random no. 14

92.  time; age-ing.

it's not eng-age-ing. its AGE-ing. haha. getting old.

following mother to kenduris...

frequently asked questions;

"ini yang no. berapa?"

"umur berapa?"

^________^"

"aunty, how old is your daughter?"

"twenty three..."

"oh. same with me.." i grinned.

"oh. same with you? twenty three?"

ummi interrupted, "born in 1991?"

the daughter, "yes..."

"ha... same." i grinned.

"i thought u're form five!" the mother said.

"u look small (young :P)" ummi's friend's daughter mumbled.

^_^"

before that, at another kenduri...

"Mariah! u look the same!" ummi's friend said. i grinned.

after few words she spoke to me, i told her,

"i will inherit her traits!" haha!

she rubbed my shoulder and said, "yes. of course. u will look young just like your mother."

ha-ha.

when u feel u're getting old because u friends are getting jobs, getting married and having their own children, and people are saying things that makes you feel like you're young forever, it's like drinking bitter Van Houten chocolate powder poured with sweet and thick honey.


93.

- priority.

- urgency.

- important.

it's hard to put them in a hierarchical list. and i usually choose urgency first.


94.

bridge.

i'd love to be a bridge.

to make people get connected.

but, people, please cross me.

a car won't reach its destination if it doesn't move across the bridge.

=)


95.

i tell myself not to count the days. make the days count.

but, i can't resist myself to count the days!

another two weeks for 'eid.

 insya Allah, i'm coming home, after three times celebrating 'eid adha in college, by myself with my friends. :3

^_^

random no. 13 - pre-ramadhan version

88. father.

what happened to my classmate was that, he didn't have the opportunity to meet his father for the last time before the funeral. my friends and i learnt to prioritise our parents more than our own wants in life, whatever it is. (e.g.: we wanted to be posted far from our hometown which would not be in Peninsular of Malaysia, but our parents did not allow us to fill the states in the application form.)

before that sad event, i shared something about father's presence on Facebook. what had happened was, a sister who no longer has a father alive commented on the post. again, i learnt to not really share anything on Facebook blindly.

this year, one of my task in my happy circle was to deliver tazkirah. i chose hadith about orphans in Al-Adab. it was because that time, i came across quite number of students who no longer have a father. and i learnt that orphans; the real definition of anak yatim is for those who've lost the father who used to support the family. the leader of the family.

ummi, ayah, i hope to see you both again before this Ramadhan ends.

and i'll leave ummi ayah under Allah's guardianship just like you both leave me here in His guardianship since five years ago.


89. silaturrahim.

silaturrahim. one of the ways to preserve the tie is to do good towards everyone without hoping for a reply for the deeds. what i meant is hoping for them to do good back to us. ^_^

and, remember that, Allah hate people who cut off the tie. may Allah guide us through and through and guard us from His anger.


90. was not really prepared for Ramadhan this year. am adapting Ramadhan mood.

may Allah bless, people.


91.  So Real by Raef ft. Maher Zain.

Lyrics: Raef, Maher Zain & Bara Kherigi
Melody & Arrangement: Maher Zain
Director: Ross Ching
Producer: Don Le
Actress: Bushra Maghrabi
Dop: Gabriel Lewis
1st AD: Jon Crawford
1st AC: Michael Skor
2nd AC / DIT: Andy Chen
Gaffer: David Lassiter 
Key Grip: Raul Rivera 
Best Boy Electric: Chad Nagel
Best Boy Grip: Gabe Verdesoto
Dolly Grip for Slider: Spencer Smith
Art Director: Erin Riegel
Sand Castle Builder: Greg & Kathy Lebon / Archisand Professional Sand Sculptors, Inc
(http://www.socalsandcastles.com)
Stylist: Angelica Lee
Makeup/Hair: Eva Cortez
Key PA: Justin Vancho
PA: Sam Puefua
BTS Photo / Video: Steven Lam
Special Thanks: Line 204

So Real - Lyrics:

They say that love never lasts
That love never lives to see another day
But what I know deep down inside
It's what I feel and it's so real
I gave it up all for You
And there ain't nothing that I won't do
All I know deep down inside
It's what I feel and it's so real with You!

