovey
254. You and i mayn't like rules. But, let's take a step backward. Rules; the what we return to when we want clarify or fight for our RIGHT. #life #improve #annoyingattitude
255. #life #theyolk #improve
256. Wake up teacher.
257. My handsome father. <3 heroesofme="" mushyloveydovey="" p="">
258. My happiness for today. Alhamdulillah. :D #homecoming
259. By @khalidahumaidah "Ok this explain everything." via@PhotoRepost_app
260. #myday #momentos #myadventure Humaira' Balqis. Cute. Haha. Can't shout my anger when i look at her. Too cute. :)
261. #textcutie #life #improve
262. #uncle #lee #kelantanese #chinese #firefly #PEN
263. Returned from school. Took a long nap. Dreamt of her. Yesterday was not enough. ~_~ She didn't smile coz she was rushing for her class and this middle-rebellious daughter of hers asked for a selfie pic with her. '_' #numberoneforme #life #mushyloveydovey #momentos
264. WHY DO I LIVE? WHY DO WE LIVE? Begin with the end in the mind. Credit: @shadawentz #life #improve #theyolk
265. Dare to be different. #life
266. Tanah gersang by salim a. Fillah. Terima kasih Allah, Kau hadirkan manusia yang baik untukku. Terima kasih Allah, Kau mengujiku ke atas diriku sendiri. Wahai Engkau Yang Maha Menguasai, Peliharalah aku dari segala sifat malas dan lemah. #life #improve #myadventure
267. Verily patience is beautiful and virtue. #photogrid #life #myadventure
268. Andai diberi peluang, inginku terbang tinggi di awanan. Kan ku petik bintang-bintang, ku jadikab hadiah untukmu, moga Tuhan merahmatimu, terima kasih guru~~ #life #kitesmomentbersamaGB
269. I want to be one of Parent-Teacher Association in the future. :3 #life
270. What doesn't kill you makes you stronger. Like wise, what comforts you kills you like a silencer. #life #katanyanakSYURGA
271. Cross-country practice. Day 1. "Teacher tak penat ke?" *apa jenis soalan tu* "Yes, am tired." But this is how i enjoy myself. Hurrah!!! #crosscountry #life #momentos #beinghealthy #myadventure #thisisfun
272. Right: 2nd day of cross-country practice. Question being asked by the pupils from my beginning till finishing line: "teacher org apa?" Me: org islam. Me: org melayu. Them: "asal teacher laaa..." Me: klate. Haha. #life #kids #thisisfun #momentos #experience
273. #PhotoGridVideo @PhotoGridOrg #testing #life #momentos #experience #kids #mushyloveydovey
274. #momentos #mushyloveydovey #thatday #amanianz #izzatamaliawedding tuan dia pun throwback hari ni. Hehe. @jeeha137 ce tgk ktorg posing kat mana hujung2 klip ni. :D #nikahconnectingpeople #ukhuwahteraskegemilangan #PhotoGridVideo #photogrid @photogridorg kita bagi flooding ig dgn video hr ni. #apakahhh
275. Kan dah kata nak flooding ig dgn vid hr ni. #photogrid #PhotoGridVideo #thegonepast #momentos #life@photogridorg Mari kita dengar sound video ni jadi ke tidak...
276. Spot chef kamarul's daughter if u can. #photogrid #PhotoGridVideo @photogridorg #yesterday #kids #momentos #floodingig
277. How to be a good companion. Not just to find one, what is more is to be the one. #life #lonergoner #improve #ukhuwahteraskegemilangan #relationship #mushyloveydovey #lurvetoheaven
278. Am done my APTIS! What is APTIS? Go ask my boyfriend named Google. #life #myadventure #APTIS
279. By @khalidahumaidah "😔" via @PhotoRepost_app 1. Pray until something happen. 2. Others are our mirrors. What they do unto us always reflecting what we do unto others. We just forgot. Thus, treat others like we wanted to be treated by them but don't treat them like they treated us the way we hate it be. Anyhow. Anywhere. Anyone. 3. Be fair. Though life isn't. We know Allah reveals everything on the Judgement Day. #life #myadventure #esq165 #relationship #readandthink #healing #homecoming
280. My usrahmate. Worrying about two observations on the coming Friday. #life #mushyloveydovey #theyolk #momentos
281. Allah, grant me someone who elevates my iman
282. Invitations. #nikahconnectingpeople #life #ukhuwahteraskegemilangan Cuti sekolah. Ada dikelantan. Insya Allah hadir. <3 p="">
283. Yeay!! #life #homecoming
284. Ini bunga. Bunga kerak nasi. Bunga yang bau dalam bunga rampai tu.. bunga ni la. Cikgu pra sekolah buat projek bunga rampai dua hr lepas. Hehe. Bunga. Jepun kata hana @hanaterah_husin . :-D jadi, ini penghargaan utk @hanaterah_husin . Geng butterworth di tahun akhir. ;) tqvm hana. Xde gamba sebenar. Metafora pun jadi. <3 allah="" bless="" may="" p="" us.="">
285. Sebelah kanan. 22 mac. 10 tahun lalu. Kenal tak? SYAHID ATAS KERUSI RODA lepas solat subuh kerana APACHE. Kita mau ending macam mana? ^_^" #life #improve #theyolk #katanyanakSYURGA
286. Ahah. Gaal pasir puteh-telipot-pasir pekan. Sedang iron baju: k.basimah izzati pngantin pasir puteh. Dtg awal sangat. Hee. Xsempat tgk baju lawaa. Pengantin Pegang baby: aisyah and suami, rafizi. Iptho+ipg ipoh. Ehe. Baby tu anak sedaranya ya. Baju biru: mimi PBS mate. Sk p.pekan. Saya pegang baby: baby sapa? Muhammad arif zafran namanya. Bin zailan wa mahirah. :D #amanianz #iptb #nikahconnectingpeople #ukhuwahteraskegemilangan #mushyloveydovey #lurvetoheaven #senpai
287. Kg. Padang gerap, meranti - kg. Cabang tiga, berangan Kanan: k.azie. majlis sebelah suaminya, asyraf a.k.a acap. Baru tau taufik agus tu adik ipar k.azie. lol. Kiri: azimah PBS mate S.k. kutan. :D teslian too. Lalala. #nikahconnectingpeople #ukhuwahteraskegemilangan #life #mushyloveydovey #iptb #senpai
288. Travelling with ummi for an event. Mother-daughter. Well. As a middle daughter from 5 daughters of 10 sibs, this kind of activity with mother is very precious. #life #momentos #mushyloveydovey #experience #improve #myadventure
289. The advantage of being an elder sister and a younger sister to a career woman. <3 another="" have="" hope="" i="" life="" mushyloveydovey="" myday="" next="" opportunity="" p="" sisters="" so="" thisisfun="" year.="" yeay="">
290. SMK(A)Lati #life #experience #kids
291. Last day home. 7 hours left. ~_~ #heroesofme #life #momentos #mushyloveydovey
292. "Selfie la ummi.." #numberoneforme #life #heroesofme #mushyloveydovey #yesterday #momentos #thegonepast
293. #PhotoGridVideo @PhotoGridOrg#ukhuwahteraskegemilangan
294. A success. #life #thisisfun #electronic #electric
