bulan Jun.

yeah. bulan Jun sekali saja dalam setahun.

cuaca sekarang ini angin bertiup ganas menyebabkan tempias hujan ke dalam rumah; tempat aku duduk menaip entri ini, kedengaran guruh berderum-derum di luar rumah, hujan menimpa bumi serta bumbung rumah dengan kelajuan yang mungkin hampir maksima.

suasana rumah, aroma roti bersalut telur goreng *la haula wala quwwata illa billahil 'aliyyil 'azim* [kedengaran guruh!!! ke pelaka? er.. ] merebak dibawa udara bergerak dalam rumah sehingga ke tingkat atas.

bulan Jun. minggu lepas, aku termenung sendirian. ada apa dengan bulan Jun? ia semacam menjentik sesuatu di ruang yang tidak dapat terlihat dan terdengarkan dek pancaindera yang zahir pada diri aku. [perh...............................]

aku selongkar entri aku dalam blog ini. aku temui entri Jun dua tahun yang lepas. bukan aku nak suruh korang baca, aku sedang bercerita ni!! ok. dua tahun yang lepas, Jun. cuti sekolah. ya. cuti sekolah. tanggal 4 Jun pada tahun tersebut, rupa-rupanya ada berita gembira yang aku dapat. ha. ha. peluang menyambung pelajaran ke tahap seterusnya selepas sekolah menengah.

seterusnya, 8 Jun; hari yang kelam kabut itu, aku sudah mendaftarkan diri. tidak lama selepas itu, dapat keputusan temuduga untuk di mana aku belajar sekarang. hue. pendek je ceritanya. tapi, tiba-tiba aku rasa Jun ni macam nostalgic pada aku. dua manusia kesayangan sejak kecil aku, lahir pada bulan ini.

aku jugak terfikir-fikir, kenapa cuti bulan Jun tahun ini, terasa sangat lain? terasa ada sesuatu yang tak sesuai dengan puzzle yang aku nak padankan. aku akhirnya jumpa jawapannya! nak tau apa dia? tahun lepas aku ke MISI!!! Mukhayyam Intensif... itulah jawapan dia~

jeda pada jam 1728.

patience

patience or being patient is very subjective.

some say, he's patient because he has the willing to wait.

some say, she's patient because she can bear the burdens on her own.

some say, they're patient because they are strong at heart to go through the tests in their life.

the list may goes down...

i found one of the meaning is that patience is when we're not telling others about things that we feel it like testing our patience. ^.^

i've googled 'sabar' and 'patience in Qur'an'. here are some of my findings... :)

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introduction of The Importance of Patience in the Qur'an by Harun Yahya
....how Allah may test people so that they can acquire a more perfect patience, and the great return Allah promises to those who exhibit great patience.

Examples of how the Prophets showed patience in every area until the end of their lives will be presented in the hope that people will "be steadfast for our Lord" until the end of their own lives. (Surat al-Muddaththir, 7)

Six Benefits of Patience from the Qur'an
Imam Ahmad rahimahullah said, “Allah has mentioned patience in the Qur’an in 90 places.”

Patience in the Qur’an: Six Benefits

1. Instruction: Patience is enjoyed upon the Believers.

وَاصْبِرْ وَمَا صَبْرُكَ إِلَّا بِاللَّهِ

And endure patiently, your patience is not but from Allah. (16:127)

وَاصْبِرْ لِحُكْمِ رَبِّكَ فَإِنَّكَ بِأَعْيُنِنَا

So wait patiently for the Decision of your Lord, for verily, you are under Our Eyes. (52:48)

2. That which is opposite to patience is forbidden

فَاصْبِرْ لِحُكْمِ رَبِّكَ وَلَا تَكُن كَصَاحِبِ الْحُوتِ إِذْ نَادَىٰ وَهُوَ مَكْظُومٌ

So wait with patience for the Decision of your Lord, and be not like the Companion of the Fish – when he cried out (to Us) while he was in deep sorrow. (68:48)

3. Patience is made a condition of success and prosperity

يَا أَيُّهَا الَّذِينَ آمَنُوا اصْبِرُوا وَصَابِرُوا وَرَابِطُوا وَاتَّقُوا اللَّهَ لَعَلَّكُمْ تُفْلِحُونَ