Chorus:
Allah, everyday I'll try to be as true as I can to You
'Cause loving You the best I can
Will always be my number one and only plan
Yes everyday I'll try to be as true as I can to You
'Cause loving You the best I can
Will always be my number one and only plan

They say: "You're out of your mind"
"Don't you know that love fades away?"
They say: "It only brings you pain!"
But what I feel is so real!
I gave it up and turned to You
'Cause I know what your love can do
O Allah open up our hearts
And make us feel how it's so real with You!

CHORUS

random no. 12

82. al-haya'. the characteristic of shy.
make sure u feel shy to Allah to feel shy because of human. i don't know if shy is literally equal to al-haya'.
my message is, doing something, check, if people see me doing this, what would i feel? ok. why should i feel that way? is there anything so wrong? is it allowed in islam? if it's syar'ie, i don't have anything to be shy or worried if people see me. :)

83. heart. feelings. why u're so uncontollable?! -_-"

84. B2. yada. the license. i've given it up. expired. the L one. so... i can't ride a bike now till Allah knows when. hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm.

85. i don't like to be the shadow. i want to be seen as me. i want to be accepted as me. i want to be known as me. i want to be recognised as me. yes. the right sentence of my discomfort is i don't like to be the shadow. i need a place that is as spacious as a field, not under a tree. and i don't want to be a shade to others, as well. because flowers bloom their best with the sun's presence even though at a shady area. (now am manipulating you! :P)

86. mission: one book read in two days. this mission is not accomplished. and i just have two weeks to go back to the campus. and i don't wanna go back to the campus. T_T final year is scary.

87. went out with my younger bro and two male cousins.
they laughed at girls who are easily shaken when boys disturbed them with sweet-lovey-dovey or show extra concern to them. -_-"
in my heart, guys, that's why u don't need to do all those things. u need to help us to take care of our heart and feelings. T_T

random no. 11

76. "ummi... WSU stands for?"
"Wichita state university... anything?"
"ooo... hehe. just wanna know. i thought it's me. hauauaua"
"perasan!!"


77. muhammad said,
"sunat pun masuk tv?"

"kahwin pun masuk surat khabar?"


78. "thus, we, as we understand the  issue, just keep silent and observe until we have the opportunity to voice out at the right time..."  *ibrah of the story of one khalifah.


79. *please use spongebob squarepants OST tune.

sapo alumni SRI/SMI Aman? 
saya! 

sapo belajar SRI/SMI Aman dulu?
saya!

alumni SRI/SMI Aman namo gapo?
KALAM!

jadi, sapo ahli KALAM?
SAYA! 

80. "sufiyyah zulkifli?"

"yes?"

"zulkifli or zulkafli or...?"

spelling. name.


81. looking forward the January 17th, night! travelling me. may Allah ease. may Allah ease. and i have and i want  to cherish the present. me and time. again. feeling falling down. like leaves. but leaves never hate the wind that causes them to fall (Tere Liye). 

random no. 10

68. before went home. after finished exam. i'd known that imma an adult. haha. yada. realized that ain't a kid that cries for being neglected and ain't young to be a participant or follower forever.

69. i had great time with teenage girls. well.. they're in early of their teen-ages. they're really testing my patience. and i learnt that there are children who will always quote their mother's to compare your actions. and they trust you as a teacher very much when it doesn't go against their mother's or daddy's.
being with them also made me feel... hmm.. well. i was the oldest that time. i was taking care of them. and i was insensitive to be concern about their health condition. imagine, they'd been suffering of diarrhea since morning, and i only knew that in the evening near dusk after being told, not out of my  observation. haihh..

70. know what... when we want to do something, and we do our best to do it and we have clear intention of doing it, we put our priority within what Allah likes and what He forbids us, masha Allah. insya Allah, He's all there for us. try to reflect our life in this year 2013. is there any events we feel it's like miracle? if we did, istighfar and say alhamdulillah. ^_^

71. driving. there are two challenges which are testing my patience and testing my egomania characteristics. for me, it's very annoying if u're on the right lane and u're not speeding up. then, it's the same if u're changing ur directions without signals. haha. i don't mind if u're overtaking me if u mind the two things i'd mentioned. =p
and i haven't finished my B2 license biz. ~_~

72. finished three novels so far after ar-raqaiq. started cahaya di atas cahaya, though. reading oki's piece triggers me to have the intention to further my studies at Ummul Qura!! hmmmm....

