yada. i'm enjoying my holidays. insya Allah, every year, in December i'll be enjoying my holidays. in December!
how i wish to be questioned like the pic above for every break i have in the middle of semester.
one year ago, i'd passed my JPJ test in December. unfortunately that my PCDL will expire only in February 2012. =.= due to the late registration. :| i have 3 copies of my LCDL with me! hah.
how i was confuse to choose when i started to enjoy my studies. :)
2010 is leaving. it's been several years already. should i say i've grown up or i'm still growing up? :D
*knock my head*
THE MOST DIFFICULT PHASE OF LIFE IS NOT WHEN NO ONE UNDERSTANDS ME; IT IS WHEN I DON'T UNDERSTAND MYSELF.
for my friends; virtually know me or know me in reality, thanks for always being there. hope we'll be included amongst the seven people that will be under the shade of Allah hereafter. amin. :)
:: 1~ say Alhamdulillah.. ::
::2~ copy paste this picture then write the tittle " i never quit being a muslimah" ::
:: 3~ lafazkan rasa cinta pada sahabat antunna kerana Allah ::
1. Adakah anda rasa anda HOT?
bila makan cili, rasa. ;p
2. Update wallpaper anda guna sekarang
supposed to be upload kan? =.=
tak jumpa folder. =.= nak print screen pun xrajin. :) tapi, wallpaper biasa kat windows, home.
3. Cerita about this picture CANTIK.
4. Kali terakhir makan pizza.
paling ingat, tak salah, sebelum balik di tengah-tengah musim peperiksaan akhir dua sebulan yang lepas. baru dapat elaun setelah sebulan 'kebulur' (amboi. tahu bersyukur tak?) masa tu. sakan. sebab ada teman sekelas aku mengidam nak makan spaghetti kat pizza hut. tambah lagi jadi macam hadiah untuk diri sendiri setelah banyak perkara berlaku - organize itu ini dan kerja-kerja kursus yang mencabar mental dan fizikal pada sem terakhir pra itu. ha. ha. (lebih-lebih pulak deskripsi aku) 5. Lagu terakhir anda dengar.
baru je tadi, outlandish - feel like saving the world.
6. Apa yang anda buat selain selesaikan tag ni?
dengar playlist kat winamp dan semata selesaikan tag ini.
7. Selain nama sendiri, anda dipanggil dengan nama apa?
selain nama sendiri, tak ada. er... ada satu nama, han pei Ya. tapi itu pun dah dekat-dekat nama aku dah. ha. ha. Momo antara pioneer guna nama-nama han-han ni rasanya. =) pengaruh novel.
8. Tag lagi 5 orang
aku tak nak tag. :) boleh ya? :D
footnote: - worried about tomorrow. + haven't seen my dentist formally. the appointment is postponed due to the construction at the clinic. the dentist told me that my left geraham bongsu also might be pulled out. >.<
There are seven whom Allah will shade in His Shade on the Day when there is no shade except His Shade: a just ruler; a youth who grew up in the worship of Allah, the Mighty and Majestic; a man whose heart is attached to the mosques; two men who love each other for Allah's sake, meeting for that and parting upon that; a man who is called by a woman of beauty and position [for illegal intercourse], but be says: 'I fear Allah', a man who gives in charity and hides it, such that his left hand does not know what his right hand gives in charity; and a man who remembered Allah in private and so his eyes shed tears.' Narrated by Abu Hurairah & collected in Saheeh al-Bukhari (english trans.) vol.1, p.356, no.629 & Saheeh Muslim (english trans.) vol.2, p.493, no.2248
now i understand more about the word karma. ha. ha. funny eh?
i watched "Dimana isteriku" at TV3 two days ago at Che Yah's. yada. the television at this home is warded. actually, my sister and i wanted to watch a drama entitled "Ustazah dari UK" at TV2 on TV1, but it wasn't on air. there's a live show from "Pilih Kasih" instead.
two days ago, a tragic.. something tragic for me happened. okay. before that, for your information, i had been in my beloved secondary school for three days before the accident. i was to help my teachers for the prefect camp there. there, i'd commented my juniors, they weren't pro-active as they presented in their manifesto.
