life; like a tyre.

am adapting changes.

yes. am looking back at my life. at my own storyline. 

i just realized that in 5 years recently, in this year; 2014, it seems repeating... not exactly repeating but there are some reminiscence matters occurred. the situation. but, in a different way and i have faith that Allah knows best. 

of people around me. 

i just realized. life is like that. there are people we can have their hands on our back when it's a hard time for us to respond the responsibility. and we can't expect everyone to do that for us. yes. am saying that there are people who doesn't really care to scratch our back when we have to respond to our responsibility for that their wants and wills are not aligned with the responsibility we need to respond to. and again, yes, am sad. 

of the what-so-ever-happened made me sad. 

i just realized that, some things happened that caused me to be sad which were of sickening humans' attitude were me in the past. the meaning is i did some those sickening attitude towards others in the past. thus, it's a cash-payment i'd say. T^T and i know to not repeat the wrongdoings as long as am in this conscious iman state. 

in addition, no matter how sad i am, i should not forget there are others who has worst events in their life and they have to bear more excruciating pain compared to me. thus, it's strengthen the emotional fragility. i remembered one song lyrics by Mirwana G9, 

Allah tests us often
with suffering and with sorrow
not to punish us
but to help us meet tomorrow

have faith. keep doing our best. keep improving. 

O ye who believe! seek help with patient perseverance and prayer; for Allah is with those who patiently persevere.

(2:153) 

Or do ye think that ye shall enter the Garden (of bliss) without such (trials) as came to those who passed away before you? they encountered suffering and adversity, and were so shaken in spirit that even the Messenger and those of faith who were with him cried: "When (will come) the help of Allah." Ah! Verily, the help of Allah is (always) near!

(2:214)

 Kind words and the covering of faults are better than charity followed by injury. Allah is free of all wants, and He is Most-Forbearing.

(2: 263)

sisterhood.

it was my final day at school for the internship.

my friends and i returned to college later than usual. it's about 4 p.m. already when i arrived my room.

my stomach had war inside.

it was that, i made it to go to the place i need to go.

so, i was there. with the unexpected condition. i couldn't even stand straight.

my physical state didn't allow me to join the activities.

my body had some rest on the bed.

i woke up. a sister who's a pharmacist came to me. checking on me.

"u have a high fever!"

"..."

"come... eat these bananas, then eat these pills..."

"...."

another sister who's a nurse interrupted,
"u need to take a bath too..."

"......"

i showed them a face. ~_~

i was... yeah. it's been quite a time i hadn't have a fever.

it's been quite a time i hadn't have such concern from others. touched.

thanks, sisters.

we're not related by blood, we're related by faith.

this sweet moment made my heart whispers, 'i want to taste these-kind-of-sweet-little-things in my life for-ever....'

insya Allah.

And (moreover) He hath put affection between their hearts: not if thou hadst spent all that is in the earth, couldst thou have produced that affection, but Allah hath done it: for He is Exalted in might, Wise. (8: 63) 

 

p/s: my writing skills rusting!