73. am happy. about something. because there's a reason for dia to text me. *sounds desperate, i know* but am happy.

74. am annoyed. two different events. and i have done my declaration. i am training myself to be a person who left the said things behind for something bad. if i say i wanna stop, please, leave me alone. help me to stop. u think why did i declare? bcoz i hope u understand. so, don't disturb me. u think why did i apologize? bcoz i wanna let go the bad feelings and to forget. thus, please, don't even say anything about that particular issue anymore and it's worst for me if u're trying to explain more. sorry, i would be frozen if u did. to let go and to forget because i wanna maintain our relationship and i have realized my mistakes three.

random no. 9

61.
Walau hujan badai kan terus melanda
Walau amuk gelombang tak henti menerjang
Walau terang mencegah, walau mentari kan membakar
Jangan letih menapaki kehidupan

Ujian bagaikan terik sinar sang surya...
Hadir kedunia bersama berjuta karunia...
Janganlah bertekuk lutut dalam pelukan putus asa...
janganlah bersimpuh dihadapan duka...

hadapilah segala tantangan...
sambutlah harimu dengan suka cita...
hadapilah segala ujian...
dalam kesulitan pasti ada kemudahan...

by: shoutul harokah

my credit goes to that person who just returned from 'Amman. he keeps playing this song and his alarm is this song!


62.
went to Zoo Negara with Ahmad, Muhammad and 'Ali. with my 'uniform' usually i wear at home or in personal transport. when i said i'm selekeh, that Ahmad replied, "all Islam asks to cover 'aurah..." okay! ha-ha. dush!

i found it's not interesting to go to zoo.

but, while eating ice cream with Muhammad and 'Ali before we went back, i was thinking about the zoo.

yeah. i found that actually i can do something that make me a better servant to Allah.
zoo means plenty of Allah's creatures. all the beautiful. all the cute. all the wild. all the big and tall animals! how proud was i....

and yeah. i actually should observe what's in the zoo.
children and zoo are familiar. am going to be with children, ain't i? that forgotten and proud me again...

in a conclusion, think before i feel. i've wasted my time at the zoo without doing something meaningful! :'(

and am sorry to Muhammad and 'Ali that i didn't bring my camera and didn't ask from Ahmad his camera to snap some pictures of you both! bad sister. 

63.
it's about passion. 8 hours journey. i didn't realise that it's more than two hours! :)
"weren't you afraid or scared?"
"eh? afraid? scared? of what?"
"if you took wrong road..."
"no.... we can turn around if we took wrong road..."

ngeeeeeeeeeeeee. and i'm a morning person.


64.
my lovely bluish sentimental the second was sick.
"operating system can't be found"

i was just... okay.... 

then, sent it to the place where i took it.

after returned from Selangor, it's at ayah's place.

turned it on.

huh? okey. nothing inside.  okay. restless.

no sentimental pictures.
no sentimental values.

yes, i don't have external hard disk! +.+

i was like.... it took me quite a time to get my feet back on the ground with a heart and soul.

later, this thought came into my brain.

you get it back with nothing inside. it's like purifying. doesn't it? you can restart all over again. reinstall all the good stuff for your soul. don't give a dirt into it. you should download Omar Series! Fetih! ehe. you can search again all the ebooks for your soul. won't you? still remember when you lost that Nokia? you have the pros for losing it, right? please, lighten your spirit!! you're not nothing here.