return to my tragic story. ummi was driving. on the way to the school mentioned above. then, we stopped at one traffic light. in front of our car we're riding, at the left corner, i could see a cute orange kitty under another car. it looked unwell. the light was still red. i told my sister about the kitty. then, the light turned to green. "tak sempat dah la..." i looked through the left side mirror, the little cat was still there. moving.
we continued our journey to our destination.
ummi asked me to drive. her head was spinning. i drove. we arrived the traffic light i mentioned above again. i saw a dead white body of a little cat on the lane i was driving. oh. and in front of us, there was the place of the orange kitty lost in it's world. ummi said, "don't look there," with an apologetic tone. "kalau awak bertindak cepat tadi, sempat je nak bagi tau kat kereta-kereta tu.. ambil kucing tu bawak masuk kereta.." i was insensitive. i got it. if the day before, i told my juniors about it, that moment those words slapped me back.
today, i used the same road again. know what, i could see the orange spot on the road. i was.. regret. am regret. in the afternoon, i was blocked by two cats on the way home. black and white cat. i don't want to repeat the same mistake again. i'd killed. i killed.
thus, be more sensitive. being sensitive for thing like this is okay and good for us. think quick, act fast~
and yes, am still thinking about the if i react quick that moment...
i had the chance to save a soul. even it's a cat. a kitten. maybe this is also how they feel for not change before it's too late.
this is a sad story.
42. That to thy Lord is the final Goal; 43. That it is He Who granteth Laughter and Tears; 44. That it is He Who granteth Death and Life;(An-Najm (53))
leave yesterday. fix today. plan tomorrow! live a life.
i don't think i've left my yesterday. bad one.
it's been a long time i haven't planned my day.
when there's no plan, no best fix either.
half our deen. ha. ha. found about this on youtube. ain't interested with the content. but the video effects and other elements in the ads. :) and yet am quite impressive for the content of the videos. :D
was a tourist in south Thailand on previous Friday and Saturday. the trip ended with a yawn from me. loudly. what a shame. -.- the trip, for me and Yiba was like a refreshment. why? because we had been there in 2002. :) but we don't remember everything clearly. for me, i just remember Narathiwat mosque, Yala Rama hotel and Yala Islamic University. however, when we passed through a beach, i can remember some of the memories. we once had our dinner there, using the Japanese table.
am thinking about transferring my blog entries into a book. :D
if you wanna know more about the trip, please click here. my sis is writing about it. :) my talent of writing about event in my life in my blogs are rusting. he.
o ho. i would like to thank to Momo (again) and Shag for giving me awards. so, 2010, i got 2 awards. :)
firstly, from Momo.
Sila jelaskan kenapa anda suka ber-blog? kerana saya boleh syok sendiri?
Apa motif anda tarik followers? Anda superstar kah? dulu; rasa macam disayangi kalau difollow. ha. sekarang; saya tak kisah anda follow saya ya, anda follow saya tidak. :)
Cerita sikit perangai anda. jual ikan. sombong. nak menang.
Pernah terfikir nak masuk magazine aka mewar-warkan mewara-warakan belog anda? Mengapa? tak pernah kerana saya tidak berhajat untuk mencari populariti. low self-esteem. :p
pesanan penaja: Anda juga sewajibnya menjawab soalan dari aku. Sebab, aku nak perbaiki apa yang kurang dan memantapkan apa yang lebih. Kiki. Jom tengok soalan :
Selesai menjawab, dan membuat entri khas, korang haruslah tinggal permanent link pasal entri khas korang tu kat ENTRI INI. Bukan di entri lain atau di shoutbox. Aku takut aku terlepas pandang kalau korang respon kat tempat lain.
