revision week.

my revision progress is very slow.

finished reading Cat Stevens to Yusuf Islam. :D

found this,

revision.

for exam.

for ramadhan. 

for next semester.

oh. final year!

oh. i want to add what i want...

i want to go to Europe and one of the people i wanna meet is Yusuf. Yusuf Islam. ^_^ 

yeah. what if i go to other places? like Japan, Turkey.. etc. who i want to meet? 

random no. 11

76. "ummi... WSU stands for?"
"Wichita state university... anything?"
"ooo... hehe. just wanna know. i thought it's me. hauauaua"
"perasan!!"


77. muhammad said,
"sunat pun masuk tv?"

"kahwin pun masuk surat khabar?"


78. "thus, we, as we understand the  issue, just keep silent and observe until we have the opportunity to voice out at the right time..."  *ibrah of the story of one khalifah.


79. *please use spongebob squarepants OST tune.

sapo alumni SRI/SMI Aman? 
saya! 

sapo belajar SRI/SMI Aman dulu?
saya!

alumni SRI/SMI Aman namo gapo?
KALAM!

jadi, sapo ahli KALAM?
SAYA! 

80. "sufiyyah zulkifli?"

"yes?"

"zulkifli or zulkafli or...?"

spelling. name.


81. looking forward the January 17th, night! travelling me. may Allah ease. may Allah ease. and i have and i want  to cherish the present. me and time. again. feeling falling down. like leaves. but leaves never hate the wind that causes them to fall (Tere Liye). 

random no. 10

68. before went home. after finished exam. i'd known that imma an adult. haha. yada. realized that ain't a kid that cries for being neglected and ain't young to be a participant or follower forever.

69. i had great time with teenage girls. well.. they're in early of their teen-ages. they're really testing my patience. and i learnt that there are children who will always quote their mother's to compare your actions. and they trust you as a teacher very much when it doesn't go against their mother's or daddy's.
being with them also made me feel... hmm.. well. i was the oldest that time. i was taking care of them. and i was insensitive to be concern about their health condition. imagine, they'd been suffering of diarrhea since morning, and i only knew that in the evening near dusk after being told, not out of my  observation. haihh..

70. know what... when we want to do something, and we do our best to do it and we have clear intention of doing it, we put our priority within what Allah likes and what He forbids us, masha Allah. insya Allah, He's all there for us. try to reflect our life in this year 2013. is there any events we feel it's like miracle? if we did, istighfar and say alhamdulillah. ^_^

71. driving. there are two challenges which are testing my patience and testing my egomania characteristics. for me, it's very annoying if u're on the right lane and u're not speeding up. then, it's the same if u're changing ur directions without signals. haha. i don't mind if u're overtaking me if u mind the two things i'd mentioned. =p
and i haven't finished my B2 license biz. ~_~

72. finished three novels so far after ar-raqaiq. started cahaya di atas cahaya, though. reading oki's piece triggers me to have the intention to further my studies at Ummul Qura!! hmmmm....

73. am happy. about something. because there's a reason for dia to text me. *sounds desperate, i know* but am happy.

74. am annoyed. two different events. and i have done my declaration. i am training myself to be a person who left the said things behind for something bad. if i say i wanna stop, please, leave me alone. help me to stop. u think why did i declare? bcoz i hope u understand. so, don't disturb me. u think why did i apologize? bcoz i wanna let go the bad feelings and to forget. thus, please, don't even say anything about that particular issue anymore and it's worst for me if u're trying to explain more. sorry, i would be frozen if u did. to let go and to forget because i wanna maintain our relationship and i have realized my mistakes three.

Ar-Raqa'iq.