295. That green object is a hook. It can't hold on to the wooden surface of the cupboard anymore, so it fell on the floor, just now.
296. Princess. Kohf3.
297. Beautiful morning without beautiful feelings. #padanmuka
298. Screenshot few days ago. #tere #liye
299. Kenapa monyet pink? Kenapa gajah purple? Mak aii.. gemoknya gajah dia...! Tu buaya apa? Buaya tembaga! Manusia diberi lidah tanpa tulang untuk berkata-kata. Lidah tu kurnia atau petaka, kita tentukan. Lidah tiada tulang. Tapi ada deria rasa.
300. \_/\___/\/\//\\\_......
301. Final year. Found this. #thisisfun #hibernating
302. BB1M. RM100. Another result of 100 at home. Heh-heh. Gonna let go some of these.
303. Presents.
304. Week 12. 5 days. See you in July. Insya Allah.
305. Ruhul istijabah. History.
306. The volunteer; for adventure. The proposal; for assist. The chemistry; in bleuss. The coincidence; the kitty key-chain. The brain; think easy. The decision; the road not taken. The person; thank you. God; all praises to You. ^_^
307. Selamat hari pekerja. :)
308. Meet Danial and Danish. Twin.
309. Wakey wakey bau syurga!
310. Inspiring. Medical doctor and a bird watcher. Kind uncle. Fell down in front of him. Haha. Embarrassing.
311. Happy revision week! ^_^
312. #pray4munirah @munirahhq kuciNg ni pesan: Rilek. Do'a banyok. Hihi. <3 p="">
313. 7 minggu lalu, balik, xde pagar. 2 minggu lalu, si bongsu ni posing dengan pagar. #dahsemuaadikberadikupdatepasalrumahkannnn
314. Ayah answered: semenanjung better. :3 #worldmappuzzle #future
315. "I never have confidence in teaching..." "Then what u're gonna be after this?" This picture popped out in my brain. ".. hmmm... social activist!" Both of us laughed it off.
316. Morning inspiration. Hi sunshine!
317. Yeah. After nearly one year.. continuing to read of Cat Stevens to Yusuf Islam. Happy revision week. *looking at edu3107 notes on the bed*
318. Nota penting: semakin baik persangkaannya, semakin baik perbuatannya. Happy revision week. (".)
319. Smiling reading these confessions. And so far, among 7 sibs passed school years, am the only child travelling through the path with MOE. ^_^ My answer? Wait till i officially became a teacher in a school for real. Thus, happy celebrating 16th may. :)
320. ^_^
321. Caving. Menggua. Cant open the door. Cant open the windows. Ada lelaki bekerja di luar. Tadi dah tido. Maka cuba la jugak duduk di meja. Mohon do'a pls. Esok final paper. ^_^
322. *snap*
323. #shadawentz #instagayawhothe_shada #jakunness
324. Fefeeling pwincess with my rakan sebaya bday on 25th Sept.
325. Iffah comel!!
326. It's a sudden act. Monkey: i feel safe with u! *hug the tiger tightly* Tiger: oh???! *feeling shocked and awkward*
327. Good morning. May the heart inside is bright as the smile. May the soul not rusting like the metal beside the smile. :']
328. Nur syahadah is performed. Aaa... nostalgiaaaaaaaa. :']
329. K.suaidah and a. Nabil. :)
330. Easy. Happy friday. :)
331. My physics teacher when i was in form five. Barakallahulakuma wa baraka 'alaikuma wa jama'a bainakuma fi khair mu'allimah and zauj. :) Ratu dan raja sehari mencemar duli.
332. Adik sepermainan dari kecik. Xpe dia dulu. Dia k.long. haha. Barakallahu lakuma wa baraka 'alaikuma wa jama'a bainakuma fi khair fatihah and zauj. :)
333. Yesterday's blind date. One of my long-term online buddies. She's in the important list for me to update my SPM result. Wahahaha. I'll miss my student's life. :3
334. My biology teacher when i was in form four. May Allah bless ur marriage muallimah hanani and husband! :) Each of us represent teacher, alumni of 8th, 9th, 10th and 11th batch of amanianz.
335. Meet Hannan. Syahiran's wife. Her husband was my classmate in standard six. ^_^
336. Returned from kenduri, ayah gave this. Looking at Libresse word made me smirk. Once the envelope torned, looking the thing inside, made me laugh. Haha. Ok. Thanks Libresse for remembering my birthdate and warm wishes. :) One kenduri is not attended. Too tired to go alone. ~.~ that communication disease in me. Lulz.
337. #soyesterday #iforgotmy24thbirthdayinhijricalendar #mydate #hahaha
338. #soyesterday
339. That man is not a celebrity. He's my senior's husband. Application to be the second wife requires somebody who wants to be bibik for the current wife. Peace!
340. I never know that u can get this by donating blood. I never know that u can get even a cert by donating blood. I never know that am that childish when Allah test me with some little pain. But, kindness really heals. And patience is too subjective to be defined; yet Allah promise rewards and paradise.
341. Heavy and cloudy and gloomy.
342. It's me photo in his hands. Instead of kissing the photo, he wanted to chew it!!
343. Ummi: kalu x luruh lagi? Aku: buat jugak bagi luruhhhh! Luruh tu jatuh ya anak-anak. Alhamdulillah. Sempat merasa sebelum balik sana. Yeay!!
344. Entah bila jumpa aunty lagi kan, Yuusuf? ^~^
345. New roommate named Syaima. Hope to see you tonight bfore i doze off. ^_^
346. Taqabbalallahu minna wa minkum! Kullu 'am wa antum bikhair! :) #yummymissing
347. Ummi ayah x ada gene mamak pun. Tp anak dia yg no. 4 ni org blh pulak kata mamak klate? Semua tu kuasa Allah. Kesimpulannya. Hee.
348. With amax and che ah and dayah
349. Muhammad kecek dgn sapo tu? Owh. Record diri sediri kecek!!
350. It's friday already!
351. Finally!! He fell asleep in his most annoying aunty uda's hug!
352. Budak2 bendera palestin
353. Aunty uda <3 nik="" p="" papa="" terobekorangkata="" yusuf="">
354. Peace be upon u Monday!!
355. Lupa janji dengan semua orang tunggu ambik gambar. #ootd sket @by_rh and @bowsnroses
356. Peers; One of my smile resources.
357. Kawan adik saya @syahe3dekram :D #tghkalutclashdgnfamilyphotoshoot
358. G'day Sunday!
359. Keyword: effort
360. Yummy: That's not nice. Should just wear mafla. Promotion of Aqsa Syarif.. S@fiyy@h Rumm@n 🍪: Why not nice?  Yummy: No. 1 - bg la hari ni untuk malaysia No. 2 - kombinasi kaler tu ceria, lari tema 1Malaysia... kahkahkah No. 3 - jangan sampai kena label tak patriotik di bulan kemerdekaan ni No. 4 - mafla lebih efektif... orang nampak Aqsa Syarif... masa demo orang duk tanya mana nak dapat 😋 Credits with love  @adib2707 Shawl by @sufischa ke@bysufischa ntah? ^_^"
361. Video.
362. I like you sir!
363. Depan bangunan pentadbiran pun boleh! <3 p="">