PENTING! Jangan serahkan anugerah khas tu kepada blogger lain. Kerana, ianya khas untuk korang yang dalam list sahaja. Okay?! Nampak tak keistimewaan korang kat sini :P
soalan pertama W. Sufiyyah W. Zulkipli (dalam i/c) nama panggilan blogger; iYa, sufi, piya.
soalan kedua kerana owner dia follow saya. ha3. sebab saya suka baca entries dia.
soalan ketiga saya tak suka kena klik "read more" tu. :D
soalan keempat dalam sehari update lebih satu entri. sampai tak larat nak baca. :P
sama-sama KASIH kepada Shag. :) thanks for this award too.
log. ada dua jenis log. dialog. monolog. :P bukan buku log.
sejak semalam, mengomen ayat pengulas sukan. tv2. yada. Lin Dan vs Lee Chong Wei. teringin nak tengok senior Lin Dan tu lawan Wong Choon Han balik. :D
pengulas sukan semalam sangat la tidak best. kalau dia baca macam mana? bacalah. bukan apa. antara perkataan yang selalu di ulang,
"sayang sekali"
"untuk memastikan"
"memakan diri"
"kemungkinan"
geram aje apabila mendengar perkataan2 berulang-ulang di atas. ha. ha.
hari ni, dialog dan monolog menarik.
Cheng Ho Expo, dialog bergelak-senyum. "nak tanda tangan? tanda tangan kat sini..."
"oh. boleh jugak." sambil gelak-gelak. ambil pen, tulis nama, pekerjaan serta tanda tangan. "eh.. nombor telefon?" "orang lain tak tulis pun?"
"ehh... orang lain tulis juga.. tengok ni.." sambil menyelak-nyelak muka surat sebelumnya.
"oohhh.... nombor ummi dengan ayah la..."
"tulis nombor rumah dah la..."
"naik nombor pelik-pelik tu, nombor kami la tu..."
ha. ha. ceh!
Jalan Sultanah Zainab, parking lot tepi jalan, monolog orang hilang sabar.
mata tengok garisan kuning parking kereta. tayar kereta besar di sebelah melebihi had. "besar la tayar kereta nih..." keluar dari tempat pemandu kereta kecil SUV perodua yang dah layak jadi antik.
usha bangunan tiga tingkat di hadapan.
berdialog sebentar dengan seorang pak cik. dia bawak Vios putih kot. heh.
pintu tempat dicari kunci.
tangan menekan-nekan keypad yang dah kosong nombor telefon tertera. line Celcom buat hal. grr.
buka pintu kereta. cuba meloloskan diri ke tempat memandu melalui ruang yang tak sampai 50cm kurang lebih.
"kereta tayar besar ni...." lidah tak bertulang gemalai menuturkan.
ada dua orang pak cik tampil menyapa pandangan. melihat kereta sebelah.
"aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa!!! malu! malu!" letak muka dalam stereng.
mereka keluar dulu. pak cik di tempat penumpang sebelah driver asyik menengok-nengok je. aku sengih je tengok dia. dalam hati, tahu la kereta dia tu tinggi. ;p bukan kereta la kot. torpedo. ha. ha.
gear reverse. pak cik Vios tadi pun mula meninggalkan tempat itu. aku menyusul mereka.
moral: cakap siang pandang-pandang...
Jalan Raja Muda, dialog. "ayah nak gi Pulau Pinang esok..." "ayah tak bawak sapa-sapa pun..."
aku, "tak apalah. tak nak ikut pun..." sengih. padahal dalam kepala dah nampak dah blok-blok asrama yang akan dilalui sebelum naik jambatan Pulau Pinang.
kemudian, imaginasi berfungsi.
"kalau ikut pun, kitorang jalan-jalan la kat Queensbay ke.. Feringgi ke... pusing..." gelak.
Old fashioned and a bit of a homebody, you totally go for comfort food.
You're the type who loves to cook for friends started to cook when i was form two. the last cook was for my classmates at Nilam Puri, and they love you for it.
You truly know what tastes good, and you can often pick out the best dish at a restaurant.
You don't fall for food trends. You stick with what's been food for a long time!
You are spontaneous and fun. You like to mix it up in life, and you are very flexible.
You consider any day that surprises you to be a good day. You aren't big on planning and structure.