Ar-Raqa'iq by Muhammad Ahmad Ar Rasyid. Robbani Press.

i don't know the title in English. Pelembut Hati or Penghalus Jiwa are the translation into Malay version.

i borrowed this book from my mother in my current happy circle family. :)

i finished reading this book on Muharram 1st, 1435, in the morning. alhamdulillah.

i have borrowed this book since the previous semester. he. he. well. this book is too... hmmm... it makes the feeling of the guilt of sins arouse. that makes me feels very... makes me not to deserve to do this, to do that, to live in this life (feels dirty? kinda)... nevertheless, it doesn't demotivate me till i feel like ending my life. there're hope. there're rooms of improvement.

it motivates me with faith.

faith in death. faith in the Judgement Day. faith in the paradise and the hell. 

and... along the way i was finishing the reading, what's been discussed when i sat in my happy circle were kind of coherent with my reading. we discussed about how's our prophet Muhammad s.a.w was taken care by Allah in the events of chest operations, about the alam barzakh (world in grave; the transition from world of life to the Judgement Day)...

there are many sentap-an for the soul in the book. ^_______^"

there are many sya'ir for the soul.

urm. that's all, i think.

yeah. the aim of reading the book was to soften my hard-rock heart.

and i think, the objective is achieved.

next target is to make what i read be implemented in my daily life.

life with faith. yada. that's the hard point. and am afraid. hu-hu.

i'll make some notes regarding some points i think interesting and will be something great to be shared. ^_^ insya Allah.

(yada. i have another paper for examinations. but, i found myself is kinda slacking-lazying-around-not-revising, so, it's better for me to do other things that can improve myself somewhere. hue. i mean my time won't be spent with doing nothing that is really nothing at all like sleeping excessively! T_T may Allah bless. :)

below are the pictures of some pages from the book. enjoy them with your heart. :)

the cover. 

one of the middle pages. BERJIWA BESAR.

what i understand from this, i have to know myself. certainly. what i want? what i aim? my vision? my mission? all sorts of things in me. yet, i still have uncertainties in myself. 

a check-list for self.

BUKAN MALAS. NOT LAZY. NOT BEING SLACK.

to live the life to the fullest is to live at night. hu.

night. live the night!

the beginning point. intention. intention. intention!

to be honoured with the vision and mission. 

vision and mission!

the meaningful sleep.

berkawan biar beribu.
musuh jangan dicari. 

i'll make notes under this subtopic. 

when i was reading this, i was slacking.. how to say.. that time, i actually need to revise (just like now). but, i read this book. when i read this page, the last sentence, i closed the book and immediately i started to revise. T_T afraid. 

islam - berserah diri. 

thus, i know why there're people who really like to do something that seemed to be shouldn't be in their concern, at all.

random no. 8

55.
"let's go to Borneo at the end of this year.."

"woah.. okey.. how much do we need?"

"save about RM*** to RM***..."

"seriously? urm... insya Allah.. we'll see..."


56.
"go buy a smartphone, dear!! it's a need."

"hehe.. i will.. i will... insya Allah.."


57.
"i think i'm going to umrah at the end of this year.."

"urm... that need thousands... who do you wanna bring?"

"hm... i don't know..."


58.
"i wanna buy a smartphone, soon.."

"okay. save your money..."

"can u add some?"

"you can take from another account of yours..."

"do i have much in that account? i don't think so... hueee"

"still can be used to add some.. would be sufficient..."


59.
someone updated her status. i don't like the content of the status. since i know i'm the one who's closely related to the status, it reminded me of what had happened about eight years ago. i asked her to delete. -_- it's better that way.


60.
"what kind of book is Anthem?"

"huh? where is it?" *looking at her hand, Velvet di Durham!!!*

"in the living area.... in the Jemari Seni's plastic bag..."

"hmm... about school students..." in heart, 'sending things without notice, but sarcastic status are not nice, dude.'

Random no. 6

In the name of Allah the most gracious, the most merciful.

39. numbers. i remember in the previous year, people were so amazed by the date 20122012. or 10/11/12. something like that. out of sudden, my thought came to that, those amazing number sequence actually happens in our daily lives. isn't it? where? the answer is, in TIME. ^_^ knock my head too. sure. bird flies, we can see. time flies, we don't see. please cough now. haha.