five captions less than the actual number of posts. can't retrieve now. later. haha.

jaa ne. 

homecoming within 2 days! 

20140507

arkib negara.

hi.

long time no updates.

am still in the campus.

not going back. yet. maybe. ha-ha.

well. back to the issue of this entry. i sent an e-mail to the webmaster of arkib negara.

why? weeks ago i thought that i heard someone mentioned that we can send our things there to be kept. yeah. notebooks. diaries. such documents. so... i'm thinking about sending mines there too! :D

but, when i explored the website, keeping one diaries not mentioned in the service or function of the arkib negara.

^_^" unless if i made a significant history in this country.

hee.

ok.

just wait for the reply from the webmaster!

happy revision week! :)

20131028

HE knows best

thinking of the past,
there're some; full of aversion
there're some; unwanted to be remembered; embarrassing
there're some; forgotten
most of the time, i do want to forget everything.
and, yet,
sometimes, am grateful for the past.

thinking of the future,
planned; unsure
going on with the flow; unsure
unknown; unsure
and, i have the present.

i do wanna cherish the present
without tracing back to the past
without foreseeing the future
in a phrase; without worry
and, yes, worry ends when faith begins.

at some points,
the yesterdays i want to forget; because of today,
the tomorrows i am afraid of; because of today,
doubting my self; looking for the tangled parts i didn't untie and did overlook; self-checking.

unsecured.
unlovable.

finally,
to repent is the best way to mend,
to know that i live to die, 
to apologise to release the guilt,
to forgive to let go,
to live for Him, 
and,
the journey has winding ways. 

to summarise,
have faith; 
He knows best
in the past
in the present
in the future
full stop. 