You are an agreeable, happy person. You can get along with almost anyone, and you're pretty easy to please.
You live a somewhat chaotic life, but things seem to work out for you in the end. Even when things are a mess, you come out fine at the other end. very chaotic.
You are easy to understand, and most people are able to communicate easily with you. You say things simply and clearly. tipu. either i use filter or opposite understanding.
You are flexible and not too hung up on rules or customs. You can go with the flow and change as needed. ain't flexible. they told me.
You can speak simply or you can exercise your vast vocabulary. You customize you communication style to whatever setting you're in.
You are a very cosmopolitan and worldly person. If you like something from halfway around the world, you try to figure out a way to incorporate it into your life.
alahai. aku tak ada kamera tadi nak snap gambar tu.
lebih kurang 30cm dari ayam yang makan ayam tu, kucing makan ayam.
aku sebelum ni memang dah agak tertanya-tanya, ayam makan ayam tak eh? maka, pagi tadi, terjawab sudah. ayam makan ayam!
macam mana boleh jadi macam tu?
semalam aku telah membeli dua ketul extra drumsticks for encik no. 9 dan no. 10. namun, mereka tidak makan dua ketul tersebut. hari ni, ragu-ragu aku nak makan. bagi la makan kucing yang no. 8 tu suka sangat. tapi, kucing bunting tu ambil seketul sahaja. maka, ada ibu ayam ni lapar jugak, datang patuk-patuk drumstick saudara dia sendiri. hm. tiba-tiba nampak terjemahan surah al-hujurat. :)
hari ini, aku terkenang zaman lepas SPM sebelum sambung belajar. being a homemaker. hm.
aku tiba-tiba rasa perubahan aku ada kaitan dengan tinggal di hostel. aku punya statement dalam kepala pagi tadi, "tinggal di hostel buat aku makin jual ikan."
namun, aku terbanding pula asrama pertama aku dan asrama kedua. kenapa ketika di asrama pertama tu, aku rasa bahagia eh? err. bukan kedua tu tak bahagia. tapi, rasa dia macam lain. haha. ala. sebulan, mana nak tau berubah ke tak, ye? baik. baik.
sebenarnya, bukanlah tinggal di hostel penyebabnya. haha. cuma, sedikit sebanyak, rutin di situ buat kita jadi terbiasa. alah .. tegal biasa. aku lupa dah peribahasa !! parah. parah.
rutin di asrama yang sangat la bagi kesan negatif apabila balik rumah, tak buat kerja orang lain. ya lah. di asrama, tempat kau, kemas sendiri. meja kau, pandai-pandai kau. sekali lagi, logik aku menolak. haha. ok la. bukan pasal tempat. bukan pasal meja. sebab semua tu tetap berkongsi. laundry business. yeah.
am calling U
tutup topik. aku merapu.
tadi, pergi kedai buku. oh la la. banyak buku. main objective is planner 2011. :D tapi semua aku tak berapa berkenan. -.- nak masuk ular pop, tapi, fikir, nak sumbang kepada ekonomi melayu yang islam. =.- lepas tu, usha novel. ilham hamdani dah ada adik penulis rupanya. hamzah hamdani. (pandai2 je aku) :D nampak novel Jhumpa Lahiri!!! oh my. tapi harganya tu, cun la. dicongakkan, RM36.00. kedekut tak aku? aku tau, aku kedekut. tambah lagi, 2 bijik buku aku beli masa date dengan ayah kat Carrefour hari tu pun tak khatam lagi. English jugak. :D lepas tu, aku nampak lagi.
weih!!! novel DBP!!! susah tahu nak jumpa novel DBP dijual open begitu. pesta buku je aku selalu jumpa. DBP baru buka pasaran ke luar ke? aku pun apa lagi, terus belek. nak beli JS nye novel, kakak-kakak aku galak memborong hari tu. tak pasti tajuk mana belum dibeli.
ayo ayo...