65.
MyGMJ.

cousins; E, Luq, bro in law; abe Syim, Momo, Aman

Masjid Negeri, Shah Alam

things i got... the third brooch i bought since i've lost it twice.

maybe, flashmob.. maybe. haha

credit: Ahmad's blackberry. :P


66.
today. less than 24 hours - time at home. hee. about 24 hours Junaid has gone to his hostel. i miss him. hahah. Junaid!
days with the five younger bros. growing up to be taller and bigger than me.
am losing my appetite. kohf2. it's okey. after nine days, i'll be back. insya Allah! heh.
the best excuse; i've to see the doctor!! =p


67.
school.
something i can't describe with words.
but, i really want to do something. i need to do something. regardless all the trouble i'd known.

random no. 8

55.
"let's go to Borneo at the end of this year.."

"woah.. okey.. how much do we need?"

"save about RM*** to RM***..."

"seriously? urm... insya Allah.. we'll see..."


56.
"go buy a smartphone, dear!! it's a need."

"hehe.. i will.. i will... insya Allah.."


57.
"i think i'm going to umrah at the end of this year.."

"urm... that need thousands... who do you wanna bring?"

"hm... i don't know..."


58.
"i wanna buy a smartphone, soon.."

"okay. save your money..."

"can u add some?"

"you can take from another account of yours..."

"do i have much in that account? i don't think so... hueee"

"still can be used to add some.. would be sufficient..."


59.
someone updated her status. i don't like the content of the status. since i know i'm the one who's closely related to the status, it reminded me of what had happened about eight years ago. i asked her to delete. -_- it's better that way.


60.
"what kind of book is Anthem?"

"huh? where is it?" *looking at her hand, Velvet di Durham!!!*

"in the living area.... in the Jemari Seni's plastic bag..."

"hmm... about school students..." in heart, 'sending things without notice, but sarcastic status are not nice, dude.'

Random no. 7

46. spendthrift. i am. T_T nevermind. today, ayah stopped at a shoes shop to buy new one for himself. then, i remember that i need a new pair of slipper to use for toilet business at hostel, so i went into the shop with ummi ayah and Muhammad. he. he. then, i just looked around. there is stock clearance....hehe. i took one pair of formal shoes worth RM10. haha. well, physically the shoes doesn't seem very new. well. old-stock? never mind. at the end, Muhammad bought one pair of slipper for him like my two pairs! haha.

47. today, i just found that UEFA is going to put Israel in the list. erm. i dunno how to explain this issue, but i understand the issue. if Israel got its name in the list, it seems like the world recognizes it as a country. seemed legal. the truth is Israel robbed Palestine! you may read more in inminds.com.and i was touched to see everyone beyond the race and religion are letting their voices out for Palestine.

48. speaking of Palestine, there'll be a program in this country!!

i do feel like going. but, hmmm.... we'll see. huhu. last year i couldn't join them. i can't remember why, maybe because i was in the campus. but this year, i can see the opportunity with 30% possibility. if you live near Shah Alam, just, please join the people!!

49. Closer and closer to mankind comes their Reckoning: yet they heed not and they turn away.
[Al-anbiya', 21:1]

50. today, we're waiting for Ahmad to arrive home. i was laying on the bed. trying to take a nap. "Gahh!!"
okey. he's arrived. he laughed at our home gate. use remote control everything, but rongak! haha. still can be entered by person.

51. not feeling good to update my goodreads. i think it's near 30 books already i've read. hm.

52. i told Junaid about UEFA - Israel. Junaid replied me why bother? let Israel be in the list. ummi was listening to our conversation. ummi said that Junaid doesn't understand the issue, yet. hmmm.....

53. a reply to an SMS is meaningful eventhough it's just a - :) - or just an - OK - or just a - TQ - appreciate the people sending u an SMS, furthermore if the sender have done u a favour. *me either often reluctant to reply an SMS when we know it's the end of the topic. hee.

54. bringing Muhammad and Ali to a programme... Ali as the participant. Muhammad as my little brother. Muhammad - spoiled, pampered. thanks to the brothers for their favour at the dorm.
Ali - felt threatened by Muhammad, always asked Muhammad to get out of the programme-causing Muhammad to find me with teary eyes. -_- 

Random no. 6

In the name of Allah the most gracious, the most merciful.