20111218

bosan?

By the Glorious Morning Light, And by the Night when it is still,- Thy Guardian-Lord hath not forsaken thee, nor is He displeased. And verily the Hereafter will be better for thee than the present. And soon will thy Guardian-Lord give thee (that wherewith) thou shalt be well-pleased. Did He not find thee an orphan and give thee shelter (and care)? And He found thee wandering, and He gave thee guidance. And He found thee in need, and made thee independent. Therefore, treat not the orphan with harshness, Nor repulse the petitioner (unheard); But the bounty of the Lord - rehearse and proclaim! (93:1-11)


By the Night as it conceals (the light); By the Day as it appears in glory; By (the mystery of) the creation of male and female;-Verily, (the ends) ye strive for are diverse. So he who gives (in charity) and fears ((Allah)), And (in all sincerity) testifies to the best,- We will indeed make smooth for him the path to Bliss. But he who is a greedy miser and thinks himself self-sufficient, And gives the lie to the best,- We will indeed make smooth for him the path to Misery; Nor will his wealth profit him when he falls headlong (into the Pit). Verily We take upon Ourselves to guide, And verily unto Us (belong) the End and the Beginning. Therefore do I warn you of a Fire blazing fiercely; None shall reach it but those most unfortunate ones Who give the lie to Truth and turn their backs. But those most devoted to Allah shall be removed far from it,- Those who spend their wealth for increase in self-purification, And have in their minds no favour from anyone for which a reward is expected in return, But only the desire to seek for the Countenance of their Lord Most High; And soon will they attain (complete) satisfaction. (92:1-21)

bosan. aku teringat, ada dalam salah satu entri ketika zaman habis sekolah menengah 3 tahun yang lalu, aku pernah mengingatkan temanku mengenai kesibukan... kesibukan saudara-saudara di Palestin. hu. hu.

dan cuti kali ini, sungguh, tiada perkataan yang boleh menggantikan perkataan bosan itu. dan aku malu sendiri kerana setiap kali terdetik bosan dan ingin melafazkan dua suku kata itu, aku teringat pesanku kepada teman tersayang itu tiga tahun yang lalu. Allah kan marah kita cakap tak serupa bikin? :(

dan begitu juga samanya setiap kali mendengar lagu-lagu... kenapa? lagu yang baik-baik macam Number One For Me by Maher Zain... kau baca lirik lagu tu... if i could.. if i could... mom i'm all grown up now... ilal aakhir. aku terasa mahu menyanyi bersama VLC media player ini, tetapi tersekat. sebab sepanjang cuti ini, have i really made ummi smile? have i really put a smile on her? :(

apabila bosan... nak aje aku quote apa yang dah Rnysa quote dalam Love Ride of Hikari... cerita Hazel dan Umar... tapi tak boleh quote sebab buku tu tak ada. tapi ada satu quote aku jumpa di plain.not.

kesibukan fisik dapat membantu banyak memutus kesibukan hati memikirkan banyak hal , pikiran yang hanya mengundang kesedihan- Sunset Bersama Rosie, Tere Liye.
ok. mungkin isi dalam quotation di atas kurang tepat dengan topik kebosanan. tapi boleh dikaitkan, apabila anda tidak ada apa-apa untuk difikirkan dan dilakukan, maka fikiran anda akan menerawang jauh, jauh dan jauh! itu sekurang-kurangnya fikir jugak.. huhu.

macam aku, cuti kali ini, serius aku kata, terasa null. hu. sedih.

hajat awal cuti, kerja. ha. ha. tapi tak ada orang nak ambil aku kerja! serius. dan ada pulak yang boleh ambil kerja tapi tak kena dengan syarat aku sendiri la. hu. antara syarat sendiri tentu-tentulah berprinsip. contohnya tempat kerja itu waktu kerja cantek, tak sampai malam, tapi baju kerja pula bermasalah. lengan pendek. masuk dalam seluar. hu. yeaha. di institut macam tak pakai ye? entah. apabila balik rumahku syurgaku automatik lah susah nak buat benda 'lain-lain'. haha. hm...

dan sesungguhnya, apabila menyatakan bosan, aku malu kepada laron, ikan dan semut. :'(

4 minggu yang berlalu dengan malu.

antara perkara yang aku berjaya kenalpasti mengenai ke-bosan-an yang melanda diri aku adalah kerana dua benda; internet dan novel.

cuti-cuti sebelum ini, internet dapat memberikan aku satu 'kepuasan' dan meng'isi' hidup aku di rumah. kenapa? aku boleh baca blog. aku boleh update blog. aku boleh chatting. aku boleh tengok cerita. aku boleh dengar lagu. aku boleh tengok gambar. aku baca surat khabar dan isu semasa. tapi sekarang.......