masalah sikit kedai tu, novel DBP tu dia tak letak harga. aku pun buat confident tanya akak cashier. ada diskaun. dapat la RM18.00. tajuk apa ya buku tu? tema dia budak lelaki pandai, aktif di sekolah tapi kurang perhatian daripada ayah. menarik tak? :) cikgu... hm.
ada sebuah novel ilham hamdani aku terasa nak beli. anekdot belakang tu agak tak boleh pergi (blah). ha. ha. harga dia lebih kurang je dengan Lahiri tu. hu. *teringat tuzki punye emoticon*
i wanna tell you sometimes i feel like we've killed the world don't wanna leave you like no mercy at all...
driving skill aku sangat teruk. =.= aku benci aku yang memandu. tapi aku suka! 0_0 boleh pergi la. heh. entah.
when they ask about ME my servants, I AM NEAR...
o ye. aku dah buang nasyid hari tu. :)
aku dah jadi mak cik. sebab classmate aku masa sekolah rendah dahulu sudah menimang cahaya mata sulung pada 10 November lepas. nak pergi ziarah dia! baby is innocent and pure. heh. silalah faham. bersih dari dosa.
take one step toward ME I will come running to you
classmate aku yang sekarang pula, salah seorang akan akad nikah 19 November. aku nak pergi kenduri dia! :) kenduri akhir tahun ini, di Kedah juga. tahun lepas, pergi kenduri di Kedah dah. :)
esok, ada jamuan di sekolah menengah. ketika memandu tadi, tiba-tiba rasa macam segan-segan. ha. sekarang, nampak pantai. jom?
buku alam Jin sebenarnya seronok juga kan? ini adalah pengaruh Xarine yang menulis pasal Yuda tu. aku ni, cakap je lebih, padahal baru sampai m/s 42. :D
tengok Korean drama dengan no. 3 dan no. 6 malam tadi. aku sangat la concern pasal bahasa inggeris translation dia tu. tolong la weiii. grammatical errors crazy banyak!!! tak boleh menahan aku. dalam hati, siapa la yang translate ni? takkan la company cerita ni tak pilih elok2? tolong la wei! entertainment. entertainment jugak. bahasa tu kena jaga! *oh. semangat bahasa?* haha. minta maaf! :D
tiba-tiba aku jadi macam mempraktikkan ilmu linguistics aku ketika menonton drama Korea. o la. la. la. Language Description. heh. tiba-tiba terfikir, agaknya, satu hari nanti akan ke exam subject tu di lakukan dengan cara menonton drama?
"watch the drama and identify the errors in the translation."
ha. ha. seronoknya! hisy. tiba-tiba nak jadi Menteri Pendidikan. Pendidikan i would say. dan, sesiapa yang nak belajar dalam bidang apa-apa, mestilah dia itu mencintai bidang itu! :D
sebab belajar tanpa hati, susah la. pernah tonton 3 idiots? silalah tengok. dia highlightkan isu hati dalam belajar ni. :) jangan la leka tengok tarian2 dia. skip aje yang itu. aku tengok pun kerana projek Social Studies. :D thanksk.muna.
aku cuba sampaikan kepada kawan-kawan aku ketika study. lebih kurang gini, "kenapa kita boleh ingat jalan cerita sesebuah novel dengan baik walaupun hanya sekali baca? sebab kita baca dengan hati. sebab tu kita boleh ketawa, menangis masa baca novel. try baca buku tu macam baca novel."
subjek Social Studies masa tu. ha. ha. ha. kawan aku tu buat-buat menangis dan ketawa. haha. aku saja je masa tu. santai aja. siksa tahu menunggu habis exam. bukan nak jawab sangat, nak balik! untuk SS ni, nak study je, akan keluar ayat ini, "kena bersosial dulu ni" dengan nada gurauan biasa. he.
kesimpulan, dalam aku punya pelajaran kan, aku rasa, literature la paling boleh hayati dengan hati. ha. ha. :) aku memang suka sastera. sejak bila? aku tak perasan untuk hal ini. :)
itu sahajalah.
sukanya berada di rumah pada hari persekolahan. :) bila lagi ya?
eh. jom puasa.