O you who believe! Endure and be more patient, and guard your territory by stationing army units permanently at the places from where the enemy can attack you, and fear Allah, so that you may be successful. (3:200)

4. The reward of those who exercise patience is doubled

أُولَـٰئِكَ يُؤْتَوْنَ أَجْرَهُم مَّرَّتَيْنِ بِمَا صَبَرُوا وَيَدْرَءُونَ بِالْحَسَنَةِ السَّيِّئَةَ وَمِمَّا رَزَقْنَاهُمْ يُنفِقُونَ

These will be given their reward twice over, because they are patient, and repel evil with good, and spend out of what We have provided them. (28:54)

إِنَّمَا يُوَفَّى الصَّابِرُونَ أَجْرَهُم بِغَيْرِ حِسَابٍ

Only those who are patient shall receive their reward in full, without reckoning. (39:10)

Sulayman ibn Qasim said, “the reward of every deed is known, except for the reward of patience which will be like heavy rain.”

5. Patience and emaan are pre-requisites for leadership in religion

وَجَعَلْنَا مِنْهُمْ أَئِمَّةً يَهْدُونَ بِأَمْرِنَا لَمَّا صَبَرُوا ۖ وَكَانُوا بِآيَاتِنَا يُوقِنُونَ

And We made from among them (Children of Israel), leaders, giving guidance under Our Command, when they were patient and used to believe with certainty in Our Ayat. (32:24)

6. Patience is the way to earn the Companionship of Allah

وَاصْبِرُوا ۚ إِنَّ اللَّهَ مَعَ الصَّابِرِينَ

And be patient. Surely, Allah is with those who are patient. (8:46)

-Taken from “Patience and Gratitude” by Ibn al-Qayyim

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pictures that caught my sight.






i actually don't like so much to copy and paste others' articles to this blog. but this time, i feel like doing it. ^.^

beneficial.

beneficial. sounds like facial, uh?

i've finished two books bought at KLIBF; Baju Melayu Hijau Serindit and Maaf, Saya Bukan Bibik!
both of the books are enough to make me to revise myself.
thus, both of the books are good for me to be read of. yeah.
they made me check myself.
the authors are lucky to have me as their reader, yeah. i hope they'll be grant for what i felt and feel reading their pieces. amin.

targets for my return, again again again again and again are not accomplished.
somehow, i'll try my best to have my 'dream' tomorrow.

am happy to see people around me change to someway or something better for good in a way that will and can bring them to ALLAH's blessings.

and i do touched seeing some of them seems like making a move like a u-turn at a traffic jammed.

what do you think real love is about?

i bet we know about the hadith that promises the shade of Allah for people who love each other fisabilillah.

we should know about one verse in the Qur'an;
67. Friends on that day will be foes, one to another,- except the Righteous. (43, az-zukhruf)

i pray that people that i know won't be foes to another and i when we're on the Judgement day. for me that i have faith in the Judgement will be here someday, i do want good things only. even in a story we want a happy ending, and so do we for our life right? nevertheless, i also have things undone on my side. forgive me, all.

8. "Our Lord!" (they say), "Let not our hearts deviate now after Thou hast guided us, but grant us mercy from Thine own Presence; for Thou art the Grantor of bounties without measure. (3, Al 'Imran)

i really like Jalanku Pulang by UNIC. especially the tone at this (last of the song) part;
ku bersyukur hanya padaMu Tuhan
Kau tunjukkan laluanku pulang
dan cintaMu bagai air di tandus sahara
buatku melepaskan dahaga
takku temu dimanakah hentinya
rayuan taubatku padaMu

melawan arus.

yeah. tak tidur lagi.
esok kena gi sekolah lagi.
menjalani aktiviti ini, aku suka dengar guru-guru yang bersemangat-motivasi-sangat berbicara.
aku suka tengok kanak-kanak sekolah rendah itu senyum-malu-mungkin-segan-takut-pun-mungkin. bagi salam. memanggil, "cikgu" "teacher" "ustazah". aku dapat semua gelaran. ha. ha. ha.
tapi, tatkala mendengar dengar tekun bicara HM sekolah itu, aku tak ingat saat ayat mana dituturkan, yang aku ingat, tiba-tiba aku rasa l.e.m.a.h.
betul ke aku ni nak melibatkan diri dalam bidang ini?
benarkah aku ini tekad sungguh untuk bersama mereka?
tidak semena-mena aku berasa tidak mampu. oh. aku terasa masih terlalu bermain-main lagi.