39. numbers. i remember in the previous year, people were so amazed by the date 20122012. or 10/11/12. something like that. out of sudden, my thought came to that, those amazing number sequence actually happens in our daily lives. isn't it? where? the answer is, in TIME. ^_^ knock my head too. sure. bird flies, we can see. time flies, we don't see. please cough now. haha.

40. of being a secretary. yeah. i just really don't like to be secretary. but, life goes on. for more than once, i'd been a secretary. i just forgot that, i got that trait in my blood. yeah. dad is a secretary too, in a way. >.< i just found that, i really in tarbiyyah of being a secretary. huhu. i was so liberal... i think, after gave it into a deep thought.

41. Daurah Tullab. write down every event that happened in your life. especially those you found tarbawi value in it. >.<

42. YES4G. i'm in debt. T_T" i need to read the rules and regulations thoroughly and ask the centre about it. because i'm quite confuse with the how they calculate the bills for the post-paid package and for the prepaid package too. i will terminate the post-paid one. can't afford it. -_-"

43. i used to be asking for cards from people around me. normally, the cards meant to be birthday cards, congratulation cards or greeting cards, generally. but, nowadays, we ask for invitation cards! to be specific, wedding invitation cards. haha. am collecting as much as i can for this year. i've received one this year. the invitation cards do make me feel old. grown-ups. huhu. how can't i, when marriage is another indicator of being an adult? ^_^"

44. really want to update this blog and another blog. but, thinking of the length of time spent by me updating blogs, halted me to do so. since, i actually have other obligations need to be fulfilled.

Rabbuna yusahhil.

 45. currently reading Ar-raqaiq. ;') and finishing Jane Austen's popular piece Pride and Prejudice that bought two years ago. -_-" and also Harun Yahya's pieces bought two years ago three! >.<

random no. 5

31. i have found in which part of contribution insya Allah i can do for this community. i would like to go for being with the teens and community service. :)

the first reunion for my junior in SRI Aman batch 14. i was happy to get to know them. may Allah bless their effort. may they see the beauty of ukhuwah inside the reunion. i just really wanna go back to the school and do something.

32. my journey returning to the campus was... it began with that i just missed my ticket on the table in the living room. i forgot for my mineral water for the journey.

33. blood. ahah. i had experienced my first time donating blood. i was very excited to know my blood group! that was my real intention when i let the doctor took my blood in March 2012. i didn't tell the doctor i wanted to know my blood group. i just told her that i wanted to make a blood test. ehe. blame me.

thus, on the Dec 27th, Aqsa Syarif Kelantan had organized 'Semarak Gaza' at KBMall. i was involved. then, i found HUSM doing the donating blood activity? campaign? upstairs. i was soooo hilarious. aha.

one day later, i went to KBMall again. i was not so serious since i was just hoping to know my blood group. but, when this question came to me, "how old are you?"
i was... okay. she doubted my age. i grinned and answered her question. i too thought, maybe she just got instinct that i just wanted to play around. ahah!!! when they asked me my weight, i was trying to escape by hoping that my weight won't allow me  to donate my blood.

i was so lucky that my weight just increased and that i could donate my blood. there u go.

i got to know my blood group. O. ^_^ rhesus is positive.

i was happy. but, i was frustrated when k. arina told me that O- that can donate to everyone. -_-"
i thought myself, tula... dulu belajar Biology main-main!!! bab sel je kau hafal semua kan... bab darah-darah mana kau hafall~

i was  worried when the nurse said she wasn't confident to inject the thing to take out my blood because my blood capillary? vessel? artery? is small and near to the tendon. i figured out that in March the doctor took the blood from my right hand.

Muhammad was with me when i was donating my blood. he looked at blood running out of my left hand. i wished i can record that or at least snapped a picture. ahah.

34. went to Johor. heh. i was so in Tentang Dhiya by Syud when i was trying to search for the setting of place in the novel. yeah. i saw the signboard to go to SK Nong Chik. went to Danga Bay. hahaha. thanks ayah. visited the little Aynie Munirah. then, gotta know little information about leukemia. AML, ALL. chemo. got opportunity to drive in Mersing. thanks again ayah for your trust. i took that as an honour. >.< visited the Taman Buaya near the Pasir Gudang port, i guess.

home. the morning we left it for Johor.

how the water drops clear the mirror yet it didn't get wet.