aku dapati semua tu tak dapat memenuhi 'kehendak' aku. tak dapat meng'isi' aku. seorang aku yang terasa 'kosong' tidak ter'isi' lagi dengan semua tu. chatting? dah tak ada siapa sangat dah yang betul-betul sempat nak chatting. sebab ramai dah sedar tanggungjawab masing-masing. aku sendiri pun serba salah nak menyapa. nak cakap apa kalau sapa? hu. :( blog? baca blog pun terasa macam semua blog topik macam tu je? :( teruknya aku tika ini. ada juga yang menarik, tapi, paaaaaaaanjaaaaaaaaaaaaanggnyaaaaaaaaaaa! dengar lagu? semua lagu yang aku dengar buat aku lagi rasa useless... dengar lagu ni.. tapi x buat pun?!

cuti-cuti sebelum ini lagi.. biasanya aku habiskan masa dengan membaca. ya. marathon jugak novel... kali ni, banyak juga novel/genre buku lain aku belum habiskan. OK. buku yang genre selain novel memang jarang aku habiskan cepat pun! kau tahu kan? tapi novel... aku dapati jalan cerita novel sekarang teramat tipikal. hu. walaupun dulu aku merasakan novel terbitan JS terbaik~ tapi tengok juga penulis. hua. sungguh aku rindu hasil kerja penulis2 terawal JS... bukan la tak nak baca hasil kerja orang baru, tapi sebab aku rasa 'kosong' aku tu tak bertambah dan berganda baca hasil lain. hu. dan tak membawa aku ke perspektif lain. deng. aku komen macam bagus kan? hu. aku pun sebenarnya pasang niat nak berkarya... tapi, memikirkan minat membaca aku pun merudum, manakah sumber untuk jadi ilham hasil karya? hu. pemerhatian boleh jadi sumber, tapi aku bukan seorang pemerhati yang baik~ (teringat tips daripada A. Samad Said 3 tahun lalu...)

aku berazam, balik daripada mengiringi remaja-remaja adik-adikku sayang tu, aku tak nak mengeluh bosan lagi! tetapi, masih ada lagi tembok mengeluh bosan itu! hu.

padahal... masa yang ada tu boleh je aku isi dengan benda yang boleh menjadikan aku seorang anak solehah sebenarnya. boleh je aku isi dengan perkara yang mendekatkan aku ke arah membentuk seorang adik dan kakak solehah. boleh je aku penuhkan dengan anasir yang membawa aku menuju ke laluan untuk mengadun seorang tetangga yang solehah. paling penting, masa yang terlalu banyak telah berlalu itu, sebenarnya tanpa aku sedar, aku telah melepaskan peluang untuk berlari infiniti km/jam dalam mengejar ke-solehah-an seorang hamba.

segannya apabila teman bertanya, apa khabar iman?

malu lagi dan malu lagi kepada laron, ikan dan semut.


20110807

oh.

i wanted to scribble at my fs blog. then....

friendster showed its new face after surgery..... i typed my blog URL.... then...

huhu... :( 2nd time having this experience. but, this time it's not that hard. :) still can smile.

it's RAMADHAN! :)

virus ukhuwah. still pending; the process of deleting it. hu.

i choose to be silent. yada. silent kills love. and it also may preserve the some of the candy there. hope the reserved space is still available.

self, kill your ego.
self, stab your selfishness.
self, it's Ramadhan!
dun waste the space with evil things!
it's Ramadhan self!

i ain't good at talking when my emotions conquer my head.
that's why i chose to be silent.
am searching for the exact causes of this conflict.
that's why i chose to be silent.
am too proud to restart again.
that's why i chose to be silent.
there's also something punch my chest.
am healing the bruise; that's why i keep quiet.


20100808

hi there.

peace be upon you.

i don't know what kind of title should i give to this entry.

out of sudden, i remembered something. i was disturbed by... if Syud wrote in her book, 'Teja Aulia', you-know-who, i'll write, i-don't-know-who. he/she is using 016. ok. i'll use he since it's a general thing. i don't know it's a male or female. his first message was, "hi there!" and that time, i was waiting for SMS from anyone in the choir group i was in charge. without thinking much, i replied, "hi. anything i can help?" then, he replied my SMS. err... i realised that i shouldn't reply his message earlier. haha. i was very irrational that time. Vik asked me to call that number to know who. i refused. it's okay lah. since i don't want to make things more complicated. i realised something, usually, when i got message from unknown people, i will just straight away call the number. but... i tried to flashback... since when i'd changed my style? maybe after i'd changed my number. well, it's cheaper now to reply a message. =.=" continue the story, i added the number to my screened number list. haha. that number is the third. =.=" few days later, unintentionally i opened the screened message box. there're two messages from that number. the first was the same as before, "hi there!" the second was in Malay this time. and his words were typed in full spelling. hm. that's all for my introduction. 

o yeah. i'm home. ^.^ arrived home at 6.30a.m. too late. i only got extra bus this time. 

guess what, there're lots of durians in front of the door. oho. last evening, ayah went to the orchard again with ummi and Muhammad. Muhammad got his little boot-like PCK ones but blue in colour. ummi asked me too if i want to go to the orchard. but i didn't have the heart to go. furthermore, i was eating that time. ^^ 

life at the institute is very hectic for me. i don't know why. but that's what i feel. and actually i didn't do anything at all. now, again, i feel like i am strangled by something. i'm not in comfort now. all i can say, i feel the insecurity. there, i feel my academic performance is not good as well as my involvement in other activities. alhamdulillah, i'm still can think using my heart and mind. together. ^^

this semester also i had several conflicts. erh... the more we know about certain or particular thing, object.... i can't finish the line. heh. yada. i have something in my mind. i don't wanna write here. :P 

last week, Shikh Nuruddin Al-Banjari Al-Makki came to the institute. yeah. it's very nice to have him at our place. i don't know what are the precise terms to be used here to describe about the day. but there's one significant thing in me. i miss my school. T.T we used to pray in jamaah in a hall. i used to have that 'good' feeling. i hope i will have another 'good' feeling at the institute. and yes, i'm the one who must strive to create that 'good' feeling. :)

i'd learned many things through out this third semester and people around me especially my roommates, classmates. alhamdulillah for giving me a working mind. 

