to taste the honey...

i once wrote these lines,

i ask myself,
was i really mujahadah over my desire?
am i really mujahadah over my wants?
will i be a real mujahidah?
mujahadah is not a word for jokes
once i say i want to mujahadah
it means i have to fight my own self
i have to go over my mind
i will hate my own self,
pray hard. try hard.
die hard to be a mujahidah, self.

mujahadah.

i found myself have some points that i really can't easily go through them when i need to fight them.

it was... in February. today is someone's birthday. okayru. merapu.

it just that, mujahadah is not that easy.

mujahadah begins in the mind. in the heart.

mind and heart must be clean and clear.

and it's true, only if we really do it for Allah, that's the best cure for the bitterness of being in mujahadah mode.

all this while, i questioned myself for things i left. for things i took. for things i did.
i was in such a sad and confused situation. it's blur. it didn't seem so wrong to continue and it did cause something wrong somewhere at times. syubhah. that, when i look at the mirror, the misery look in my eyes, i remember about intention. and that's it, the moment my eyes slowly shone with a smile cracked on my face. that's where the sweetness combined with the bitterness.

"Love will make you a slave. Be careful what you love"
(Yasmin Mogahed) ♥

 

of DCs no. 4

google did make my day. ha-ha

Tanggungjawab ilmiah

Oleh Musyafa Ahmad Rahim

Rasulullah SAW menjelaskan bahwa seorang ilmuwan muslim mempunyai tanggung jawab, dan ia akan dimintai pertanggung jawaban atas ilmu yang dimilikinya.

Rasulullah SAW bersabda:

عَنْ أَبِي بَرْزَةَ الأَسْلَمِيِّ، قَالَ: قَالَ رَسُولُ اللَّهِ صَلَّى اللَّهُ عَلَيْهِ وَسَلَّمَ: «لَا تَزُولُ قَدَمَا عَبْدٍ يَوْمَ القِيَامَةِ حَتَّى يُسْأَلَ عَنْ عُمُرِهِ فِيمَا أَفْنَاهُ، وَعَنْ عِلْمِهِ فِيمَ فَعَلَ، وَعَنْ مَالِهِ مِنْ أَيْنَ اكْتَسَبَهُ وَفِيمَ أَنْفَقَهُ، وَعَنْ جِسْمِهِ فِيمَ أَبْلَاهُ» (رواه الترمذي، وقال : هَذَا حَدِيثٌ حَسَنٌ صَحِيحٌ 

Dari Abu Barzah Al-Aslami, ia berkata: Rasulullah SAW bersabda: “Tidak bergeser kedua telapak kaki seorang hamba pada hari kiamat sehingga ia ditanya tentang umurnya; dalam hal apa ia menghabiskannya,  tentang ilmunya; dalam hal apa ia berbuat, tentang hartanya; dari mana ia mendapatkannya dan dalam hal apa ia membelanjakannya, dan tentang pisiknya; dalam hal apa ia mempergunakannya”. (HR At-Tirmidzi, dan ia berkata: “Ini hadits hasan shahih”, hadits no. 2417).

DR. Yususf Al-Qaradawi menjelaskan: ada tujuh sisi tanggung jawab seorang ilmuwan muslim, yaitu:

1 - مَسْؤُوْلٌ عَنْ صِيَانَتِهِ وَحِفْظِهِ حَتَّى يَبْقَى

2 - وَمَسْؤُوْلٌ عَنْ تَعْمِيْقِهِ وَتَحْقِيْقِهِ حَتَّى يَرْقَى

3 - وَمَسْؤُوْلٌ عَنِ الْعَمَلِ بِهِ حَتَّى يُثْمِرَ

4 - وَمَسْؤُوْلٌ عَنْ تَعْلِيْمِهِ لِمَنْ يَطْلُبُهُ حَتَّى يَزْكُوَ

5 - وَمَسْؤُوْلٌ عَنْ بَثِّهِ وَنَشْرِهِ حَتَّى يَعُمَّ نَفْعُهُ

6 - وَمَسْؤُوْلٌ عَنْ إِعْدَادِ مَنْ يَرِثُهُ وَيَحْمِلُهُ حَتَّى يَدُوْمَ اِتِّصَالُ حَلَقَاتِهِ، وَقَبْلَ ذَلِكَ كُلِّهِ

7 - مَسْؤُوْلٌ عَنْ إِخْلَاصِهِ فِيْ عِلْمِهِ للهِ حَتَّى يَقْبَلَهُ مِنْهُ

1. Bertanggung jawab dalam hal memelihara dan menjaga ilmu, agar ilmu tetap ada (tidak hilang).


2. Bertanggung jawab dalam hal memperdalam dan meraih hakekatnya, agar ilmu itu menjadi meningkat.


3. Bertanggung jawab dalam mengamalkannya, agar ilmu itu berbuah.


4. Bertanggung jawab dalam mengajarkannya kepada orang yang mencarinya, agar ilmu itu menjadi bersih (terbayar zakatnya).


5. Bertanggung jawab dalam menyebarluaskan dan mempublikasikannya agar manfaat ilmu itu semakin luas.


6. Bertanggung jawab dalam menyiapkan generasi yang akan mewarisi dan memikulkan agar mata rantai ilmu tidak terputus, lalu, terutama, bahkan pertama sekali.


7. Bertanggung jawab dalam mengikhlaskan ilmunya untuk Allah SWT semata, agar ilmu itu diterima oleh Allah SWT.
   
   
   - PKS Piyungan

it was just another birthday.

it was just another birthday.
and i found it's better to have it on weekend-days. ;o

i did remember most of my friends' or people-around-me's birthdays.
it's just after i found that there are other important matters rather than birthdays and being busy till that i just couldn't resist myself sending birthday wish to others.

still, birthdays are one of important point to build rapport with others. isn't it?

it was just another birthday.
the age increased in number, annually.
the age increases at every second, doesn't it? we just do not realize.

it was just another birthday.
one of the best wishes was to be gathering in the heaven. :,)

it was just another birthday.
when someone mentioned about the past that i was trying to deny.

it was just another birthday.
i failed to finish my work.

it was just another birthday.
i had a full-day. hectic. i just took that as the way to enjoy it on weekdays.

it was just another birthday.
that on the night before the date, i spoke about death.
i met my beloved sisters in the circle.

it was just another birthday.
Lala and Aman updated their status wishing me birthday.

it was just another birthday.
without full inbox of prayers.

it was just another birthday.
i can't help myself to not feel sad.

it was just another birthday.
i was hoping to be awake before my time of birth.

it was just another birthday.
anyways.

:')

:')