40. of being a secretary. yeah. i just really don't like to be secretary. but, life goes on. for more than once, i'd been a secretary. i just forgot that, i got that trait in my blood. yeah. dad is a secretary too, in a way. >.< i just found that, i really in tarbiyyah of being a secretary. huhu. i was so liberal... i think, after gave it into a deep thought.

41. Daurah Tullab. write down every event that happened in your life. especially those you found tarbawi value in it. >.<

42. YES4G. i'm in debt. T_T" i need to read the rules and regulations thoroughly and ask the centre about it. because i'm quite confuse with the how they calculate the bills for the post-paid package and for the prepaid package too. i will terminate the post-paid one. can't afford it. -_-"

43. i used to be asking for cards from people around me. normally, the cards meant to be birthday cards, congratulation cards or greeting cards, generally. but, nowadays, we ask for invitation cards! to be specific, wedding invitation cards. haha. am collecting as much as i can for this year. i've received one this year. the invitation cards do make me feel old. grown-ups. huhu. how can't i, when marriage is another indicator of being an adult? ^_^"

44. really want to update this blog and another blog. but, thinking of the length of time spent by me updating blogs, halted me to do so. since, i actually have other obligations need to be fulfilled.

Rabbuna yusahhil.

 45. currently reading Ar-raqaiq. ;') and finishing Jane Austen's popular piece Pride and Prejudice that bought two years ago. -_-" and also Harun Yahya's pieces bought two years ago three! >.<

shoot me, for today.

emo.

i think this is how i am being reminded about intention. about being sincere, again. about being nice to people.

"And remember We took a covenant from the Children of Israel (to this effect): Worship none but Allah.treat with kindness your parents and kindred, and orphans and those in need; speak fair to the people; be steadfast in prayer; and practise regular charity.Then did ye turn back, except a few among you, and ye backslide (even now)."

"Dan (ingatlah wahai Muhammad), ketika Kami mengikat perjanjian setia dengan Bani Israil (dengan berfirman): "Janganlah kamu menyembah melainkan Allah, dan berbuat baiklah kepada kedua ibu bapa, dan kaum kerabat, dan anak-anak yatim, serta orang-orang miskin; dan katakanlah kepada sesama manusia perkataan-perkataan yang baik; dan dirikanlah sembahyang serta berilah zakat". Kemudian kamu berpaling membelakangkan (perjanjian setia kamu itu) kecuali sebahagian kecil dari kamu; dan sememangnya kamu orang-orang yang tidak menghiraukan perjanjian setianya."[Al-Baqarah, 2:23]

6) Anda sentiasa tersenyum penuh gembira dan ceria. Kerana anda tahu, meski amanah dan mehnah di bahu amatlah berat dan menyeksa, namun kerja-kerja yang anda lakukan adalah usaha anda menempah tiket ke sorga. Kerana anda tahu, pasti ada yang akan turut berbahagia melihat senyuman anda. Lebih osem sekiranya senyuman anda bisa pula membuatkan orang lain terus memuji dan mengingati Allah yang Esa. Epik. [Inche Gabbana, 2013]

random no. 5

31. i have found in which part of contribution insya Allah i can do for this community. i would like to go for being with the teens and community service. :)

the first reunion for my junior in SRI Aman batch 14. i was happy to get to know them. may Allah bless their effort. may they see the beauty of ukhuwah inside the reunion. i just really wanna go back to the school and do something.

32. my journey returning to the campus was... it began with that i just missed my ticket on the table in the living room. i forgot for my mineral water for the journey.

33. blood. ahah. i had experienced my first time donating blood. i was very excited to know my blood group! that was my real intention when i let the doctor took my blood in March 2012. i didn't tell the doctor i wanted to know my blood group. i just told her that i wanted to make a blood test. ehe. blame me.

thus, on the Dec 27th, Aqsa Syarif Kelantan had organized 'Semarak Gaza' at KBMall. i was involved. then, i found HUSM doing the donating blood activity? campaign? upstairs. i was soooo hilarious. aha.

one day later, i went to KBMall again. i was not so serious since i was just hoping to know my blood group. but, when this question came to me, "how old are you?"
i was... okay. she doubted my age. i grinned and answered her question. i too thought, maybe she just got instinct that i just wanted to play around. ahah!!! when they asked me my weight, i was trying to escape by hoping that my weight won't allow me  to donate my blood.