it's already august 8,2010. 11p.m. my friend and i will depart to Butterworth back. 

hm.

o yeah. busyra! ramadhan is coming! 

i received an SMS from my classmate at APIUM last year, Nurul Asma' binti Abu Bakar, the message was;
Salam! Nama sy Sya'ban! Sy ingin mengingatkn anda bhw jiran sy iaitu Ramadhan akn dtg mengunjungi anda x lama lagi bsama isterinya iaitu Rezki & kedua2 anaknya iaitu Sahur & Iftar! Mrk akn ditemani oleh ketiga2 cucunya iaitu Rahmat, Barakat & Keampunan... Mrk akn pulang slpas 30 hari dgn menaiki pesawat Eid airlines... Hargai mereka & Anda akn mndpt berkat! Insya Allah.
AHLAN WA SAHLAN YA RAMADHAN. 

comel kan? cik diah and cik hada said so. :) 



thus, let's greet ramadhan.

self, be strong. :) 
we're here to have tests. ^^ 
and spread the rahmah worldwide. (",)
never give up for HIS hope. =]

all the best for all!

pst... i didn't broadcast my homecoming news this time. haha. just wanna be at home. :) 

20090711

karma.

peace be upon you.

analogi aku... urm. analogi tu pengibaratan kan?
aku nak ajak kita-kita semua renungkan satu keadaan.
omo... aku joined plurk. well, plurk ni, semakin kita aktif, semakin kita punya ramai kawan dan fans, karma itu akan naik dan terus naik. walaubagaimanapun, kalau kita punya plurk tu flooding, karma itu akan turun. bila kita tak on plurk untuk beberapa hari, karma juga akan turun. kecuali, bagi mereka yang freezekan karma diorang.
main game, semakin kita menang, semakin banyak score kita.
main brute, ada tiga benda kena kumpul. victory, kelajuan dan entah apa dia. cara nak kumpul? kena ajak orang lain join, kena menang banyak kali, dan lain-lain cara lagi.
bayangkan, score yang kita dapat tu, karma yang kita kumpul tu, adalah pahala. bagaimana?
muhasabah.
nyesel lagi. ikut plurk, karma boleh difreezekan.BESTnyakan, andai iman dan pahala tu boleh freeze? bila rasa down je, iman boleh freeze. mesti seronok. kasihan la syaitan dan nafsu.
:) itu aje yang aku nak ajak kita fikir.

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barang, dah separuh dah dikemas. ada lagi separuh belum settle.
hijrah ini, bukan untuk diri sendiri semata.
hijrah ini, ada sebabnya.
hijrah ini, bermatlamat.
ada paksinya.
semoga nyalaan semangat itu tidak pernah padam, walau dihembus angin, ditabur pasir.

ignorance is not bliss. in MY opinion.
betapa tidak peduli aku selama sebulan, aku tak tahu apa sedang terjadi.
isu murtad yang menggila. isu hijab yang sudah pada kemuncak.
kamu tahu mengenai Marwa al Sherbini?
sudahkah sedar mengenai kes Natrah?
michael jackson semua tahu.
kisah 'orang puaka', pun semua tahu.
pemergian Fathi Yakan?
oh duniaku! yang menyempit.
ignorance is not bliss. i'm not that pure. i'm still not free from black dots in and on the heart.

hu. hu. bila aku menulis begini, aku tidak reti menyatakan sesuatu kenyataan. ^-^

masih ada waktu.

selamat jalan. ^-^

semalam, ibu saudaraku, mak ngah sudah kembali.
30 Jun 2009 lalu, moyangku Tok Wan yang pernah aku ceritakan.


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ada lagi satu benda. makanan ruji kita, umumnya nasi kan?
omo... sedap tak kalau makan nasi sahaja?
mesti nak tambah laukkan? sayur ke... budu ke... cencaluk ke... sambal belacan ke... tempoyak ke...
baru sedap!
begitu juga makanan rohani kita. kena ada tambahannya juga. ;)

ok. semoga entri ini ada manfaatnya untuk semua.




