HE knows best

thinking of the past,

there're some; full of aversion

there're some; unwanted to be remembered; embarrassing

there're some; forgotten

most of the time, i do want to forget everything.

and, yet,

sometimes, am grateful for the past.

thinking of the future,

planned; unsure

going on with the flow; unsure

unknown; unsure

and, i have the present.

i do wanna cherish the present

without tracing back to the past

without foreseeing the future

in a phrase; without worry

and, yes, worry ends when faith begins.

at some points,

the yesterdays i want to forget; because of today,

the tomorrows i am afraid of; because of today,

doubting my self; looking for the tangled parts i didn't untie and did overlook; self-checking.

unsecured.

unlovable.

finally,

to repent is the best way to mend,

to know that i live to die, 

to apologise to release the guilt,

to forgive to let go,

to live for Him, 

and,

the journey has winding ways. 

to summarise,

have faith; 

He knows best

in the past

in the present

in the future

full stop.