Daripada Ibnu ‘Abbas r.a bahawa Nabi s.a.w bersabda bermaksud, “Tiada suatu hari pun, amalan kebaikan padanya mempunyai kelebihan melainkan pada hari-hari ini – iaitu 10 hari Zulhijjah. Para sahabat baginda bertanya, ‘Tidak juga Jihad pada jalan Allah (mengatasi kelebihan Hari-hari tersebut)? Ujar Baginda, Tidak juga Jihad di jalan Allah kecuali seorang yang keluar dengan jiwa raga dan hartanya dan tidak membawa pulang apa-apa pun (kerana habis disumbangkan untuk memenangkan agama Allah)”. (HR Imam Bukhari)
Dari Ibnu Umar r.a. bahawa Rasulullah s.a.w bersabda, “Tiada suatu haripun, amalan kebaikan padanya mempunyai kelebihan melainkan pada hari-hari 10 Zulhijjah ini, oleh kerana itu perbanyakkanlah padanya tahlil (La Ilaha Illa Allah), takbir (Allah Akbar) dan tahmid (Alhamdu Lillah)”. (HR Imam Ahmad)
Dari Abi Qatadah r.a. bahawa Rasulullah s.a.w bersabda, “Puasa pada hari Arafah, saya mengharap Allah akan menghapuskan (dosa) setahun yang lalu dan setahun yang mendatang” (HR Imam Muslim)
aku perasan. ya. perasan tadi bahawa tajuk entri aku selalu bahasa inggeris. =.=
*feels like saving the world - outlandish*
aku rasa aku lebih suka dengar dia punya muzik tuh. hm.
lari. teringat. tak lebih kurang tiga minggu lepas aku menyertai lari berganti-ganti. ha. ha. besar-besar macam ni pun aku masih main benda-benda begitu. bila fikir balik, tak pernah aku bermimpi nak terus beraktif-aktif dalam aktiviti begitu. he.
*calling you*
aku ingat, 100m bulan 4 hari tu, itulah last aku lari. lari untuk pertandingan. bulan 10, budak2 kelas aku lah. asal lari je, nama aku. memang aku suka lari. lari dari masalah pun ya. ;p
dan juga, aku tak mahu dah lari. dan aku tak berniat nak bagi tahu mereka. aku hanya mampu beritahu, "aku dah retired~" mereka bukan peduli.
setiap kali aku lari, mesti aku nampak cerita ni. hu. nak lari untuk siapa kan?
so go ahead now
we cry, we try...
we'll rise..
aku harap, relay hari tu, itu terakhir aku lari untuk kejohanan. cerita relay tu, aku dan tiga lagi budak kelas aku dan 4 juniors. hm. hikmah relay, baiki hubungan antara kami berempat. at least, kitorang ada kenangan bersama kan? :) kemudian, mengeratkan silaturrahim dengan juniors itu. sepanjang relay itu, kami maintain no. 4 sebenarnya sehingga checkpoint 8. Florinna di c.p terakhir tu, yang lari laju-laju. dapat la tempat ketiga.
gr. hasil tiga hari di rumah, kurang dari tujuh puluh dua jam, tak buka pun nota-nota dalam beg besar Billabong itu. oh. beg itu, talinya sudah rosak! pada... lupa. minggu lepas. tengah sedang berlari-lari kat laluan yang menghala ke pusat sumber dari kantin, aku dapat rasa tali beg sebelah kiri seakan menggelusur dari bahu. hee. memang bebannya berat lah. tapi, masih boleh diguna lagi dengan usaha kemahiran hidup. walaupun aku tahu, KHB aku masa tingkatan tiga tak A.
hari ni misi ke kenduri terlaksana. walaupun begitu chaotic with flaws.
misi berjumpa cik Fatin Abd Fatah yang sedang dipanggil-panggil oleh Universiti Al-azhar itu juga terlaksana. walaupun bateri kereta kejap naik merah kejap tidak menyala merahnya.
segala puji bagi Allah. kemudian, segala puji bagi Allah.