Kg. Wak Leman if i'm not mistaken.

i'm an adult. >.<

the dusk from the window of Masjid Sultan Abu Bakar JB, ladies' section.

Danga Bay. i don't really like it, after all. :)

35. i went to a village near to the river. ahaha. my home is actually already near the river. but, i just... wanted to be at a place far away from anyone knowing my family members; far or near. however, still, i just couldn't touch the river water. even to look at the river!!!

this is not yet the river... T_T

please rotate this yourself. ahah. bianata.

very insensitive.. =_=" go green please.

i wish that i have the gut to run through the bushes and reach near the river!!!

browny greens.

36. i had involved with Aqsa Syarif... okay. i just don't know what to say. what to express. how to express with words about this. but, i was happy and i know i have to and want to improve myself for this ummah.

the memories.

37. i just have to find a new pair before it's too late.

38. back to school. all the best Ali Akmal and Muhammad. i hope Muhammad won't experience negatively being compared with others in the family.

i almost write my own name. =.="

just sooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo... smart.

the only elder sister left to be the writer.

unintentionally wrote ayah's name first. =.="

that's all. this is long enough i think after promised in two entries before this. i just couldn't help myself to get an update this blog before 2012 end. :)

random no. 4

actually i wanted to write a post about J.O.M only. but, after delaying delaying and delaying, the feelings of writing the post with the happy heart faded away. ^_^

28. last week, before off to the Northern Part of Peninsular Malaysia, i tried to cook something delicious. but, the result of my trial wasn't delicious. i was very frustrated. haha. i won't try over that again. it was durian crepe. what is more, after J.O.M, a friend of mine uploaded hers! her durian crepes looked ok. T_T congrats to her. huuu... pictures? i ain't gonna upload them for this entry. keep them for next entry of worldless wednesday.

29. J.O.M. what's that? stands for Journey of Muslims.

banner for the program. nice! ahah.

it's part 5 for brothers. for sisters,  it's the first one. alhamdulillah. everything went well. initially, i refused to join because this time they're going to the North. i'm studying there. so, i felt like, would it be the same? ohoh. ARROGANT me.

but, my teacher coaxed me to go. just few lines. ohoh. yeah. i'm makan pujuk jenis orang.

first three: morning from the peak of Titiwangsa to Sg. Petani
last two: dusk at Kuala Perlis

it was never the same. the journey.... personally, this journey.. how to describe... it's just... ok. meaningful. precious. ohoh.

i saw the beauty of ukhuwah there.

war museum. never be there before, even though studying in Seberang Perai.

i felt the happiness of looking at people i'd known since in the childhood walking in the path of DnT. together. yeah. my tears did gather through the journey.

the participants mostly were the juniors  from the secondary school i attended. knowing them, being with them, made the heart.. in Malay i said it perasaan semangat menggebu-gebu bahagia. like cotton candy.

i learnt so much through J.O.M. alhamdulillah. alhamdulillah. alhamdulillah.

because before i join J.O.M i felt it's like trouble (it's not because of joining the J.O.M actually.. huhu), then, i found it's the better best.. i had this phrase along the journey with me, blessing in disguise. 

30. 2 days ago. i was watching TV. it was before 6 p.m. ayah suddenly invited me to follow him to go to the durian orchard. i wanted~~ but i was reluctant because the drama i'd been following about to start. -_-" ayah said, "sampai bila tak habis tunggu cerita tu..." eheh. expected. so, ok. i went. with Junaid, Muhammad and ayah.

let's go~

walking to collect durian, i was like... i felt like going to a camping site. haha. the experience of mukhayyam (camping) in the previous July came into my mind. the orchard seems like that; jungle. ohoho.

after durians collected, i asked ayah to go near the river bank.

 ^______^ i wish i could go nearer and touch the water.

last, let's go home.