20090507

batas berblog.

well. aku dapat tahan dari segala benda yang aku nak away - tercatat pada blog friendster- hanya untuk 24 hours.

ilham nak tulis batas berblog, terima kasih kepada encik Jackster, saya baca blog beliau melalui blog k.tiqah, my beloved senpai. ^-^

apa yang aku nak tulis ni berdasarkan pengalaman aku sendiri. yang telah berlaku lebih kurang
[mungkin tepat] tiga tahun yang lalu.

aku mula berblog empat tahun lalu. hu.

sedikit latar belakang perisitiwa;

masa tu aku berkrisis dengan kakak aku yang memang aku suka cari krisis dengan dia. beliau.
aku taip ar dalam blog kat friendster. dan sebenarnya, aku tak tulis la hakikat sebenar peristiwa.
namun, orang yang dekat dengan kami, mungkin dapat hidup jika benar mengenali kami.
heh. kat sekolah pun memang kami selalu buat krisis. haha. hurnm.

pada satu malam, tiba-tiba ummi panggil. beliau ada sekali jugak.

ummi tegur lah anak beliau ni... aku lah tu. ya lah, pasal tulis hal-hal peribadi dalam blog.
satu dunia baca. mana nak tau ada orang yang kenal baca. hal-hal peribadi, maksudnya hal-hal
yang tak patut tersebar ke luar rumah, yang aku faham. hurnm.

peribadi maksudnya... apa ya? kejap nak tanya encik google.

Bersinonim dengan perseorangan, persendirian, diri sendiri, kedirian, seseorang, batang tubuh, prebet, oknum;,

peribadi - kamus pelajar ;
1 manusia sbg dirinya sendiri; orang di luar tugas-tugasnya yg rasmi; orang perseorangan: Itu soal ~ku, engkau jangan campur. 2 sifat atau sikap seseorang yg sudah sebati dgn dirinya; seluruh sifat dan sikap seseorang yg membezakannya drpd orang lain: Puasa bertujuan membentuk ~ yg tinggi. keperibadian perihal sifat, sikap dsb seseorang (sesebuah negara dll) yg membezakannya drpd yg lain: Tiap-tiap negara di Asia Tenggara mempunyai ~nya masing-masing.

sumber : http://prpm.dbp.gov.my/carian.aspx?cari=peribadi&domain=PRPM

terima kasih kepada : http://www.lepak-it.com/2008/07/11/kamus-online-bahasa-melayu-percuma/


masa tu, aku, tak payah cakap lah. mata kalau boleh nak membunuh.
lidah kalau boleh nak memancung.
kaki kalau boleh nak berlari.
haha. kelakar pulak. kelakar yang sarkastik.

jadi, selepas ditegur oleh queen of the house, of the kingdom, aku pun baca buat kali terakhir entri
tersebut, terus delete. tak tau la owner friendster delete ke tak kan, mane nak tau dia simpan. huhu.

maka, selepas itu, aku sudah tawar hati, agak la, nak bergila-gila dalam blog. he.

memang selepas itu agak tak gila pun. aqal dan otak dikurniakan untuk berfikir. huhu.

memang aku hilang 'merdeka' dalam persepsi aku untuk spill and out, dalam blog.

tapi, still, aku suka blog. har3.

kenapa?

selain berkongsi idea, dapat buat brainstorming [apa dalam BM? perah idea kan?], macam momo
kata,

salah satu cara keep in touch dengan orang lain. ^-^

kan fatin? ^^ (cozy)
ikutkan geram perasaan, entri "adakah ini emo?" tu tentu aku akan cerita dari A-Z,
alif ila ya, 0-9... namun, fikirkan peribadi itu. huhu. bukan peribadi aku seorang. :)

aku hidup bermasyarakat.

heh. ingat tu. hidup... hati, hidup bermasyarakat!

o ya,

selamat hari lahir mu'allimah sakinah! semalam. 090506.

apa-apa pun, ini, aku ingin berkongsi sahaja. harap ada manfaatnya. ^-^

lagi satu, saya suka kamu yang membaca komen entri saya! he3.

bagi aku, agak kecewa juga bila entri kita tak ada orang komen. betul tak blogger yang sedang
membaca? lain la macam orang tu, terus tutup ruang komen. ya lah, tak nak orang komen kan.

he. he. he.

okayh. =)

20090414

sejarah berblog.

AMARAN : dahulukan perkara anda yang lebih utama.


blog. aku mula belajar buat blog pada tahun 2005. masa tu e-novel sedang dimasak. maksudku mula dikenali ramai.
bagaimana aku dapat pengaruh blog? setakat yang aku senaraikan ;

- e-novel. teringin nak buat cerita sendiri la kononnya. aku memang tulis satu cerita mengenai diari seorang budak sekolah. cuma tak ada sambutan. haha.

- kakak aku. tiba-tiba aku baru tahu kakak sulung aku ada blog.

- diari rahsia. konon nak buat satu diari rahsia yang orang tak tahu la cerita hidup siapa itu.

- penulis e-novel dan kawan-kawannya ; k.eita, hlovate, k.aisyah (itikquack), k.rubyhazri, gengsko, along rufaidah. merekalah pengaruh utama masa tu. maksud aku yang mencetuskan aku nak buat blog. he3.

blog pertama adalah pada laman friendster. tak lama lepas tu, aku delete. kemudian aku create lagi sekali. sampai sekarang blog itu masih ada. blog friendster ni memang fleksibel sikit. boleh kata segala benda aku letak kat situ.

kemudian buat blogdrive. tak minat dengan blogger masa tu. haha. sebab leceh kena banyak guna HTML code untuk skin la apa lah. blogdrive masa tu rasa senang la. lagipun aku berguru dengan owner blogdrive ; k.eita. ^-^

masa tu memang active dua blog itu aje. 2005-2006. akhir tahun 2006, tiba-tiba yahoo! adakan yahoo! 360. aku, apa lagi. taram je join. segala benda nak join. masa tu jugak hi5 adakan journal. yahoo! 360 tu ada blog jugak. aku isi jugak la sikit kat situ. setakat ni entri kat situ english dan emo. tak sampai 20 pun lagi entri kat situ.

