photos.

yada. i'm enjoying my holidays. insya Allah, every year, in December i'll be enjoying my holidays. in December!

how i wish to be questioned like the pic above for every break i have in the middle of semester.

one year ago, i'd passed my JPJ test in December. unfortunately that my PCDL will expire only in February 2012. =.= due to the late registration. :| i have 3 copies of my LCDL with me! hah.

how i was confuse to choose when i started to enjoy my studies. :)

2010 is leaving. it's been several years already. should i say i've grown up or i'm still growing up? :D

*knock my head*

THE MOST DIFFICULT PHASE OF LIFE IS NOT WHEN NO ONE UNDERSTANDS ME; IT IS WHEN I DON'T UNDERSTAND MYSELF.

i never quit being a muslimah

first, from muna 'adilah. :)

for my friends; virtually know me or know me in reality, thanks for always being there. hope we'll be included amongst the seven people that will be under the shade of Allah hereafter. amin. :)

:: 1~ say Alhamdulillah.. ::

::2~ copy paste this picture then write the tittle " i never quit being a muslimah" ::

:: 3~ lafazkan rasa cinta pada sahabat antunna kerana Allah ::

:: 4~ tag kan pada sahabat blogger tersayang ::

second, from iqa pika the boink boink. :)

1. Adakah anda rasa anda HOT?
bila makan cili, rasa. ;p

2. Update wallpaper anda guna sekarang
supposed to be upload kan? =.=
tak jumpa folder. =.= nak print screen pun xrajin. :) tapi, wallpaper biasa kat windows, home.

3. Cerita about this picture
CANTIK.

4. Kali terakhir makan pizza.
paling ingat, tak salah, sebelum balik di tengah-tengah musim peperiksaan akhir dua sebulan yang lepas. baru dapat elaun setelah sebulan 'kebulur' (amboi. tahu bersyukur tak?) masa tu. sakan. sebab ada teman sekelas aku mengidam nak makan spaghetti kat pizza hut. tambah lagi jadi macam hadiah untuk diri sendiri setelah banyak perkara berlaku - organize itu ini dan kerja-kerja kursus yang mencabar mental dan fizikal pada sem terakhir pra itu. ha. ha. (lebih-lebih pulak deskripsi aku)

5. Lagu terakhir anda dengar.
baru je tadi, outlandish - feel like saving the world.

6. Apa yang anda buat selain selesaikan tag ni?
dengar playlist kat winamp dan semata selesaikan tag ini.

7. Selain nama sendiri, anda dipanggil dengan nama apa?
selain nama sendiri, tak ada. er... ada satu nama, han pei Ya. tapi itu pun dah dekat-dekat nama aku dah. ha. ha. Momo antara pioneer guna nama-nama han-han ni rasanya. =) pengaruh novel.

8. Tag lagi 5 orang
aku tak nak tag. :) boleh ya? :D

footnote:
- worried about tomorrow.
+ haven't seen my dentist formally. the appointment is postponed due to the construction at the clinic. the dentist told me that my left geraham bongsu also might be pulled out. >.<

There are seven whom Allah will shade in His Shade on the Day when there is no shade except His Shade: a just ruler; a youth who grew up in the worship of Allah, the Mighty and Majestic; a man whose heart is attached to the mosques; two men who love each other for Allah's sake, meeting for that and parting upon that; a man who is called by a woman of beauty and position [for illegal intercourse], but be says: 'I fear Allah', a man who gives in charity and hides it, such that his left hand does not know what his right hand gives in charity; and a man who remembered Allah in private and so his eyes shed tears.' Narrated by Abu Hurairah & collected in Saheeh al-Bukhari (english trans.) vol.1, p.356, no.629 & Saheeh Muslim (english trans.) vol.2, p.493, no.2248

buat sahabat dunia maya.