setiap kali aku bertemu kembali mereka, aku ada satu rasa yang menyelinap dalam jiwa. rasa itu tidak aku tahu bagaimana untuk dinyatakan menggunakan perkataan-perkataan, disusun menjadi ayat. tapi, ianya indah. ia bisa membuatkami mengalirkan sungai dipipi kami.kami juga boleh menampilkan gigi indah kami dengannya. jiwang? memang. itulah hakikatnya. dan, jika anda; pembaca tidak offkan sound diblog ini, maka, rangkap pertama puisi yang dinadakan yang anda dengar, itulah perasaannya. :)
ada dua projek selepas habis exam. hah. semoga berjalan lancar.
lain kali, - no homecoming before i finish my examination. ini ayat yang dibaca dengan tegas!
entri tahun ini kurang dari tahun lepas. hm. isi pun kurang kut? ha. checklist. checklist. cari balik. cari balik. susahnya melawan hati sendiri. siapa kata senang? hati baik kata senang. hati yang jahat tu yang susah. tambah-tambah dah biasa buat sesuatu itu. mencabar kot nak hilangkan kebiasaan itu. ambil masa. ambil masa. usaha. usaha. yang penting, usaha. hasilnya? usaha dululah! selamat!
the bus was drift last night. i woke up with a shock.... err.. i don't know. i think my head hit the frame of the window at my left.
in the middle of exam fever, i came back home. :)
6th nov; there will be a wedding ceremony. :) my teacher's.
2 papers left for this final exam. english studies, social studies.
2 papers had been answered for 7 hours. wuh... the hall froze me!
whatever the reasons for my homecoming whatever my answers for any question i am who i am.
he.
mumbling. great self. great.
for the first time, i only carry 2 ordinary bags to return home. but, they are still heavy! can't help it. i love to bring back my books. :D i know it's my bad. and i can't get rid of it. uhf.
after one hour i arrived home from penang, my parents departed to there. hee. ayah has to meet his supervisor at USM. i bought my ticket about three weeks ago. no regret. :)
within one month, one died one retired one dated one... the cycle goes on, pray that we won't be in the stupid cycle.
one dated... aha. i was dating with ayah. :)
we can prepare a superb farewell party for one's retirement, can we prepare the best appreciation ceremony for one's coming death?
hm. i'm trying to be better in this English language. :)
o yeah. last night, i heard Arabic lesson on air. hm. Jama' is like plural, one stated (we also always hear the same thing from our teachers in school...). when i think about that carefully, it's unfair. why? in Arabic, jama' is for number that is more than three while plural is for more than one. thus, we can't make them same because they are different!
know everything, master of nothing.
got invitation from ESQ for MCB. uhu. need money. he. sorry can't take part in the program.
too many things to do.
for the exam, i've to cover the following topics: - English Studies; literary devices and elements in poem, short story, novel (To Kill a Mockingbird by Harper Lee) and play (Macbeth by Shakespeare) - Social Studies; culture and society, communication, gender and society, environment and development, conflict and resolution & globalisation in education.
these two subjects demand me to read lots of things. pergh.... yet these two subjects are in the top of four subjects. :)
spreading the rahmah over the world... why are we separating? separating ourselves... separating the world of world and hereafter... separating almost everything?
Mengkuang Dam... 101102. thanks my sisters for inviting me. thanks my another sister. thanks the brother. sorry for everything.
i ask myself, was i really mujahadah over my desire? am i really mujahadah over my wants? will i be a real mujahidah? mujahadah is not a word for jokes once i say i want to mujahadah it means i have to fight my own self i have to go over my mind i will hate my own self, pray hard. try hard. die hard to be a mujahidah, self.
decided to will be willing to reply comments starting from this entry. insya Allah.
kisahnya begini, jam 0250 tadi, seorang lelaki batch saya masa sekolah rendah tegur kat facebook chat. he's thanking me for tagging him in our batch photo during yesterday's gathering.
at the first second he wrote salam for me, i wasn't comfortable actually. he. because he's a male.
5 minutes later, my Indian boy classmate also buzzed me thru fB chat also. but, i don't have the uncomfortable feeling.