i was so lucky that my weight just increased and that i could donate my blood. there u go.

i got to know my blood group. O. ^_^ rhesus is positive.

i was happy. but, i was frustrated when k. arina told me that O- that can donate to everyone. -_-"
i thought myself, tula... dulu belajar Biology main-main!!! bab sel je kau hafal semua kan... bab darah-darah mana kau hafall~

i was  worried when the nurse said she wasn't confident to inject the thing to take out my blood because my blood capillary? vessel? artery? is small and near to the tendon. i figured out that in March the doctor took the blood from my right hand.

Muhammad was with me when i was donating my blood. he looked at blood running out of my left hand. i wished i can record that or at least snapped a picture. ahah.

34. went to Johor. heh. i was so in Tentang Dhiya by Syud when i was trying to search for the setting of place in the novel. yeah. i saw the signboard to go to SK Nong Chik. went to Danga Bay. hahaha. thanks ayah. visited the little Aynie Munirah. then, gotta know little information about leukemia. AML, ALL. chemo. got opportunity to drive in Mersing. thanks again ayah for your trust. i took that as an honour. >.< visited the Taman Buaya near the Pasir Gudang port, i guess.

home. the morning we left it for Johor.

how the water drops clear the mirror yet it didn't get wet.

Kg. Wak Leman if i'm not mistaken.

i'm an adult. >.<

the dusk from the window of Masjid Sultan Abu Bakar JB, ladies' section.

Danga Bay. i don't really like it, after all. :)

35. i went to a village near to the river. ahaha. my home is actually already near the river. but, i just... wanted to be at a place far away from anyone knowing my family members; far or near. however, still, i just couldn't touch the river water. even to look at the river!!!

this is not yet the river... T_T

please rotate this yourself. ahah. bianata.

very insensitive.. =_=" go green please.

i wish that i have the gut to run through the bushes and reach near the river!!!

browny greens.

36. i had involved with Aqsa Syarif... okay. i just don't know what to say. what to express. how to express with words about this. but, i was happy and i know i have to and want to improve myself for this ummah.

the memories.

37. i just have to find a new pair before it's too late.

38. back to school. all the best Ali Akmal and Muhammad. i hope Muhammad won't experience negatively being compared with others in the family.

i almost write my own name. =.="

just sooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo... smart.

the only elder sister left to be the writer.

unintentionally wrote ayah's name first. =.="

that's all. this is long enough i think after promised in two entries before this. i just couldn't help myself to get an update this blog before 2012 end. :)

of DCs no. 3

20120906 captured from FB. eliciting Yiba beside Aman on the left. hahah. Amad's departing to KL.look at the chubby boy wearing glass, nerd, right?? haha.

20121221 i heard from two dads something about daughters. one is that his daughter would respond better to her friends. two is that his daughter don't know how 'bodek' her father. he.he.he.

20121221 let's smile.

20121221 let's be forgiving toward others no matter what, it's for the sake ourselves in searching for Allah's mercy and blessings.

20121221 am struggling..

20121221 true. it seemed similar about me when i was new to a place, then i just entered another place just earlier than few of my friends and i knew how they felt as the later comer, that i didn't want them to feel what i felt.

20121221 beauty. everyone loves it.

20121222 dushhh!!!

20121223 T________________________T

20121223 i'm taking this again.

20121226 i will.

20121226 hehhhh... hatred with knowledge.  nice.

20121226 the best reminder is death.

20121226 to ponder upon.

20121226 adey. the moment i read this, i was like, so i should delete my blog? deyy~

20121226 but beware of what you are reading... :)

20121222 dush. dush.

am waiting for a transport return home to go somewhere. am already LATE. and i HATE to be LATE. 
i was hit by words i spit. about riding the public transport. =P serve me right. PADAN MUKA.
tomorrow.. am going back to the campus. yuhooo. new room. i'll update random tomorrow insya Allah.