Sahabat ………

Jangan kau bayangkan aku seindah pelangi

Jangan kau khayalkan aku secerah mentari

Jangan kau mimpikan aku selembut merpati

Jangan kau harapkan aku sewangi melati

Ku tak ingin kau jatuh kekecewaan

Ku tak ingin kau terjerumus dalam penyesalan.....

Aku hanya sekadar insan

Penuh dengan keterbatasan

Jangan terlalu banyak menyandarkan harapan

Setinggi langit dan seluas lautan....

Bangkitlah menghadapi alam nyata

Terbentang harapan menghadang

Jangan sesali masa silam

Jangan mimpikan hari esok

Hadapi hari ini penuh kesungguhan

Bangun impian dengan keyakinan

Langkah nyata turut mengiring......

kau hadir dengan suara lemah

meresap melepasi telinga

merasuk ke dalam jiwa

hingga ku terpaku dan hampir tak bersuara.....

kau dunia mayaku

yang hadir hanya melepasi suara

dan datang dalam fikiran hanya sebuah bayangan

bayangan yang nyata...

aku mendongak ke langit malam

mencari sebuah kebenaran

kau hadir dalam khayalan

lalu ku peluk erat dirimu

setelah ku bangun

kau hanyalah dunia maya

yang ku harapkan untuk jadi nyata.....

kredit kepada Tu Noh. kurang jelas sebenarnya siapakah dia ini. :D

*masih hutang tag daripada cik iqa pika dan muna 'adilah. :)

karma.

now i understand more about the word karma. ha. ha. funny eh?

i watched "Dimana isteriku" at TV3 two days ago at Che Yah's. yada. the television at this home is warded. actually, my sister and i wanted to watch a drama entitled "Ustazah dari UK" at TV2 on TV1, but it wasn't on air. there's a live show from "Pilih Kasih" instead.

two days ago, a tragic.. something tragic for me happened. okay. before that, for your information, i had been in my beloved secondary school for three days before the accident. i was to help my teachers for the prefect camp there. there, i'd commented my juniors, they weren't pro-active as they presented in their manifesto.

return to my tragic story. ummi was driving. on the way to the school mentioned above. then, we stopped at one traffic light. in front of our car we're riding, at the left corner, i could see a cute orange kitty under another car. it looked unwell. the light was still red. i told my sister about the kitty. then, the light turned to green.
"tak sempat dah la..."
i looked through the left side mirror, the little cat was still there. moving.

we continued our journey to our destination.

ummi asked me to drive. her head was spinning. i drove. we arrived the traffic light i mentioned above again. i saw a dead white body of a little cat on the lane i was driving. oh. and in front of us, there was the place of the orange kitty lost in it's world. ummi said, "don't look there," with an apologetic tone.
"kalau awak bertindak cepat tadi, sempat je nak bagi tau kat kereta-kereta tu.. ambil kucing tu bawak masuk kereta.." i was insensitive. i got it. if the day before, i told my juniors about it, that moment those words slapped me back.

today, i used the same road again. know what, i could see the orange spot on the road. i was.. regret. am regret. in the afternoon, i was blocked by two cats on the way home. black and white cat. i don't want to repeat the same mistake again. i'd killed. i killed.

thus, be more sensitive. being sensitive for thing like this is okay and good for us. think quick, act fast~

and yes, am still thinking about the if i react quick that moment...

i had the chance to save a soul. even it's a cat. a kitten.
maybe this is also how they feel for not change before it's too late.

this is a sad story.

42. That to thy Lord is the final Goal; 43. That it is He Who granteth Laughter and Tears; 44. That it is He Who granteth Death and Life;(An-Najm (53))

give and have.

i don't have money, i can't give you money.

i have dust, i only can give you dust.

thus, i can't give you a thing i don't own for myself even if i know about the thing.

sorry. this is really apologetic. not to you, but for you inside here.

it's already december.

Hai December, I heard you’re good in listing people’s dream for new year? - cik diah.

repeat. sorry, that i can't give things i don't have. sorry that i love you. sorry seems to be the hardest word. heh.