2007, tambah satu blog dekat blogdrive, khas untuk karya-penulisan aku. pastu tiba-tiba aku rasa nak privatekan blog itu. he. buat blogspot kat blogger. isi entri cerita Mujahidah ; A good girl prays to Allah. cerita ini la cerita yang aku frust menonggeng tu. [klik]

erm. ada jugak dekat multiply rasanya satu blog. heh. memang.

2008, cari bahan. masuk ke satu laman wordpress. tapi tak boleh masuk. sebab private. pastu dia keluar la arahan jika anda ingin membaca bla3 tu. aku pun join la. tapi tak create lagi la blog kat situ.

akhirnya, 2008, setelah aku koreksi entri-entri aku pada blogdrive active ku itu, aku rasa... urm.
cam, bermanfaat ke blog aku ini? heh. rasa nak delete. rasa m.a.l.u gak ar dengan entri-entri aku kat situ.

namun, aku fikir, tak jadi masalah sebenarnya. itu la risiko blog. satu dunia tahu. satu dunia baca.

2007, aku mula aktif program 'budak-budak baik'. blog pun hangat diperkatakan sebagai medium mengajak orang ke arah kebaikan. masa tu tak berbekas pun. katalah apa pun. heh.

biasanya, orang buat blog ni nak curahkan isi hatinya secara rahsia. tak nak orang tahu. as aku pernah mengalami ini. kemudian, adik-beradik dapat korek URL. maka tinggal habuk je ar. hahaha. susah buat blog tak nak bagi orang tahu, tambahan lagi pulak guna satu komputer yang sama. tiada rahsia lagi. ha3. we share everything. ha3.

aku jadi macam terfikir, hipokrit ... aku tak suka guna perkataan hipokrit sebenarnya. perkataan itu menyakitkan. dan ciri-ciri hipokrit itu sama lah dengan ciri-ciri munafik. na'udzubillahi mindzalik!

aku terfikir, aku ada banyak blog. dan dalam blog-blog tersebut lain la cara aku. haha. macam dalam blog ini (yang sedang anda baca) nampak cam 'baik' gitu. dalam blog friendster lain ar. entahnya. personality disorder? ye la kut.

main point aku, TUJUAN blog.

tak kisah la kita nak isi apa dengan blog kita tu.

tak kisah la kita nak tulis bahasa apa dalam blog kita tu.

tak kisah la kita nak buat apa-apa dengan blog kita tu.

tak ada orang kisah. tapi as a muslim, kita kena ada setting yang betul. buat benda tanpa niat adalah sia-sia.

teringat aku tengok cerita Dari Mata Arisa kat tv2 (dah lama tak tengok. haha.) Arisa tu kantoi dengan heronya, nama Akif. Akif tanya apa entah. aku lupa ayat tanya dia. Arisa jawab,

"saya tak berniat encik Akif." Akif kata,

"oh, jadi semua benda awak buat tak ada niat. awak tak fikir dulu bla3.." lebih kurang la.

hurnm. dah la tak berniat, pulak kena ayat tak fikir tu. huhu. TAK FIKIR. hurnm.

kelebihan niat sangat la banyak. kelebihan niat yang baik la. niat yang jahat kurang kelebihannya dan membawa kepada kebinasaan.

hadith pertama Imam An-Nawawi pun pasal niat.
Daripada Amirul Mukminin Abu Hafsin 'Umar ibn al-Katthab r.a. beliau berkata: Aku mendengar
Rasulullah SAW bersabda:
Bahawa sesungguhnya setiap amalan itu bergantung kepada niat, dan bahawa sesungguhnya bagi setiap
orang apa yang dia niatkan. Barangsiapa yang hijrahnya menuju kepada Allah dan RasulNya, maka
hijrahnya kepada Allah dan RasulNya. Barangsiapa yang hijrahnya kerana dunia yang dia mahu
mencari habuannya, atau kerana seorang perempuan yang dia mahu kahwininya, maka hijrahnya ke
arah perkara yang ditujuinya itu.
Hadis ini diriwayat oleh dua orang Imam Ahli Hadis; Abu Abdullah Muhammad ibn Ismail ibn
Ibrahim ibn al-Mughirah ibn Barzirbah al-Bukhari dan Abu al-Husain Muslim ibn al-Hajjaj ibn Muslim
al-Qusyairie al-Naisaburi dalam kitab sahih mereka berdua yang merupakan antara kitab yang paling
sahih (Al-Imam al-Bukhari meriwayatkannya pada bahagian awal kitab sahihnya, juga dalam Kitab Iman dan beberapa
tempat lain dalam kitab sahihnya. Al-Imam Muslim meriwayatkannya dalam Kitab al-Imarah Bab : إنما الأعمال
بالنية) �� باب قوله ) hadis nombor 1908).


bila baca Riyadhus Solihin, bab pertama pasal niat. banyak lagi hadith pasal niat sebenarnya. kelebihannya sangatlah mendorong kita untuk buat lagi banyak kebaikan! sungguh. berkobar-berkobar.

sama-sama kita make-up balik tujuan asal kita. huuuu...