#ihavetosearchforrecordingoftoday'sMHIsinceididn'twatchthatupdatingthisblog. omg.

random no. 3

17. i actually intended to post a dedication entry for yummy, yesterday. happy belated bday sister. :) our prayers always with you sister. just letting you know that you have your own significance/effects in my life, in a way i can't describe and you mayn't realise. :)

18. i just... i'd looked wrongly at the calendar when someone's telling me her important date! oh my! lucky me. i will be with her, insya Allah. ;)

19. kids. i don't know how to tackle them. :( yeah. i prefer to handle secondary school students rather than primary school students. i told the interviewer that time!!

20. May. many things that i wish can be remembered by me all the time actually happened in May. kohf. kohf. omo..

21. i advised myself to not looking back behind me. but, i keep looking back. i found that one my school buddies once said to me to come to her home when i passed my driving license. i'm now a competent driving license holder... thus, to go to her home will be in my list.

22. still remember my randomies no. 8? i found this, yesterday.

23. another duckcapture from facebook.

24. no events outside my hometown. err... i meant. no TOF this year. no Himpunan 1000 Jiwa 1 Hati this year. TOF - obviously no extra budget. :P boo at me. meanwhile, 1kJ1H is about the date. 31st December will be the first date the office gonna distribute new room keys for hostel residents. so, i wish i would be the first person among the residents at the third floor since i want to be the first person opening the reserved room. hahahah.

25. kitchen project. durian crepe!!! please suggest me instant whipped cream brand that is easy to be found in Kelantan specifically. or u can suggest me the best brand for the milk that will be delicious making whipped cream. i hope ur suggested brand won't be in the boycott list. =3

26. sew. i wish i can learn using the sewing machine. ummi's making me skirt. ahah! i like! i just wanna learn to sew a baju kurung manually using hands. i am serious. if u know anyone willing to teach somebody young to inherit her talent, please tell me. i am willing to spend my holidays with her!!

27. this advertisement is for anyone  living in Kota Bharu. please come.

ok. that's all for this entry. my randomies. ahah.

random no. 2

we'll always love You. hu.

that's number ten.

ok.

11. jet lag. yeah. even i'm not studying abroad, when i return home, since the 'eid Fitr break few months ago, i tell myself, i am jet lag in my hometown. the first thing i jet lag is the road system. yada. due to the construction and city development.. Raya break, that time, i just  missed that one junction had turned into a one-way road. this time, i found that i just forgot the traffic light near my school old building. from a way, that road, you can't turn right, i just did last week Sunday. then, near a road to go to my primary school, divider appeared to be there. o my. lucky me that i didn't think to do something crazy like at the traffic light!

the second thing is prayer time. in the Northern part of Malaysia, i recognised that, there, we got prayer time later than in Darul Naim. hmmm... so, i was quite... i just need... it's like... like this... when i live in the Northern Part, i will prepare myself for dusk at this time, but in my hometown, i just need to be earlier. aha. jet lag. ok? although it's just minutes that differ, still, am jet lag. :P

finally, the weather. now, i'm writing about the weather. at the hostel, i lived at the third floor. the hostel surrounded by hills. oh. it's down the hill, in a way. surrounded by green scenery though one of the hills now brown-orange. bald. so, i'm saying, there, i was comfortable. with the temperature in the room. ok. nice. outside the room, on the ground, my skin still felt the pain by sun light ok?  when i arrived home for this break, i found that, at night, it's just too hot. o my. too warm. yes. after near one week, i told ummi. then, ummi answered me that we have less trees around our home now. and, when i was typing about my jet lag toward the road system just now, i just realized, the development actually contributed to the temperature changes in my home, too, right! so, my pride to look at the road building decreased. i love nature more.

12. boycott. i support boycott. i was trained educated about boycotting israel since i was young; as far as i remember, since i was in early secondary school. and i have my faith in boycott. last evening, ummi and i fetch Momo at KB. then i was like looking forward to see the condition of McD in our city... ummi told me, we don't have McD in Kota Bharu. it's moved to Wakaf Che Yeh. i asked, even in Tesco, no McD? ummi said, no. ok. that made me relieved. and am proud that KB has no McD. pfft.
 we are not Tesco's customers either. am proud of it.
ok. after i googled McD in KB, i just forgot other places. KB Mall. -_-" hahaha. boo. Jalan Tok Hakim. Taman Sekebun Bunga. ding dong. ah!! *frust*


13. kids. i really want to practice myself to be communicating with them. but, i found that i can't perform with people who knows my family members. i can't perform when i'm near my family. i don't know. but this syndrome is getting on my nerve more more more and more when i'm getting older. not only regarding of communicating with kids la, anything about performing my skills or anything in the same meaning or scope. am sorry.