IS THIS FEELING RIGHT????
after several sentences, 0303hour, my ex-schoolmate wrote this,
"okla rase x elok r chat lame2 mlm2 ni ok assalamualaikum"
in my heart, "alhamdulillah!! finally~"
:) point saya ialah, selama ini saya memang tidak selesa-serba-salah bila chat dengan lelaki tanpa satu sebab yang munasabah atau important.. (Syar'ie kot istilah lebih tepat) jadi, tadi, bila dia yang menyatakan ayat undur diri itu, saya gembira! sebab maksudnya dia pun bukan suka-sukalah nak tegur saya. :)
tapi saya tau, saya tak adilkan. dengan budak kelas saya tu, saya tak rasa apa-apa perasaan tak selesa pun.
ada apa2 nasihat tak? :)
harap bermanfaat ceritanya, kan? :)
makanya, mungkin sebab tu jugak lah kot saya jadi kurang rajin sign in YM saya. he. godaan hebat. tett.
dah nak balik tempat tu balik dah... sambung sem 3.
ikutkan hati, dah tak mahu kembali ke sana.
macam-macam sebabnya.
satu semangat tak mahu kembali.
semangat satu lagi nak kembali.
hati yang satu lagi tu nak perbaiki apa yang patut.
satu hati tu dah lemah dah. kalau sambung pada mesin yang orang kat wad ICU tu, dah nak putus-putus dah garisan dia. bukan straight lagi!
hyperbole betul kan penulisan saya awal-awal pagi ini.
jiwa yang satu lagi tu pandai memujuk!
satu jiwa pun termakan sikit. lembut lah sikit sebab dibelai-belai dengan pujukan.
tapi, satu jiwa tetap macam liat-liat sebab membayangkan betapa mencabarnya nanti kemungkinan-kemungkinan situasi yang akan dihadapi.
jiwa yang satu lagi pulak berkeras dalam lemah gemalai membujuk satu hati tu!
dan dek kuasa kedua-dua hati, jiwa dan semangat yang lemah sebagai ciptaan, tetap menghadapi apa yang tersurat.
selamat bermujahadah menimba ilmu kembali!!
dan selamat menjaga hati.
17. Allah accept the repentance of those who do evil in ignorance and repent soon afterwards; to them will Allah turn in mercy: For Allah is full of knowledge and wisdom.[Surah 4. An-Nisa' (Women)]
setelah sekian lama aku tak rasa 'feel' menerima nasihat, semalam kena 'tembak' dengan ayat biasa,
"jaga diri."
rasa... rasa yang macam tu lah. rasa yang best tuh. ha. rindunya rasa itu kan...
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*tuzki tak ada nak letak muka-muka comel tuh...*
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let us rejoice indeed for this is the day of eid
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SELAMAT HARI RAYA FITRAH!
KULLU 'AM WA ANTUM BIKHAIR.
TAQOBBALALLAHU MINNA WA MIN KA / KI.
MOHON MAAF MENTAL EMOSI & FIZIKAL.
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Rasulullah sollallahu 'alaihi wasallam bersabda : "islam telah bermula dengan dagang dan ia akan kembali dagang, maka berbahagialah mereka bersama islam di waktu ia dagang" - riwayat Muslim.
2015.
i only ask for Allah, for 2015.
2013.
may 2013 have better unknown promises for us;that will make us turning back to it at the end of the yearsmiling =)
MY IMPORTANT DATES
the uncertainty - to be placed in school
once knew the state for my posting - update FB status with the state ;)
yada. i'm enjoying my holidays. insya Allah, every year, in December i'll be enjoying my holidays. in December!
how i wish to be questioned like the pic above for every break i have in the middle of semester.
one year ago, i'd passed my JPJ test in December. unfortunately that my PCDL will expire only in February 2012. =.= due to the late registration. :| i have 3 copies of my LCDL with me! hah.
how i was confuse to choose when i started to enjoy my studies. :)
2010 is leaving. it's been several years already. should i say i've grown up or i'm still growing up? :D
*knock my head*