hari kedua, melihat kakak-kakak yang bakal masuk ke kelas untuk mengajar. salah seorang daripadanya berkata, "kakak suka mengajar. tak sabar nak masuk kelas."
oh. aku teringat, aku tak suka mengajar. aku pilih dulu bukan sebab aku suka mengajar. tapi sebab benda lain. sungguh tak bersemangat! teringat kawan-kawan seinstitut. oh. lain kali, insya Allah aku nak buat bersama seseorang yang satu kampus!!! bila lemah begini, memang teringatkan mereka... dia... dia... Dia..
tak reti berkomunikasi dengan kanak-kanak.
yeah. adik aku kanak-kanak. kanak-kanak lelaki. berbeza dengan yang berada di sekolah itu. ho. ho. x ada kaitan sungguh kan?!

sedang bergelak ketawa sendiri dalam kereta, cuba mendengar siaran baik dari corong radio, radio tak mahu berbunyi, terdetik di ingatan, robot yang lupa akan tuannya.

terasa diaim.

emosi terganggu.
ragu itu haru.
haru diragu.
baru
deru.
titik.

ada lagi, aku kagum dengan pencapaian sekolah itu. namun, perkataan ummi mencerahkan aku, "KPI kita tak sama".

O thou wrapped up (in the mantle)! Arise and deliver thy warning! And thy Lord do thou magnify! And thy garments keep free from stain!And all abomination shun! Nor expect, in giving, any increase (for thyself)! But, for thy Lord's (Cause), be patient and constant!(74:1-7)

the hard rock ride.

hey. it's already at the end of January 2011.
the hard rock ride.
last night, after made a mistake by putting luggage in the wrong bus, my institute-mates and i got onto the right bus. haha. extra bus. ISA travel tours co.
after a minute sitting on the seat beside the wide window, my dearie at my left said, "ramainya lelaki..." we counted lady passengers in the bus. only 14 included us~ =.= it's strange. why? because, usually there'll be more ladies... i calculated the percentage if the total number of passengers is 40, only 35% for ladies. hm.
when the bus began our journey to Darul Naim, the radio also started to produce sounds. again, my dearie commented something, "tak pernah lagi naik bas macam ni..." i replied, "hindustan tu biasa la kan?" ha. ha. last night, the songs were pop-disco, rock and roll. i just tried to catch the songs' lyrics. :) looked at the dark horizon.
one of the songs has this line,
jangan engkau terpedaya dengan dajal yang jahat
more or less, the sentence sounded like that. i couldn't catch the whole story of the song.
this hard rock ride was shaky. ha. i felt like i was rocked harshly and roughly! i just imagined i was in a cradle and somebody rocked me in anger. @_@ for the first time i think, i couldn't sleep very well in a bus. :)
when the hard rock ride came across my cognitive (eceyh) system, i remember about hard rock iman button. :)
the harder the better. take it self.
this time, i arrived home late. usually i'd arrived home before the dawn. today, i arrived after the adzan.
this new semester... hm. quite enjoyable, interesting, more challenging and insya Allah, can make this heart smile to keep learning.
i also learned quite many new things. about people, self, this way of life. the tauhid. how great Allah is. how noble is the knowledge about tauhid-ing Him compared to other knowledge.
i learned how important beautiful ukhuwah is. how trust really makes sense in loving people. how backstabbing is ugly. i told my another dearie, please don't tell me what people said about me behind me. things like that is better to be unknown. or there'll be chaos. what is worst, chaos in the soul. this really made me to really understand what berlapang dada and husnuzzhon is like. and i stated again one of remarkable quotes in me, 'if i hate a person, there'll be ten persons hating me'. please do love others no matter what. 'love and you'll be loved' no matter whom.

let's end this entry. :)

Our Lord tells us in the Qur'an that a person can attain the best kind of life by doing right actions:
Anyone who acts rightly, male or female, being a believer, We will give them a good life and We will recompense them according to the best of what they did. (Surat an-Nahl: 97) (copied and pasted from Harun Yahya, 24 Hours in the Life of a Muslim, 1424 AH/2003 CE, United Kingdom)