14. DnT. i just feel these entries;
http://bulatansyurga.blogspot.com/2012/11/wahai-ukhti.html
http://syafiqahrahmat.blogspot.com/2012/11/hijab.html
http://imagining-life.blogspot.com/2012/11/wake-up-call.html

15. i found that Rudy Hirdy's pieces; Aku Bukan Nabi, Dia Bukan Nabi are like male chauvinism? hehe. but, i like the story. :)

16. visit Iman and her baby girl named Aisyah! oho. 2 A.M. tomorrow, they're going back to Jordan. have  a safe journey Iman and her baby and her mother. :)

jaa.

random no. 1

these captured my sight that day. subhanallah.

1.
blog. just to tell you, i'd changed the font type for two blogs of mine. i just feel like to be more formal.

2.
i went to Selangor for three days. Rawang; Rawang Perdana 1 & Kota Bidari. Bandar Seri Putera.  i wish i could have gone  to Taman Tasek. :'|

3.
i had browsed one of next year course proforma on the first day i arrived home. (>.<) i found the topics are not my cup of tea. again. rabbuna yusahhil.

4.
today, after or before going to riadhah with my sweet akhawat, i saw Syed Abdul Kadir Al-Jofree. ok. i only know him through TV and internet. so, i googled his name. ok. now, i know why he's here, in this city. :)  

5.
i was in the MPV with ummi, ayah, 'Ali and Junaid. we're on the way to Rawang. Muhammad asked me,
"Yah, do u know the meaning of Al-Bayyinah?"

i was... yada. i couldn't answer that question! what a shame. and, that just meant for me to seek for knowledge more and more. ummi saved me. ummi answered the question. *cry*

6.
i am giving up on driving. and yes, i found it's irritating to drive when i don't have my passengers' trust in me. either trust for my driving skills or for how i make the wheel moving (using the vehicle).... i too can't really drive properly when i am disturbed emotionally. when i find you are doubting my driving, i won't drive you. sorry. yes. i'm dependent to your trust toward me. so, please don't ask me to drive when you don't trust me in any aspect.
yeah. i found two types of people speaking of this thing. i won't elaborate here. b'coz ain't whining~ it's some kind of frustration. yes. i am that person who's easily frustrated when i find human don't trust me. no, i don't blame you.

7.
books influenced me. so much. much. much. i maybe a reader who takes points in a book bluntly. but, i believe that the author doesn't simply write. so, authors out there, if you find me reading your book, please take my words, i trust you. ok. there're writers i don't really believe in. yeah. when the story is just illogical. the plot is not well planned. typical. over-loaded with fantasy. then, i can't accept that. ok. i'm criticizing you, writers!! shoot me now.

8.
parents should be aware that children are influenced by them. parents, people who have custody to take care of any child should be aware of their influence. the way the parents/guardians act toward their spouses too affects the child, it may not be physically, but mentally and emotionally. thus, be careful. the child maybe a toddler, kid, teenager or even an adult.

9.

i captured this tree. when my akhawat arrived to fetch me, one of them captured the picture of this tree  too.

 
i asked her, why this tree?

she gave me simple answer, interesting.

before i captured this, i was thinking about this tree. yes. just like the sister  said, it's interesting.

for me, it's interesting as the (believe me, i just googled to know parts of tree) trunk, branches look dry. isn't it? but, it still producing beautiful flowers. at the tip of the branches. high. looking up to the sky. it's just, masha Allah.in additional, there on the ground surrounding the trunk, that is the house of termites...

i tried to link the condition of the tree to my current life. to myself. urm.

that's all.

happy holiday! (to me :P)

insya Allah, will be updating more entries. :)